All Kinds Of Everything

Seeing as how I have now taken over all the duties in the clinic while Julie goes through treatment and recovery, I have become extremely conscious of how I smell. It’s not something that’s concerned me before, I am not a particularly smelly bloke, so the usual daily deodorant was normally suffice. On the other hand I’ve never had to be in the personal space of so many women before and it’s started to bother me. So I treated myself to a nice bottle of aftershave.

I’ll be honest, I know very little about cologne. I’ve never really used the stuff to any great extent, but I thought it would probably be the best way to guarantee a nice aroma, while getting up close and personal with the clients.

It is possible that as my brain continues to come online again it’s part of me that should have switched on years ago but for whatever reason it didn’t.

So I popped onto Amazon, had wee look about and after reading a few reviews I decided on Khamrah Lattafa. It was a decent price but not cheap enough to arouse suspicion, don’t wont to be going around smelling like a second hand car salesman.

Anyway it duly arrived and I have to say for £25 it’s pretty good and comes in a lovely presentation box. As you can see, the bottle itself is extremely attractive, but why am I telling you this?

Don’t Mind If I Don’t

I’m telling you this because out of all the aftershaves I could have bought, I’ve bought one that looks exactly like a glass of single malt whisky. I don’t know how many times I’ve turned round and gone to put my hand out to take a drink. You get that double whammy of disappointment, first of all it isn’t and second of all even if it was I wouldn’t be able to take a sip anyway.

Here’s the funny thing though, single malt whisky is the only drink in the world I can stop at one with. One beer? I don’t think so. One vodka? No. One tequila? You’re joking right? But one whisky - okay one double whisky - and ice and I will sit and savour it all night, enjoying the burn in the throat and the bodily warmth it provides - Uisge Beatha right enough, the water of life.

Never Say Never

One of the things I do hope comes out of all of this is that one day I will be able to enjoy a wee dram again. I loved the malt for what it was, not just the buzz. Beer on the other hand, I don’t really like the taste of, but the end justified the means if you know what I mean. It does what it says on the tin, literally. Incidentally, I came of the other spirits years ago, I have my reasons, that’s all I’m saying.

The fact that I only drank to balance out the dull of the cannabis bodes well in my favour, on the other hand it might put me through the roof, who knows.

Whatever happens, it will be many years before I am willing to take that gamble and risk the new architecture. That much I do know.

Meanwhile the slow part of the repair continues; some days I’ll just waffle, some days I’ll have milestones, that’s just the way it is at the minute.

The main thing is I’m still here - logging, laying the stones, and building the foundations of the lighthouse.

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