The Still Hopeful Podcast

We couldn't get through this episode without crying. Sonia speaks about her baby girl, Autumn so beautifully and with so much love. Her sweet girl was stillborn at 32 weeks after battling three years of infertility. We talk about the moment she learned the heartbreaking news and the birth of her sweet daughter. 

"I can't live in a world where I can't connect with her" is something Sonia shares and it resonated so deeply with me. We talk about signs and all of the ways that Autumn has shown up for her. We say we feel less crazy when we hear other people's stories too. Too many stories that go beyond coincidences and it just has to be our babies. 

We also laugh a lot because there's something so comforting about finding another mom who's part of this club too.

Sonia is also pregnant again and I can't wait to have her back on the podcast to talk all things pregnancy after loss and all the layers that brings.

Connect with Sonia here on Instagram. 

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

What a special episode I have for you today with Emmy!

We talk all things related to pregnancy after loss. Emmy is currently in her third trimester with her baby boy after the full-term stillbirth of her sweet daughter, Layla, in 2022. 

We discuss:

-Layla's stillbirth

-"visiting" the sad moments, but refusing to "stay" there

-feeling God's presence

-choosing hope over fear

-praying and speaking into existence that this little baby IS coming home. The power that comes when we switch from IF to IS

-re-setting up a nursery that connects both our baby in heaven and the one on the way

-answering the inevitable questions, like "how many kids do you have?" and how our answers have evolved over time based on our journey and timelines

-what healing looks like for Emmy

-imagining future moments with our rainbow babies as a way of fostering hope

You can connect with Emmy here on Instagram.

And listen to her podcast here, Beyond the Pain: Heart and Home Healing After Loss. Available on all podcast platforms.

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Be sure to subscribe to the podcast so that you can follow along throughout your pregnancy journey.

Instagram: @thestillhopefulpodcast
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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

Hi everyone! I'm back from a two month break so let's call this season 3 of the podcast now.

This episode is about going back to work after having my rainbow baby girl. I've navigated returning to work after my leave from Christopher's stillbirth and it was absolutely heart-wrenching. Going back to work when I should have had to plan out childcare and routines...it just reminded me of everything I had lost when I lost him. And so when I returned to work after having Veronica, it really changed my perspective on things. This is like the 5th trimester for us...figuring out what life looks like now that I'm back at work and balancing what motherhood looks like now.

I give tips about meal planning, setting boundaries, planning a back to work wardrobe, and all the layers that come with returning back to work. After recording, I always wish I went in detail about a few more things! Like I didn’t mention the emotional toll it took to wean from breastfeeding in order to prepare for back to work. Or when I talked about gender in pregnancy after loss, how that is such a layered topic. Always more we could go into so if you ever want to continue the conversation, please know you can message me on instagram. 

I hope this resonates with you and I'd love to hear how you're preparing for back to work or what has helped you with navigating this new transition. And if you're not returning back to work and have chosen to stay home, please know that is a HUGE and important job in itself and the tips I share can resonate with you too.

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

Christina is a trooper! She came on the podcast at just 5 weeks postpartum with her beautiful earth side baby girl. We talk about the difficulties of postpartum life, the challenges of asking for help, the sleep deprivation, the love, all of it. We delve into her motherhood journey that started with back to back losses. Christina experienced a miscarriage at 8 weeks and we talk about how frightening and devastating that was. And then her beautiful boy was born still at 18 weeks. She named him Hope-Song because he represents hope for their family and he is the song in her heart. Christina is incredibly poetic and she hopes to one day release a memoir. I know this memoir will help so many moms feel validated in their motherhood journeys that include devastating loss. We then discuss her pregnancy with her earth side daughter and her birth where she experienced the most beautiful sign from her son in heaven: flickering lights throughout the labour. 

Connect with Christina on Instagram here. She posts beautiful, heartfelt poems that capture her motherhood journey.

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Be sure to subscribe to the podcast so that you can follow along throughout your pregnancy journey.

Instagram: @thestillhopefulpodcast
Website: https://stillhopeful.buzzsprout.com/

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

In this episode, I sit down with Brittany, a brave mama who shares her journey less than nine months after the stillbirth of her sweet son, Mason. This is part 2 of our conversation, so be sure to check out Brittany's first episode here.

Brittany opens up about the ways she keeps Mason present in her family’s life: like lighting a candle for him every evening for dinnertime and getting him little presents for holidays. 

She also shares how she and her husband navigated telling their toddler son that his baby brother wouldn't be coming home from the hospital. He got to meet him and has a photo of him in his room. It's the kind of conversation parents never envision having with their children, but it's our reality. We talk openly about how we second guess what we say and we end up grieving twice: first for what happened, and then for our children who are growing up without their sibling.

This conversation is a reminder that love doesn’t end with loss, and that our angel babies will always be part of our families in beautiful and meaningful ways.

Be sure to reach out to Brittany and follow along with her journey here on Instagram.

Here is the episode where I had Sharon on, the medium I referenced!

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Be sure to subscribe to the podcast so that you can follow along throughout your pregnancy journey.

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

What a special episode I have for you today. First off, when Alexa started off the episode talking about her sweet angel son, an orb appeared on the screen above her shoulder. It's something her little Kayde is known to do. I'm honoured he joined in on the conversation too. Alexa is a mama to two earth-side children and an Angel, she's a nurse, host to the Beyond the Birth Story podcast, and the Founder of the Kayde Foundation.

We talk about the beautiful signs from her son, like ladybugs in the most unlikely of places. Alexa and I discuss how these signs keep us going and help us feel connected to our little ones in heaven.

We dive into Alexa's uterine rupture that resulted in her son's full-term stillbirth and we tackle the myth that time heals all wounds. It is still painful almost three years later and that is normal because we're still living without our babies.

We also talk about pregnancy after loss, her time in the NICU with her rainbow, and how she navigates helping her six year old daughter form a relationship with her brother in heaven.

This is such a beautiful episode and I hope you reach out to Alexa here on instagram and listen to her podcast.

Explore The Beyond the Birth Story on Instagram.

Explore The Kayde Foundation on Instagram.

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

Feeding a baby can feel like such a big, emotional part of motherhood, and honestly, it’s not always as simple as we expect. Adding in our history of loss, there are even more layers to feeding our babies. Whether it’s formula, pumping, breastfeeding, or some mix of everything, each path comes with its own set of challenges and tender moments. 

In this episode, I’m sharing a mix of practical tips and some of my own stories from feeding my rainbow baby, along with the reminders I wish I had heard in those early days. Because the truth is, there’s no one “right” way to feed your baby. What matters most is finding what works for you, and leaning into the love and connection that happens in those quiet feeding moments.

If you’ve ever felt the pressure to get it “just right”, this episode is for you.

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Instagram: @thestillhopefulpodcast
Website: https://stillhopeful.buzzsprout.com/

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

In this touching episode, I talk with Brittany, a mom to an almost 4-year-old and to her sweet son, Mason, who she lost at full term just eight months ago.

Brittany opens up about the shock of stillbirth: how we never think it will happen to us until it does, and the loneliness that follows. She shares how the community of angel moms has become a lifeline of support, reminding her she’s not walking this road alone.

She takes us through her birth story with Mason, describing the moment he arrived: how the room felt both silent and deafening at the same time, and the ways she continues to honour him every day.

Brittany has found purpose in her grief, starting two new businesses in Mason’s name: one creating beautiful bracelets to remember babies gone too soon, and the other as a grief coach supporting others through loss.

This is a raw, honest conversation about love, loss, and finding meaning in the aftermath. You can reach out and connect with Brittany here.

SONG: Held by Natalie Grant

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Be sure to subscribe to the podcast so that you can follow along throughout your pregnancy journey.

Instagram: @thestillhopefulpodcast
Website: https://stillhopeful.buzzsprout.com/

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

In this special episode, I sit down with Samantha, a mom who shares her powerful journey through love, loss, and healing. Samantha opens up about the heartbreaking moment where she learned that her baby girl, Vera, had medical conditions that were not compatible with life. We talk about the heartbreak of holding our babies in the hospital room and trying to make as many memories as possible with them. She shares how signs like butterflies and bunnies bring her comfort and help her feel Vera’s presence even now.

We discuss her experience navigating pregnancy after loss, including learning she was pregnant with twins, and the sorrow of later discovering that one did not survive. Vera leaned on counselling, affirmations, and community support to keep going after experiencing so much heartache. One thing that really stood out is her reminder that moving forward is not moving on.

Samantha also shares how she created a beautiful legacy in Vera’s honour, including a binder full of the meaningful ways she gives back to the bereavement community, like donating to the hospital that cared for them.

We wrap up with an honest conversation about postpartum, the grief, the playbacks, the waves of emotion, and her best advice: find someone you trust who can hold space for all of it.

Samantha’s love for all of her babies shines through in every part of this conversation. You can connect with her and order your very own set of affirmation cards for pregnancy after loss here.

We also talk about psychic medium, Sharon in this episode. You can hear her episode here.

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Be sure to subscribe to the podcast so that you can follow along throughout your pregnancy journey.

Instagram: @thestillhopefulpodcast
Website: https://stillhopeful.buzzsprout.com/

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.

In this deeply moving episode, Christina shares the story of her beautiful daughter, Julia, who was stillborn at 38 weeks and 5 days. With tenderness and courage, she speaks about the love that continues to grow for her baby girl, and the complex emotions she carries as she now prepares to welcome her baby boy. In this episode, we talk about:

• the devastating reality of stillbirth
• her experience at the hospital and the pain of leaving without her sweet Julia
• learning all the abbreviations that are connected to trying to conceive after loss
• announcing her pregnancy with her son
• setting the tone for others so they know how we want to approach talking about our babies
• how couples grieve differently
• how setting up baby furniture is a huge act of bravery
• setting up the nursery again and how baby's gender plays a role in what items to keep and what will be stored away (and the emotions that come with that)

Through grief and hope, Christina reminds us that a mother’s love never ends, it only expands. 

Apply today to share your story on the pod. Whether you are trying to conceive after loss, pregnant after loss, or now parenting after loss; your story can help other moms feel less alone in all of this.
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Be sure to subscribe to the podcast so that you can follow along throughout your pregnancy journey.

Instagram: @thestillhopefulpodcast
Website: https://stillhopeful.buzzsprout.com/

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*This podcast is intended as a heartfelt discussion around topics related to pregnancy and parenting after loss. If you have any questions or concerns relating to your physical health and mental health, please contact your healthcare provider.