The Story in My Head: Healing & Self-Improvement for the Lazy

Most of the stories that I carry with me into adulthood began in my childhood.  I'm looking honestly at the roots of my stories and I'm realizing the original story-teller may not be telling "truth".  I'm working to re-write My Story... to write My Truth.  This is part of my process...

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I've been told I have 'trust issues' and 'to just have faith'. That's tricky when I had lost all faith in myself, in people and in a Higher Power. Now, I'm working to change the way I see my past so I can practice trusting ME and having faith again.  

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I tell stories even in my sleep, and at times my dreams lead me to new questions and new discoveries. Or at least a new experiment! This time I'm working to re-write my "to-do" list. 

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When I think about being "triggered" by someone or something, I get irritated.  Why?  Maybe cause it seems like there is no 'safety mechanism' in place and it feels out of control.  I'm working to find some space between feeling triggered and reacting to whatever has just transpired.  This is my story of finding my safety. 

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This is the story of when I said to myself "I CAN" when I could not.  What we can't do is as valuable as what we can do... as long as we keep both in mind and not focus solely on one or the other.  

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Ever acted outside of your norm in a relationship?  Ever acted like a lunatic even when you didn't want to? I have and I compare it to flying on a airplane... and how I react when the flight starts to go terribly wrong.    

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Working to re-write the narrative in my head, I am learning to leave the feeling behind and take the lesson forward.  The stories I tell myself fuel my emotions and affect my behaviors.  I am not yet able to "forgive and forget", but I CAN work to remember my past and leave the feelings 'back then'.  

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Another story, another 'rambling' and another experiment.  Digging out of the old and into the new requires dedication, exploration and hard work.  I myself prefer to be a bit lazy!  Here's some of the story of how I changed my story from the comfort of my couch.  Life's a roller coaster ride...

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Part 2 of my rambling about pain, injury and trauma as I share the story in my head about judging my shitty experiences and those of others.  

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I was once told that our pains, injuries and traumas are like acne.... they each  require time and attention to heal.  Sometimes our pains, injuries and traumas leave scars.  This is my beginning of addressing my healing and my scars.     

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