The other day I had what I can only call a spiritual experience. I thought I was dying, my life was flashing before my eyes. It turns out, it was just me waking up to a deeper reality that's actually been here all along. After the experience, it was as if some automatic writing was coming through me, without conscious thought. Just channeling through. So I read the pages I wrote that night for the first time. It's called "No, you're not dying, just waking up."00:00 - What happened15:20 - The writingwww.joliehigazi.com

Some updates from week 3.5: physical setbacks, the micro-inequities of navigating the world in a wheelchair, and why sexual/social performance pressure holds us back from true connection.This is one of the first times I've shared so openly about sexuality, and I hope it helps you if that's an area you've ever had anxiety about like I've had.Chapters:00:00 - One Take, No Edits02:08 - Week 3 Setbacks05:15 - Numbness07:48 - Accessibility Inequity13:12 - Rock & Roll Hall of Fame17:33 - Living at Higher Levels of Consciousness 21:18 - Emotional Numbness29:05 - Numbing Pain Numbs Joy33:43 - Sexual Shame 40:00 - Sexual Performance Pressure44:36 - BDSM, Kink, & Consent48:58 - Emotional Safety52:16 - Living as Authentic Self

The hardest part about having knee surgery actually has nothing to do with my knee. It's the stillness that it forces. And in that stillness, I'm seeing a lot of grief and sadness come up to the surface. I share about the grief of rehoming my sweet pup Luca, the grief and processing of no longer having the sponsor I had for 15 years, and no longer having the therapist who witnessed so much of my growth and big life moments over the past 6 years. Grief isn't just about sad things; it's about honoring the depth of love and connection we've had across different chapters of our lives.00:00 - Post-Surgery Update02:30 - The 7-Year Cycle of Reinvention04:18 - Processing Mental & Emotional Pain vs. Physical Pain06:10 - Learning How to Ask for Help08:35 - Inner Child Grief & The 2-Year-Old Visitor12:15 - Rehoming Luca & Navigating Guilt vs. Relief13:20 - Transitioning Sponsors & Saying Goodbye to My Therapist17:22 - Feelings vs. Actions: Why Coexisting Emotions Matter23:30 - "It's an Honor to Feel This Much Hurt"26:45 - Closing ThoughtsRecorded 8/6/26.www.joliehigazi.com

[LIFE & RECOVERY UPDATE]

I recently had major surgery to repair a ruptured ACL and complex menisci tears—smack in the middle of moving out of my apartment of 7 years. For everyone who has been reaching out, checking in, and sending love: thank you. I’m rolling around in a wheelchair, testing out my quad activation (flex at 31:43!), and learning what it really means to slow way down.

[EPISODE OVERVIEW]

What happens when physical instability, moving chaos, and unexpected life friction all hit at once?

In this episode, I’m taking you inside the messy reality of the last six weeks. We talk about what it looks like to stay grounded when your usual "force and control" gas pedal stops working, why pushing harder in the middle of chaos backfires, and how to shift from hyper-vigilance to deep internal trust.Whether you’re tuning in to see how recovery is going or you're navigating your own external "tsunami," this is an unedited look at holding paradox: being physically broken down while remaining deeply centered on the inside.

Key Moments & Timestamps:

* 0:00 – The "spinning door" of ideas: Why high-capacity brains freeze up

* 3:37 – External tsunamis vs. internal regulation

* 9:22 – The 2-week post-op breakdown: ACL, meniscus, and moving boxes

* 19:28 – The "Ask a Life Coach" on crutches experiment

* 23:19 – The two gas pedals: Shifting from force to trust

* 31:43 – Quad flexes & recovery milestones (The proof!)

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Surgery to repair my torn ACL, lateral meniscus, and medial meniscus was on July 16, 2026. This episode was recorded July 30, 2026. www.joliehigazi.com

Jolie H. LGBT Pride in Recovery Speaker at Ohio Convention of Narcotics Anonymous (OCNA)

Are you living your life, or are you just following a script? Most of us are walking a path that was paved for us long before we were born. We go to school, get the job, buy the house, and check the boxes—only to wake up years later wondering why we feel so empty.

In this video, we dive deep into what it actually means to live authentically. Hint: It’s not about being a rebel or "brutally honest" with everyone; it’s about checking your internal GPS before you’ve driven 500 miles in the wrong direction.

In this video, you’ll learn:

• How to distinguish your true desires from "default" societal expectations.

• The "Muscle of Intuition" and how to exercise it daily.

• Why discovering what you hate is actually a massive win for your future.

• How to navigate major life transitions (career shifts, breakups, retirement) without losing your identity.

Stop living on autopilot. It’s time to find out who is actually behind the wheel.

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This episode challenges the modern culture of "canceling" and "black-and-white" thinking. Drawing from her own journey through childhood trauma, recovery from addiction, and a high-stakes escape from an abusive relationship, Jolie explains why grief is the ultimate doorway to a more expansive life.

She introduces the concept of "Standing in the Contradiction"—the rare emotional capacity to hold two opposing truths at once.

How can someone be both a source of deep pain and a source of profound love? How can we defend the humanity of a protester whose message we despise? This episode isn't about "thinking positive" or "light-washing" the truth; it’s a masterclass in emotional regulation, radical forgiveness, and the belief that when we stop resisting our pain, we finally become "un-burnable."

If you feel exhausted by the polarization of the world or trapped by past wounds, this conversation offers a roadmap toward a version of hope that is grounded, gritty, and undeniably real.

Timestamp Chapters

00:00 – The Audacity of Hope03:15 – Grief as the Key to Transformation

08:45 – Integrating the Duality of Trauma

14:30 – Recovery and the Ex-Fiancé19:15 – The "Pressure Cooker" Effect22:10 – Standing Up for Your "Enemy"28:00 – The Enemies Project & J.K. Rowling32:45 – There Is No "Them"

Show notes:

• Emma Watson on Jay Shetty Podcast--https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2caQ4j9oohE

• Enemies Project-- https://www.enemiesproject.org/
• Jolie's Website and Newsletter: https://www.joliehigazi.com/

If you’ve ever felt the 'shame spiral' of self-sabotage, struggled to forgive those who hurt you, or felt paralyzed by the fear of being misunderstood, this conversation offers a roadmap back to your own core goodness. It’s an invitation to stop hiding, embrace the 'shitty ingredients' of your life, and finally give yourself permission to be big in a world where it feels safer to stay small.

In this raw, unscripted New Year’s Day episode, Jolie explores the terrifying yet necessary transition from surviving to thriving. Drawing from 15 years of recovery and a journey through trauma, fundamentalism, and entrepreneurship, this episode is a 'message in a bottle' for anyone standing on the edge of their own expansion.

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Chapter Timestamps:

00:00 Power of Sending Messages to Future Self

04:15 The Promise of 2019

08:30 The Fear of "Being Big"

12:45 Facing the Fire

18:00 Standing in the Contradiction

23:15 The Logic of Compassion

28:50 The Cake Analogy

34:20 Walking Back Into the Fire

38:45 Breaking out of the Cocoon

42:30 Message to self for Dec 2026

In this episode, I share one of the most fulfilling moments of being a life coach: guiding someone who is standing exactly where I once stood. We dive into the complexities of breaking away from a toxic or emotionally abusive relationship, and the shock of realizing that the problem isn't just communication—it's legal.I sat down with a client who was ready to break up with her manipulative partner, but subconsciously failed to mention one critical detail: he was on the house deed and mortgage.What started as a coaching session to rehearse boundary-setting responses quickly transformed into a major, necessary realization: this wasn't a breakup; it was a divorce. If you are feeling trapped, manipulated, or like your attempts to leave always fail, this video is for you.In this video, you will learn:--How to distinguish a simple relationship end from a high-stakes, legally-tied separation.--The critical shift from needing to communicate your exit to needing to gather legal support.--The power of using your past hardships to provide invaluable wisdom to others.--Why the "quiet knowing" of fulfillment is the best feeling you can have.My hope is that this conversation gives you:1. Permission to stop debating or negotiating with a manipulative partner.2. Clarity on when to seek professional help.3. Hope that you can move through your hardest challenges and find peace on the other side.🔗 If you could use support on your journey, subscribe to the podcast and newsletter below to stay connected:https://www.joliehigazi.com/newsletter And here's the poem I mentioned I wrote: Do You Remember Me, Wise Oak Tree?

https://www.joliehigazi.com/blog/remember-me-wise-oak

My coach recently asked me, "What are your 3 biggest wins in your life so far?"

It really prompted some self-reflection. There's lots of things I've accomplished as a self-starter and multi-skilled person.

But when I distilled it all down, it really came down to 3 things that have really shaped my life as it exists today: My recovery, overcoming my trauma, and starting my business.

I explain how each of these have challenged me and helped me grow to allow all the other elements of my life to even be possible.

Links/resources mentioned in this episode:

Why I Don’t Drink or Get High Anymore: https://www.joliehigazi.com/blog/why-dont-drink-get-high

Thoughts on Being Clean: https://www.joliehigazi.com/blog/thoughts-being-clean-11-years

(Interview) My Journey In Becoming a Full Time Coach: https://www.joliehigazi.com/blog/interview-journey-full-time-coach

The Hardest Thing I’ve Ever Done: https://www.joliehigazi.com/blog/hardest-thing-done

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