Maria Krause CEO of Unchain Your Inner Strength empowers women to come back to their authentic selves. As a spiritual mindset and alignment mentor, and International Best-Selling Author she helps women understand themselves through their stories and peel off the layers that no longer serve them. Her company includes a Podcast, Online Magazine Publishing company and now an online clothing store! Trigger warning, we discuss a sexual assault that happened to her many years ago. If you have had some trauma around this, please check in with yourself to see if it feels appropriate for you to listen to our conversation. After she was sexually assaulted Maria lost herself in drugs and alcohol. She was engaging in self-destructive behaviors and avoiding the healing necessary from being aggressively sexually assaulted. She wanted to be loved and sought out and attracted toxic relationships because she felt she could only be loved through sex. Society often blames the women when they are assaulted, in this case, someone drugged her drink when she was out at a club in NYC. At the age of 36 she met a man, her intuition told her to run, but her need to be loved and seen trumped her intuition. Turns out he was a narcissist and totally controlling. She lost herself and developed physical illness like IBS and skin issues on her hands in addition to depression. Her body was in constant pain and mentally she went through a very dark time. A dark night of the soul. Slowly she started pulling back from this guy. She was finishing college and changed jobs. She didn't want the part lifestyle anymore or the relationship. She couldn't take it anymore and when he got physically violent, she left Ireland to move home to Argentina. She was so lonely but needed the time to heal. The narcissist will never change. They have low self-esteem and will not allow you to feel good about yourself because they feel bad about themselves. They will pull you down. Therapy for the narcissist makes them better liars, they do not heal. She completely lost herself, no personality, only depended on him to define and see her. When she arrived home, she had a lot of anger, sadness and was numb. she stopped drinking and drugs; she couldn't be there anymore. She started back to yoga, went for walks. She realized she wanted to support women with their own empowerment, to release shame and guilt.
She is now 1 year sober after 4 attempts. She lost self-doubt and views her life from a different perspective. She recognizes as an empath what is hers and gives back what is not. She realized what drinking and drugs were costing her. Letting go of shame and guilt was key. You find your freedom when you find your truth, we are here to be ourselves!