“For I am only His- so He has every right over me. I am perfectly happy to be nobody even to God.” 

A few more excerpts from the writings of Mother Teresa –

“I am longing – with a painful longing to be all for God. – The more I want Him- the less I am wanted.-  …  – I am not complaining – I only want to go all the way with Christ. … – If you tell me to continue like this till the end of my life I am ready to obey cheerfully. . . Please pray for me – that I may draw very close to God”      – (February, 1956)

“He is destroying everything in me. – But as I hold no claim on myself – He is free to do anything. Pray for me that I keep smiling at Him.”   – (January, 1957)

“I have found real happiness in suffering, but the pain is sometimes unbearable. – … – Pray that I may love God with a love with which He has never been loved before. – What a foolish desire.”        – (June, 1958)

“Pray for me that I may not spoil His work and I may forget myself completely in that absolute surrender to God’s Holy will. – I do not know how deeper will this trial go – how much pain and suffering it will bring to me.- this does not worry me anymore. I leave this to Him as I leave everything else…. The darkness- the loneliness & pain- the lose & the emptiness- of faith – love- trust- these are I all I have and in all simplicity I offer them to God.”      – (April, 1959)

“All these years I have only wanted one thing – to know and do the will of God. And now even in this hard and deep darkness – I keep on wanting only that. The rest He has taken all –  and I think, He has destroyed everything in me….”   – (September, 1959)

I can fully relate these mystic feelings to what a Sakhi from Vrindavan says-

सीख लिया है मैंने प्यारे तुम से दूर रहना

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