In this episode, I sit down with my teacher and dear friend, Chantel TwoCrows, for a raw and honest conversation about addiction through the mythic lens of Persephone’s descent into the underworld.

We explore the idea that addiction is not a moral failure, but a form of unfinished initiation, a sort of a descent that never got the chance to complete and transform us.

Chantel shares how she found herself inside the world of alcoholism - not through her own drinking, but through a partners' entangled family. Though she didn’t personally struggle with alcohol, she was deeply impacted by the trauma that addiction created in that world.

She also opens up about her complex relationship with cannabis. While it didn’t wreak havoc like alcohol, it quietly controlled her life—keeping her caught in a similar pattern of avoidance and emotional disconnection.

This conversation itself became a kind of ceremony. We recorded it across three separate sessions, peeling back deeper layers each time. What emerged is not just a discussion of descent — it’s a lived descent. One that honors the underworld and the wisdom that can only be gathered through a personal journey to the depths of oneself.

Thank you for journeying with us! We hope that this episode finds those it is meant to find! Please reach out to either of us if you are struggling with addicition.

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Welcome to the very first episode of The Pussy Portal Podcast! Recorded in 2022, nearly three years before I was ready to actually carry out this mission.
This is where I open up about the wild, unfiltered download that pushed me to start this journey—an awakening born from divorce, chaos, and breaking free from everything I thought I knew. I’ll share how the catharsis of losing everything that made up my former life plunged me into shamanic initiation, diving deep into the dark and sacred waters of transformation.

A truth to hold: this episode was recorded before I fully stepped into my initiation—before I went through the descent, the death and rebirth journey. It’s vulnerable for me to share these raw words, as they come from a place of raw discovery, still unfolding. But that’s exactly what makes it real and potent—this is the raw, unpolished beginning of a sacred rebirth.

Join me as I peel back the layers of awakening and invite you to explore your own portal of transformation.

Join me for a special conversation with Chantel TwoCrows - psychic-shaman and visionary artist who studied over 20 years under the guidance of Medicine Crow, Principal Chief of the New Jersey Sand Hill Band of Lenape and Cherokee Indians.

In this episode, Chantel shares the story of how she first met Medicine Crow at a drum circle — an encounter that not only introduced her to the sacred drum but also to her medicine path.

We explore the drum as a symbol of the heartbeat of the Mother and a powerful tool for journeying into the spirit world.

Chantel also offers wisdom on the nature of the spirit world itself — and how we enter it through the combined power of imagination, intention, and focused attention.

If you’ve ever felt curious about drum journeying, the unseen realms, or shamanic medicine, this is a rich and soulful conversation that will speak to your heart.

The pussy in the pussy portal is not a sexual invitation. It is a soul invocation. And it deserved a manifesto.