The Year I Choose Myself

The Year I Choose Myself

Why now? Why, after all these years, am I finally deciding to choose myself?

In the very first episode of The Year I Choose Myself, I explore the question that started this journey: What happens when you realize the life you've been living is no longer the life you want for yourself?

This episode is about reaching a turning point. Not necessarily because something dramatic happened overnight, but because the accumulation of experiences, relationships, disappointments, and personal revelations finally made it impossible to keep living the same way.

I'm talking about divorce, sobriety, solitude, uncomfortable transitions, and the difficult realization that sometimes we spend so much time showing up for everyone and everything else that we forget to show up for ourselves.

Choosing myself doesn't mean I have everything figured out. It doesn't mean I'm no longer grieving, questioning my decisions, or afraid of what comes next. It means I've decided that uncertainty is no longer a good enough reason to remain somewhere I no longer belong.

Sometimes the hardest part of change is that it doesn't feel like growth while you're experiencing it. It feels like loss. Like loneliness. Like everything familiar is disappearing. You can't see the forest for the trees, and you're left wondering whether you're making the right decision.

But what if the discomfort is part of the transformation? What if the life that's falling apart is actually making room for the life you've been waiting to live?

In this opening episode, I'm not offering a perfect blueprint for healing. I'm inviting you into my own journey of learning to be alone without feeling lonely, to embrace change without needing to control it, and to understand that choosing yourself isn't always selfish—sometimes it's necessary.

This is the beginning of a year of intentional living, uncomfortable growth, and radical self-honesty.

I don't know exactly what this year will bring. But I know one thing: I'm no longer willing to abandon myself to preserve the life I've outgrown.

Welcome to The Year I Choose Myself.

This time, I'm choosing me.