Today I am walking and talking with my beautiful, charming, and powerful partner, Soteria. We talk about momentum, change, decisions, sacrifice, experiences, and other things we are learning about life and the Universe.

Its incredibly hard to say this... But I must admit that my dad has had much more of an influence on me then I ever wanted. I've realized that much of my feelings of inadequacy, insecurity, and indecision has come from him... From never feeling like I was enough or was worth respect or reward. I never felt much of the love I wanted from him, or felt like I could be vulnerable enough to share my love or desire for love. I could never trust myself... And thus why I found it so hard to be confident in myself.

Continuing yesterday's entry, I go on to discuss where my feelings of inadequacy, melancholy, and lack of self esteem came from... As well as why I think I crave structure and constructive pressure. More to come!

Once again I am here, dealing with my issues in public 😂. In this audiojournal entry, I try and work through WHY I struggle with indecision, insecurity, and procrastination. I spend way too much time diving into a few memories then I do figuring stuff out but... Tis the nature of my struggles!

We can simulate the ideal close-knit community through virtual spaces. We can also be the hero of our stories without being the villain or being perfect. In this two-part audiojournal, I talk about more dualities that should be interwoven rather than binaries.

Globalization has allowed us to travel and communicate across the world faster than ever before, yet we have also lost the local communities that allowed us to travel and connect with our neighbors like we used to. In this audiojournal, I propose a rebalancing of our local communities so that we may benefit both from small, close-knit communities and from large, diverse cities.

There is over 5000 years of history leading to the modern, western idea of yoga. The original concepts were more about the practice of accessing intense concentration through meditation in order to understand greater truths about the universe and the nature of consciousness. Two main schools of thought came from these practices: a "theistic" concept where they believed in some supreme being or larger power, and an "atheistic" concept where they were still spiritualists but believed a supreme being was not necessary to understand greater truths and achieve liberation from the cycle of life and death. In this audiojournal, I try to understand this rich history and probably just achieve an intense state of humility 😛.

Procrastination is one of my biggest faults. I figured it's mostly due to fear/anxiety and low self esteem as well as a general failure to feel the Pressure in an unstructured environment such as I have with my personal goals. So in this audiojournal entry, I share an idea I just came up with to keep myself motivated.

This episode is just me preparing for the change that is to come, and plugging my channels and such. I am very excited to start my job search in earnest and to go beyond the surface and research some ancient histories as well. Thanks for coming along this journey with me, and let me know how you're doing in your journey!

There is change coming. So much change that the nature of our very reality will be in question for the masses. In this episode, I talk about how our perception of reality is an illusion soon to be upturned. What will you do when time comes to change?