Lack of sleep and headaches twinned with it being a Monday have made me a little grumpy today.

After a lengthy hiatus, it’s time to talk again!

The finale of the Identity Crisis arc. After weeks of doubt, disconnection, and inner searching, Toby reclaims his name, his voice, and his path forward. It’s not the end of the journey—just the end of forgetting who he is.

New job, new fears, same windy street corner. Toby talks candidly about interviews, imposter syndrome, navigating limbo, and finally asking for what he’s worth. A quiet, real-time moment of transition—between chaos and control.

A bad weekend, a full-on meltdown, and a hard reset. This brutally honest episode captures the quiet moments after falling apart and the stubborn hope of piecing yourself back together. Vulnerable, shaky, but determined—this is identity crisis at its rawest.

Armed with a new audio setup and the desire to sound clearer—literally and metaphorically—Toby discusses pandemic anxiety, social re-entry fears, and the letters he's writing to his future self. Also: mental health, MIDI keyboards, and making music out of chaos.

It’s the day after the Euro 2020 final, and Toby is not holding back. A raw reflection on nationalism, toxic fandom, and the weirdness of online interactions, this episode spirals into something much more personal—about identity, politics, and boundaries.

Toby returns to the mic 16 years after his podcasting debut with his real name, a new mindset, and a lot of unfinished thoughts. Join him as he traces the strange evolution from Twinkleboi to today—and wonders out loud: who the fuck am I now?