There are times when you avoid someone or something because you can't do much for them. You don't want to visit your family often, because your hope was that by now you would have bought your parents a house. You don't want to see your friend who lost someone close, because you cannot give them what you would like to. You avoid your employees, because you know they deserve more, but you cannot afford more. You keep running away from everything and everyone, telling yourself that you have good intentions and that you will return when you've "hammered" - in your mind, "hammering" will make up for absence.