All Day Long I think Of Things

Amazingly I’m not bringing waffle today. For the second day in a row I actually have another milestone to share, although I can’t promise the journey to get there won’t involve a few diversions.

The good news: one of my TikTok videos has gone semi-viral. The irony? It’s the only one out of 90+ videos that isn’t about recovery. But my profile is clear about the mission here, and the surge has brought a wave of new followers into the fold regardless. They all count at the end of the day.

Slave to the (Algo)rithm

This was a quick stitch I threw together weeks ago. Back then, it stalled at 500 views despite a 52% completion rate and a 98% average watch time. In the “New Creator Sandbox,” the algorithm simply didn’t distribute it. I was pretty cheesed off at the time - I knew the data meant the video deserved a push.

But as I noted a few Dispatches ago, the tide has turned. Thirty-six hours ago, that video was sitting at under 1,000 views. As I write this, it’s hit 38,500 and is still climbing.

The “Paranoid” Principle

It reminds me of Black Sabbath. They wrote “Paranoid” in about 20 minutes as a last-minute filler track because the album was three minutes short. Tony Iommi knocked out that legendary riff while the rest of the band was at the pub.

Sometimes, the best work comes when you stop overthinking. That’s a lesson I’m forced to learn daily as this journey continues.

The Sonic Buffer and the Hydro Continuum

Lately, I’ve been struggling to articulate thoughts. The ideas are there, but the brain locks up - the “Manager” of my executive suite (PFC) is being too restrictive. This has been an ongoing issue for years, but it’s actually intensifying right now. That’s because of the synaptic pruning happening as part of the repair; my brain is busy cutting away 35 years of ‘noise’ and dead-wood, and the Manager is over-compensating for the chaos by clamping down on the flow. Yesterday, I put my newly discovered tools to the test to bypass that lock-up. Twice. Both were a total success.

1. The Sonic Buffer (4:00 PM): I plugged the guitar into the effects pedal, put on the headphones, and let rip with the nastiest, heaviest distortion I could find. Ten minutes of that “noise” occupied my PFC just enough to cause a lateral shift. When I sat down to record the TikTok, the words just came. I didn’t settle for “acceptable” either; I kept going until I was happy.

2. The Notes for Water Protocol: Before last night’s Dispatch, I used the Hydro Continuum. I headed into the shower and used the white noise of the water to distract the “Manager” again. The thoughts that flow afterward aren’t created in the shower - they are just released. By occupying the PFC with sensory input, the “Manager” doesn’t have the bandwidth to block the creative flow.

This is the protocol I’ll be adopting for the stage to prevent the lock-ups that have haunted me from the beginning. The Sonic Buffer that is, I’m not sure how many stages out there are actually plumbed in. If it can break the lock-up for a TikTok, the hypothesis for live comedy is sound. We shall see.

You’ve likely experienced this yourself - ever noticed how your clearest thoughts or best ideas suddenly appear while you’re in the shower or doing something repetitive? It’s not a coincidence. It’s because your ‘Manager’ is busy processing the sensory input of the water, which leaves the back door open for your creative flow to slip through.

I told you I might descend into waffle. Oh well. Never mind. There’s always tomorrow.

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