This is a concept from the Christian scriptures.  If there is life lived with God's grace prominent and effective after salvation, that is to be contrasted with a period of life dominated by compromise and "self".  This is me "thinking out loud" for the purpose of meditation (but while driving alone in our car).

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For subsequent episodes 12/7 and after: journal of personal attempts to be tethered to truth which doesn't come from my subjective experience but from God's revelation