This episode was a concoction of survival and self expression and eventually self deprecation. I know that doesn’t make much sense now, but it will. I recently graduated at the ripe old age of 34. That combined with recently receiving my purple belt in Jiu Jitsu and starting a new career has me feeling a bit out of place. I also just got over having COVID, so I had nothing but time to sit and think about my life choices, which is never good. Perhaps it’s imposter syndrome, perhaps its my difficulty accepting good things. regardless, recent events are fueling me with things to talk about and work out. Oh yea, I also lost out on a million dollar contract which is something I have never experienced before and not sure I want to again.