"I have, through a great multiplicity of worldly affairs, and a deep engagement in them, lost that savour and relish for divine things I once experienced, and have become a sad stranger to that real communion with God, which was previously my chief joy. And I have so greatly declined in the Christian life, that I can sometimes omit the duties of private prayer and meditation; and at other times, I perform them with formality and coldness, and I am in no way suitably affected with my sad defections.