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💥 Episode Summary

What happens when the healing journey breaks you before it helps you?

In this raw, unfiltered episode, Todd Jarratt shares the story of his psychotic break during a silent Vipassana retreat, while living alone in a van on the road. What started as a mission for peace turned into a terrifying descent into anxiety, panic attacks, depression, and daily dissociation.

But it wasn’t the end .. it was the beginning of everything.

Todd walks us through how this breakdown became his breakthrough. He shares:

• ⚡️ What actually happens to the nervous system in a trauma response
• 🧠 Why somatic freeze is often misunderstood (and how it showed up in his life)
• 🛋️ How therapy helped him rebuild trust with his body and mind
• 🧘‍♂️ The dangers of forced stillness without trauma awareness
• 👊 Why most men suppress their emotions until it explodes
• 🔄 How becoming the client made him a better coach

Whether you’ve been through your own mental crash, or you’re supporting someone who has .. this conversation is a must-listen for anyone walking the line between collapse and growth.

🧠 Key Topics We Cover

• The difference between anxiety vs. nervous system dysregulation
• How trauma can show up after silence, stillness, or isolation
• The link between childhood programming and adult shutdown
• Tools Todd used to navigate freeze states and daily dread
• Rebuilding identity and nervous system safety after psychosis
• The truth about how “doing the work” isn’t always clean or linear

If you'd like to connect with Todd: 

https://www.instagram.com/toddjarratt/