"I want to talk about comparison, and in particular the type that creates the dynamic where we hustle for our worth."

This is about the comparison that makes you hustle for your worth. You create something, you get online, you see someone who did it better, and you start second guessing. That's comparison abandonment: when being not chosen once makes the whole world a competition, and everyone a threat to your survival.

For years I let it run me. I remade myself again and again, second guessed every launch until it never came out clean. Building Root & Rise, I finally refused to let my protectors run the show. Now I can be inspired instead of panicked. I can pause, breathe, and decide from my body instead of my fear.

In this episode:

• Comparison abandonment, and why being "not chosen" turns the whole world into a competition
• How comparison sets off three protectors at once: the Overthinker, the Pivoter, the Hustler
• The years I kept remaking myself, and the launches that never came out clean
• Building a company without letting the protectors run the show
• Getting inspired instead of panicked: pause, breathe, decide from the body

You've built something real. This is where you make sure it doesn't cost you yourself.

🌱 Root & Rise Collective
📖 The Regulated CEO on Substack
📍 Which part is running your show? Take the quiz, link in bio

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"The Hustler does not want to sit with herself. If she is still for even a second, the feelings, the thoughts, the criticisms, the things she doesn't want to look at start to emerge."

You get busy real fast and fill every nook and cranny with ideas, projects, to-do lists. It feels like productivity. It's also a survival strategy, learned young, and it's ruled by a protector I call the Hustler.

I went through a hard breakup, and within a couple of weeks I'd built an entire course, recorded everything, made all the worksheets. Then I lost the desire to sell it. I almost got high off the creation itself, because go, go, go meant I didn't have to feel the heartbreak, or the fear, or the criticism. [BRIDGE, your line: get us from the breakup course into the reframe.] It's not self-sabotage. It's self-protection.

In this episode:

• Why filling every minute is a survival strategy, not just productivity
• The breakup, the course I built in weeks, and the launch that flopped
• Dorsal vagal shutdown: overriding your nervous system until there's no juice left to sell
• Launching Root & Rise on one Facebook post, 20 employees, zero job ads
• Why delegation isn't about being overwhelmed, it's about what you're not the best at
• The turn: the Hustler is protecting you, and the work is letting real feedback in without letting her run the whole show

You've built something real. This is where you make sure it doesn't cost you yourself.

🌱 Root & Rise Collective, my group practice
📖 The Regulated CEO on Substack
📍 Which part is running your show? Take the quiz, link in bio

"For years I told everyone I was type B. Messy books, notes on my iPad, no real systems. What I didn't realize is that my perfectionist wasn't missing. She was hiding as avoidance."

We think perfectionism looks like color-coded spreadsheets and everything in its place. But there's another face of it almost no one names: avoidance. Not looking at the details. Scrapping the whole thing instead of reviewing it and making small changes. Not launching, not reviewing, not asking for the money — because if you look too closely, you might feel the shame of it not being perfect. So a part of you says: don't look. Just avoid it.

In this episode I get honest about how that protector ran my business for years — the captions I never reread, the systems I wouldn't build, the rage I'd feel when someone asked about my budget. And I tell the full story of the Greece retreat: a beautiful program I delivered on, undone by the details I refused to look at — the villa I never visited in person, the boat, the books I avoided — and what it ultimately cost me. I share it because I want you to know you can get it wrong, recover, and keep building.

In this episode:
• The perfectionist who hides as avoidance — why "don't look at it" feels safer than facing the mess
• Why this shows up hardest around money, selling, and receiving
• Why you can't discipline or push through this part — and what actually works
• The Greece retreat: how avoiding the details cost me a business, and what it taught me
• Holding shame close instead of hiding from it — the tender self underneath the protector
• Done in a way that aligns with your integrity beats perfect every time

The full life-story version — how this shaped the way I built Root & Rise — is over on my Substack, The Regulated CEO. This show is the nervous-system half, because for an owner those were never two different things.

🌱 Root & Rise Collective — my group practice
📖 The Regulated CEO on Substack
📍 Which part is running your show? Take the quiz — link in bio

"I thought I knew everything about being a boss. I'd been my own boss for ten years."

But I wasn't a business owner who happened to be a therapist — I was a therapist who happened to have a business. And there's a world of difference. In this episode I get honest about the ten years of mountains nobody warns you about: the messy books, the thirteen offices, the taxes and insurance and S-corp nuances grad school never mentioned, and the quiet fear and avoidance underneath all of it.

Then I go where most business content won't — the emotional cost of constantly stretching, failing, and getting back up. And I introduce the protector who ran the show for me: the Dimmer. The part that learned, a long time ago, that shining too bright either hurt the people I loved or made me a target. So when a supervisee I believed in handed me one of the biggest compliments of my life — you could lead a group practice — the Dimmer's first move was to shut it down. Who am I to do that?

This is the story of sitting down with that part instead of overriding her — and what happened when I finally said yes and started Root & Rise Collective.

In this episode:
• Therapist-who-owns-a-business vs. business-owner-who's-a-therapist — and why the difference matters
• The stuff grad school never taught you (and why you need business classes as much as clinical ones)
• Meet the Dimmer: the protector that keeps you small right when you're about to grow
• How a compliment can trigger a protector harder than criticism
• Sitting with a part somatically — and what happens when a second protector shows up
• Why "when it's aligned, the hard stuff doesn't feel as hard"

The business nitty-gritty lives on my Substack, The Regulated CEO. This show is the nervous-system half — because for an owner, those were never two different things.

If you're building or scaling and trying to expand your capacity without abandoning yourself, you're in the right place. Follow along. 🤍

🌱 Root & Rise Collective — my group practice
📖 The Regulated CEO on Substack
📍 Which part is running your show? Take the quiz — link in bio

"I always thought private practice was the finish line."

For over ten years, I ran a thriving private practice — private pay, my own schedule, the thing other therapists told me I was lucky to have. And I was grateful. But I was also the only employee, which meant I could never actually put it down. I piled my calendar before every vacation and after it. I worked through postpartum. I worked through my divorce. My nervous system was shot. I was a very dysregulated CEO — and a very dysregulated mom.

This first episode is the origin story: how I went from believing I'd "made it" to realizing I'd built a job, not a company — and the questions that finally cracked the whole thing open. Because the only two levers I'd ever been handed were see more clients or charge more — and both of them run straight through my own body. I was finally close enough to the ceiling to see it.

In this episode:
• Why owning your practice can still feel like working for everyone but yourself
• The real cost of being the only employee — and why "just raise your rates" is a ceiling, not a solution
• My detour into coaching, and why I refused to abandon being a therapist to scale
• Burnout, redefined: your nervous system's response to stress that never got to complete — and why it is NOT inevitable
• "You might be the one who holds it all. But you don't always have to."

The Regulated CEO is where the two conversations nobody puts together finally meet: the real math of building a practice, and the nervous system underneath it. I'm building this thing in real time — I started my group practice just last year — and I'm documenting all of it. The good, the bad, the ugly.

If you own your business, or you want to, and you're tired of "successful" just meaning more of you — pull up a chair. This isn't a table I'm protecting. Come join it.

🌱 Root & Rise Collective — my group practice
📖 The Regulated CEO on Substack
📍 Which part is running your show? Take the quiz — link in bio