SCRIPTURE - Luke 22: 54 - 62
“Then seizing him, they led him away and took him into the house of the high priest. Peter followed at a distance. And when some there had kindled a fire in the middle of the courtyard and had sat down together, Peter sat down with them. A servant girl saw him seated there in the firelight. She looked closely at him and said, ‘This man was with him.’ But he denied it. ‘Woman, I don’t know him,’ he said. A little later someone else saw him and said, ‘You also are one of them.’ ‘Man, I am not!’ Peter replied. About an hour later another asserted, ‘Certainly this fellow was with him, for he is a Galilean.’ Peter replied, ‘Man I don’t know what you’re talking about!’ Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him: ‘Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me three times.’ And he went outside and wept bitterly.”
Few stories are better known, regarding the crucifixion of Jesus, than the denial of Peter. Can you imagine the shame, sorrow and regret that Peter felt at that moment, and carried with Him over the next days? He had betrayed Jesus, whom He knew to be the Son of God, and a best friend. He had failed at the critical moment when His Lord faced His greatest trial. It is why he went outside and wept bitterly?
Every one of us has experienced failure that caused us shame and regret. In fact, one of the reasons many of us feel Jesus can never use us is that we have failed. Like Peter, we have committed acts that cause us pain and regret when we think about them. We often live with a sense of failure.
However, the story does not end on that night of shame for Peter. It could have, but with Jesus, no failure is ever final. It is not who He is. In fact, He came because He wants to reclaim our lives, remove our shame, wipe away our sense of failure and use us, brokenness and all, for His Kingdom purposes. No matter what we have done, Jesus wants to forgive us, use us and live in fellowship with us. No failure is ever final.
No, the story did not end for Peter on that night in the courtyard where Jesus looked at him. Peter may have believed that it was a look of anger, but in reality it was a look of sadness and compassion. It is who Jesus is.
What Peter remembered the rest of his life was not that moment, but another one on the shore of the sea of Galilee where Jesus ate breakfast with His disciples after His resurrection. After they had eaten, Jesus pulled Peter aside and asked Him three times, Simon Peter, do you love me. Each time, Peter said yes and then Jesus said, “Feed my sheep” indicating the ministry that Peter would have in the early church. And He said to Peter, “Follow me.” Peter knew in that moment that He was forgiven and his shame removed.
Our accuser, Satan, regularly reminds us of our failures and he wants to keep us living in shame and regret. Not so with Jesus. He wants us to live in His grace and forgiveness, and to fulfill the ministry He designed us for. Jesus is the only one who can take every part of our biography and use it for His purposes. God never wastes anything of our story. So make it your goal to walk, not in bitterness and shame as Peter did in the courtyard on Good Friday, but in the freedom and grace that he experienced from Jesus on the shore of Galilee.
PRAYER
Father, I give my regrets to You today. I also give to You my sense of shame and the belief that You cannot use me because of my past failures. Thank You, that with You no failure is ever final and that You forgive and invite me to walk in Your freedom and grace. Help me to walk in that freedom today. Amen.