Not outright Autistic- cried but yet would've cried had I received the full diagnosis.

Neurodivergent- yes. I cried. Still am. My nervous system is hypersensitive. I suspected I was mostly anxious with avoidance tendencies. A professional suggests otherwise and that I am actually avoidant- dependent. Seems to be the worse combination of personality/attachment style a person can have, a personal hell. To fear people but seem to be dependent on them because I can't rely on myself? Seems my desire for a D/s dynamic makes sense. Keep it D/s as in role playing so it's all fantasy based pretend and no one like myself gets hurt. And need for a dominant is to seem dependent on someone, I release my avoidant self because it's part of the game. I will have to examine this further another time.  

Positive is I have a high openness to experiences. 

My glorious tics- my body's way of releasing a burst of energy. 

Research is still in infancy regarding female gender and autistic traits.