The Illicit Feminine

The Split Self: Why You Feel Torn Inside and How to Begin Integrating Your Sovereign Truth


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Have you ever felt pulled in two directions unable to make a decision, looping in confusion, or feeling like two different versions of yourself are at war inside?

In this powerful episode of The Illicit Feminine, Elizabeth continues the Sovereign Descent series by guiding listeners through Gate Three: The Split Self - the internal divide between who you became to survive and who you were born to be.

Drawing from the ancient Sumerian myth of Inanna and deeply embodied feminine psychology, this episode explores why the split self is not a flaw, pathology, or personal failure but an intelligent survival strategy shaped by early conditioning, emotional wounds, and the need for safety and belonging.

Elizabeth breaks down the two core identities at play:


• The compliant self, shaped by survival, approval, and conditioning
• The sovereign self, rooted in truth, desire, inner authority, and embodied power

Between these two selves lies an internal battlefield that shows up as exhaustion, indecision, anxiety, self-betrayal, overthinking, and a persistent feeling of being stuck. This episode names what so many women feel but cannot articulate and offers a path forward that does not involve forcing clarity or “just making a decision.”

You’ll learn why:

  • Confusion is not the problem, but a symptom of unresolved survival patterns
  • Demanding certainty too soon keeps you trapped in the split
  • Integration - not elimination - is the true path to wholeness
  • The nervous system must feel safe before truth can rise
  • Coherence in the body precedes clarity in the mind

Elizabeth also shares a gentle somatic integration practice to help you begin holding both selves with compassion, allowing the internal war to soften and your center to return.

This episode is an invitation to stop abandoning yourself, to stop disappearing parts of who you are, and to begin the sacred work of integration where survival and sovereignty no longer compete, but coexist.

You are not split because you are weak.
You are split because you survived.

Next week, the Sovereign Descent continues with Gate Four: The Disavowed Woman, where shadow, exile, and reclamation take center stage.

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Thank you so much for listening, and remember come as you are in your light, in your shadow, in your illicit feminine. Please subscribe to my podcast and leave a five-star review.

Elizabeth

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The Illicit FeminineBy Elizabeth Marth