This Stays Between Us

By Zarin Khan and Be the change. Media Network

This Stays Between Us is more than just a podcast; it is a quiet revolution. It is a mic being passed to the girl sitting at the back. A gentle uproar against the systems that told us our worth as wom... more

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The podcast currently has 7 episodes available.

This Stays Between Us episodes:

November 16, 2025 Tea and Paper Cranes, Part 1
Being the only brown girl and hijabi at school was never going to be easy - except it became one of my biggest battles in my self-worth journey. From being bullied over my skin colour to finally seeing my worth, this has been a tough ride through which I hope to share some key learnings that helped me along the way. Get ready my friend, episode 6 is going to be a deep one.

Things you will need: a quiet space, a notebook, a pen, maybe some bubble tea :)

Things we will let go of together: worrying about what people think, negative self-talk and limiting beliefs.

Throughout this piece, I have inserted quiet moments where you can use the journaling prompts to reflect on your own childhood experiences and how they have shaped you as an adult. What I hope to give you is an opportunity to make a promise to yourself and have an appreciation of how far you've come.

Trigger warning: I go into depth about the emotional impact of experiencing racism and Islamophobia at a young age. If this makes you feel uncomfortable, then perhaps this is not the episode for you.

Resource round-up:
1) Islamophobia Awareness Month - https://www.islamophobia-awareness.org/resources/
2) Young Minds - https://www.youngminds.org.uk/young-person/coping-with-life/islamophobia-and-mental-health/
3) Show Racism the Red Card - https://www.theredcard.org/
4) Stop Hate UK - https://www.stophateuk.org/

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21min
October 26, 2025 15 Qs to get to know your podcaster a bit better
As a thank you to everyone for all the support you've given me with my podcasting journey, I wanted to give you a bonus episode which is called: 15 Qs to get to know your podcaster a bit better (that is one mouthful of a title AHAH)!
In this episode, I asked Chat GPT to come up with 15 questions and my, it came up with some deeply philosophical ones! From exploring my relationship with books to how I've learned to accept myself as a soft-spoken woman with stories to tell, this is definitely one to sink your teeth into and perhaps, in the process, you may learn things about yourself too.
Bismillah <3.

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27min
October 12, 2025 When I Wear Kohl I Think Of You
In Episode 4 of my podcast, I will be exploring the break-up that no-one really talks about - the death of a friendship. I know! We should talk about this more! But don't worry, your big sister on the internet is here to talk about this huge topic and (hopefully!) make it easier to come to terms with.
I’m sure you’ll agree with me that some friendships are like a second skin, a shadow that haunts you even when they end. You’ll notice the remnants of that other person in the way you see yourself, the way you laugh, the way you find yourself walking to uni, and even in something small like the way you like to wear your kohl. But what do these lingering memories mean and what do you do with them?
In this episode, I will explore the ache of a friendship that felt like home and the quiet heartbreak of letting them go. When I Wear Kohl, I Think of You is a reflection on loss, love, and the tender art of making peace with what won’t ever be the same again. So grab your matcha, your chai latte and your notebook - let’s dive in!

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16min
October 12, 2025 When I Wear Kohl, I Think of You
In Episode 4 of my podcast, I will be exploring the break-up that no-one really talks about - the death of a friendship. I know! We should talk about this more! But don't worry, your big sister on the internet is here to talk about this huge topic and (hopefully!) make it easier to come to terms with.
I’m sure you’ll agree with me that some friendships are like a second skin, a shadow that haunts you even when they end. You’ll notice the remnants of that other person in the way you see yourself, the way you laugh, the way you find yourself walking to uni, and even in something small like the way you like to wear your kohl. But what do these lingering memories mean and what do you do with them?
In this episode, I will explore the ache of a friendship that felt like home and the quiet heartbreak of letting them go. When I Wear Kohl, I Think of You is a reflection on loss, love, and the tender art of making peace with what won’t ever be the same again. So grab your matcha, your chai latte and your notebook - let’s dive in!

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28min
September 21, 2025 A Bengali Woman Does Not Shrink
“A Bengali woman does not shrink.
She burns. She blooms. She becomes.”
In the third episode of ‘This Stays Between Us’, I challenge the negative expectations placed on a Bengali woman and teach you that she does not have to shrink to please others.
For the girl who had to walk on eggshells around the elders.
For the girl who was made to feel less than her brothers.
For the girl who was undermined by her mother and consequently by others around her.
For the girl who is afraid of love, because she was taught that unless she fits the narrow standard of Bengali beauty, she won’t be loved.
Down with the cultural trauma.
Down with it all.
Let’s begin this revolution with bismillah.

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21min
September 05, 2025 The Tea on Tawakkul
In the second episode of ‘This Stays Between Us’, I will take you back to my first year of uni. I studied engineering for the first time and hit a wall.
I bunked lectures. I failed modules. I wanted to walk away. On top of that, I wanted to be a writer, and thought, what am I doing in this degree that glorifies equations and fluid flowing through a pipe?
But then I prayed istikhara.
What happened next?
The sign I received was not instant; it was a journey that unfolded quietly. In this episode, I share how tawakkul - trusting Allah’s plan even in uncertainty - guided me through my degree, kept me rooted, and eventually led me to exactly where I needed to be.
So buckle up, and get ready with your notebook, and bring a friend too! This one's going to be an imaan-booster!
As always, bismillah.

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22min
August 15, 2025Let Their Words Be Air
In the first episode of 'This Stays Between Us', I take you back to a moment where someone once said something that almost made me give up on my dreams. A boy who made me question my worth. But this episode isn't really about him. It's about the journey I took to silence his criticism and trust the voice inside me that said: 'I can do it'. In this episode, I'll be drawing on stories from my sixth form days, which feature:
Hot, burning brownies that taste like sand
A monumental, ground-breaking English literature exam
A (chaotic) lunchtime debate club
And a high dosage of 'this girl can'!
So buckle up, and get ready with your notebook, your pillow, and your blanket. This one's a cosy one, perfect to hold a cup of chai and plug your headphones in.
As always, bismillah.

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22min

FAQs about This Stays Between Us:

How many episodes does This Stays Between Us have?

The podcast currently has 7 episodes available.