follow my new Instagram!!! @thesugar.diaries For once I feel like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, where she holds amounts of unspeakable power that unbeknownst to herself.. she never knew existed.. maybe I can bring myself home with the click of my black stilettos.. and perhaps I hold more power in my relationship than I’ve been led to believe.. He is closed-off and I would say emotionally unavailable. So let’s call his girls, the ex-babies and let’s see if like Dorothy.. we can make them disappear.... poof.

I wanted to briefly recap the latest update, and explain to you guys where I am in my life currently - emotionally and mentally. I also wanted to address maybe some questions you guys are having as listeners and explain my current mindset and goals as of now. This relationship is multi-layered in problems and it’s so complicated, sometimes it makes my head hurt. I hope you guys are able to follow along.

So the truth finally comes out.. it’s an ugly truth, but there’s some hope and possibility behind it. Can I change my sugar daddy and possibly make him love me?

He loves me... he loves me not. This is it guys. The tea is hot, and it’s only getting hotter. I couldn’t wait any longer to publish this, part two will be out Saturday morning!!! I think over the last 5-8 podcasts we’ve been seeing pieces of a bigger picture. It’s really interesting to see how things have been unfolding, lots of plot twists and surprises. I’m on a rollercoaster with my hands up screaming. I hate the ride, but don’t want to get off.

Let’s continue with our brief talk about manifestation, and a brief life update. I have some really exciting news coming, look out for my next podcast. Hopefully posting this week.

This is two parts. I went to go see my ex sugar daddy. And before you listen, it wasn’t pretty. An absolute waste of make-up. To me, it was a huge sign of my own growth and maybe a bit of confronting my old trauma or solely re-living through it. One of the worst decisions I have made in a long time, and you guys will not be hearing any NEW stories about him. But there are many old stories, I would love to share. Remember, grass is greener? Yeah so were my memories of him. I absolutely cannot believe I gave this man so many years of my life

I’m so sorry I have been late to post, I left you guys on a cliff hanger as to what actually went down in our relationship talk. Here it is. Followed by one of our best weekends together. So here are the results, and I must warn you.. you’re not going to be impressed with me on how I let this conversation end. But I share my side, there will be a second part to this one that happens two weeks later.

I have some interesting news.. a big decision to make and to make it fairly quickly. This ‘cast has more to do with apparently the power of manifestation.. I don’t know if I believe in it fully, but it seems to be working. So I say ask the universe and maybe, if your energy is good enough it’ll return the favour. Also this podcast got cut off due to an incoming call.. from “him” ironically. Again, manifestation. So there is a second part.. that will be posted soon.

We’ve hit 1000 listens!! So exciting, and I’m grateful for every single one. This was really a podcast to reminisce on the last six months, notably the highs and lows of the relationship. also really good relationship advice, I discuss gaslighting, stonewalling and the silent treatment. I hope you guys are doing well xoxox. Still have some pre-recorded podcasts to post. I left you guys on a total cliff hanger with Our Talk, so that will be posted on Thursday !!!

Last night I took an L, but tonight I bounced back!! I wanted you guys to know that since our talk yesterday, I’ve been doing what’s necessary for myself and I’ve been feeling good. Don’t worry for me, I’m just going through turbulence but I’m resilient and I’ll be better in a week. Today’s podcast mentions “Why Men Love Bitches” and the beautiful art of playing hard to get. This week will have a lot more in store, hopefully I can stop crying by then.