There is a concept by sociologist Charles Horton Cooley called The "looking-glass self " theory or 'peopling' as it is contemporarily called, that explains why we always shrink away from divine utility when we've been 'bad'.

God has a plan for that. 

Let him use you.

SYNTROPY > ENTROPY

What are the practical, real life implications of a life given over to the Government of God? I believe the divine overflow of an existence rightly ordered is simply us, submitted sons (and daughters) of God, manifesting the spirit of sonship, existing as agents of syntropy in an entropic world. 

SURRENDER > STRENGTH

It took 42 years of failed resolutions to finally get it. Resignation, not resolution is how we should start, and win the year.