I took the English exam last weekend for immigration. Which was a second trial since last September. The test results returned to me quickly this Tuesday; reading, listening, and writing were okay, but only the speaking test couldn't meet my target score. I have to redo it again next month.
There were tremendous disappointments for a couple of days after the exam because I felt I worked very hard for a couple of months toward this exam and I was confident to finish my journey towards the exam. But now I am already back to normal, back to daily study. Even though being stuck in an exam is always stressful since expensive expenses always come with this not only the test fee of 300 bucks every time, a tutor fee me to have lessons for the preparation. By the way, the only thing that doesn't make sense to me is that the test fee doesn't have to be that much expensive... it is 4 times higher than TOEIC which is a Japanese version of CELPIP that costs 7000 yen almost 60 CAD. High test fees not only make people reluctant to take the exam but also it is not fair to people who can't afford it due to financial reasons.
Anyway, Today I am going to talk about Test Anxiety, which I suffered from tremendously on the day. There is plenty of advice online about how to combat test anxiety the day before such as eating healthy, getting enough sleep, and not cramming. but there is less advice for the moment of intense anxiety surges and overwhelms you.
Especially reading and listening sections where highly intensive concentration was required with limited time such as 10 min each section 5 sections in a row, with no break, were hard and I fell into some sort of out-of-control condition such, as I was listening and I could catch what was mentioned but I couldn't focus it failed to understand. The more strongly I felt "Oh I was losing track now", the more difficult it got to focus. This is certainly a nature of test anxiety but as an adult, I totally forgot at the moment potentially I would fall into this mental condition. A remedy for this is to take time to take a deep breath to calm down. That's it. What has worked for me was, to tell myself, oh the internet system in my mind is disconnected for a second, this is unfortunate but it is going to be back to be connected pretty soon.
I am sorry for the inconvenience to all my customers, however, this is not something I can control, just sometimes happens, please wait for a second for wifi to be back.
This prevents me from putting in a hole. I think this is beneficial advice to some extent for those who experience the same sometimes. I hope it works well for those, too.
In retrospect, I did what I could at the moment, and the score was not so influenced by the test anxiety. What I can do is find other tactics that potencially suit me to improve my score and see how it works. moreover, I remind myself that having a bad score on the exam is not a natural disaster just an evaluation of how I have been doing so far. I am proud of my quick recovery, and if some of you guys have any opportunity to combat test anxiety, remember this is part of the test and nature of human beings, so spending such a ridiculous amount of money is also part of the necessary process as an immigrant.
God bless us and have a blast on our journey.