I’m Starting Anew

My life is changing, I’m starting anew,

The time has come, and I will see it through.

Although I feel scared, I know this is meant to be,

I’m finally here and I’m setting myself free.

This freedom, though, comes at a cost,

One that most, including me, at some level has crossed,

Me over into the threshold of loss,

Yet it’s different somehow, my wings are aloft.

These wings I found, they’ve been there all along,

The cocoon that opened, has begun to make them strong.

Or to break free from the cage that has kept me bound,

Even though the door was open all along, this shift is profound.

Having trouble putting the words into view,

Knowing the sages, at times, had the same trouble too.

I watch my life and how it is changing me,

Happy to watch it while fear is what I see.

I tell myself that is normal to have,

This fear I’m feeling and need to salve,

The wounds, the memories, the healing as one,

To move into a space that brings out the sun.

It’s not out there, it’s deep in here,

This morning as I wait to start movement, I shed a tear.

The tear is for joy, for the feeling of love,

I am having for Self, my true Beloved.

No, I don’t know what is happening now,

Yes, the unknown is helping me allow.

These feelings I have that I don’t recognize,

Yet the love inside does pressurize.

This need to shift, this need to move,

The Gypsy Queen is here to improve.

This life of mine from her space now,

That helps me to see what the fates will allow.

I’m ready now, more than ever,

I’m ready to move, I have finally met her.

She is the one who has guided me through,

To this place in time where I’m starting anew.

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