Needlessly busy is something that one can describe one's life with occasionally. When life seems a mess with a torrent of unfinished tasks and upcoming tasks weighing heavy on one's soul, one can feel the fire that will lead to an eventual burn out. When one's life is needlessly busy, even good moments will be pushed aside to showcase the tiredness.

When one bottles emotions and keep going with a daily routine, sometimes those emotions will need a vent, and when that vent is provided it will erupt like a volcano. It's not always a bad thing, as an erupting volcano can also empty out a lot of negativity. So, when one is helping form a volcano, one can look back at a lot of conflicting and deep emotions, and let them run loose. Maybe even try to plan ahead now that the avalanche of feelings is over with.

Though one can try, one cannot separate mind from body. When body is in pain, mind wanders and mind tries to look at body to see what has caused it pain. When that pain is from physical activity, one goes into retrospective of one's life choices and lifestyle. Physique is a two-fold question, one from beauty and one from health. When there's pain involved, health becomes more apparent, and it does push one to look at one's own physique with a more critical eye.

Emotions are hard to telegraph, and they are even harder to express when put in front of people one might have an inkling of those emotions for. Like many choices in one's life, the choice is down to a mix of risk assessment and courage. When one might lose a friend, one might gain something more; but is that risk worth taking? Questions like that make expressions what they are: small acts with big consequences.

There's an old adage of "everyone is truly alone", where it deposits that even when one is surrounded by other presences, one can still be alone. The adage might appear as cynical or pessimistic, but cynicism and pessimism can infect the most hopeful and optimistic of minds too. When one sits in the corner of a room looking at people one loves, and feels disconnected from them, one feels truly alone.

The act of videomaking is something between writing an essay, conducting a research, and creating art. It might not rank high on the "high art" chart when compared to other forms of visual media, but it still does factor in creation. It still has framing, pacing, rhythm, substance, form and style. So what happens when one who has been away from that act of creation for a number of months, decides to return to it? How will one cope?

TGTBTI - We Didn't Start the Fire, Part 1: https://youtu.be/qmNh8Ygn29s

Physical pain oftentimes punctuates many things, from mental anguish to existential crises. Excruciating physical pain can even make day-to-day operations invalid and impossible, and when it comes to excruciating physical pain there's seldom a more troubling suspect than tooth. A good toothache can knock even the strongest and most virile down, let alone when one has the lowest threshold for pain imaginable.

There are times, sometimes far between and sometimes in rapid succession, where one feels isolated and abandoned. There are times, sometimes far between and sometimes in rapid succession, where the thoughts and actions of everything done and everything that will be done would break upon one's psyche like a crumbling foundation of a tower. There are times, sometimes far between and sometimes in rapid succession, where one forgets who they are.

Planning is an important part of preparing for the future of one's life. One plans for how to live, how to love, how to grow, and how to survive. But plans are not guaranteed to work nor guaranteed to work out the way they were planned. One might slip in adhering to the steps previously thought, and one might not get the result that was expected. But that is under normal circumstances. When one lives in a corner of the world plagued with abnormality, how shall one plan?

How does one develop an obsession with a media property? It might seem like a long process but all one needs is a combination of right time and right state of mind. One such obsession can be found in a game show that graced the UK television in 2014 and has been going strong since then. One such obsession can be the wonderous and exciting world which houses Greg Davies and little Alex Horne: TASKMASTER.

Alasdair Beckett-King: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCq5btGtqdn4CpvU0xTXaelA