Trans Questioning Podcast

Welcome back to my hovel. Do you like what I've done with the place? THIS WEEK: Sarah answers long, LONG overdue reader questions, touching on relationships troubled by dysphoria, whether to come out as trans when you have an STI, and fantasies of bodily rearrangement.

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz

For podcast updates, follow @TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah @hmsnofun

INTRO MUSIC by Zoestra

COVER ART by @deervvitch.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at TransLifeline.org.

Woah, wait, where's the other girl? THIS WEEK: It's just Sarah! Like old times, eh? Discussing body developments after seven months on hormone replacement therapy, the stresses of being a transgender youtuber, and how to build yourself back up after years of basing your layers on other people's expectations.

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Support May at Patreon.com/NyxFears

For podcast updates, follow@TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah @hmsnofun and May @nyxfears

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is by Zoestra, whose music can be found at SoundCloud.com/Zoestra

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at TransLifeline.org.

The dust has settled on the DK64 Nightmare Stream that raised over three hundred thousand dollars for transgender support charity Mermaids. Now, it is time to reflect. THIS WEEK: Sarah, May, and Elliot recount their experiences interacting with the likes of Cody Johnston, Chelsea Manning, and Chuck Tingle on the stream. ALSO: Twenty-one special guests share their feelings about the stream, either as viewers or participants (or, in one case, the instigator). You can find the timecode of their appearances below, as well as their twitter handles where provided.

(also, in the intro, Sarah said Jan 2018 when she meant 2019. she wholeheartedly apologizes for being human)

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Henlo Birb | 0:03:35 | @lastplacesnazztplace [instagram]
Nik Hansen | 0:05:12 | @smuppnik
Splendidland | 0:05:46 | @splendidland
Astrid Johnson | 0:09:08 | @jaffameister
Olivia | 0:11:01 | @toolongforatwee
Dan | 0:14:39
Bats | 0:17:27 | @boxfullofbats
Valerie Sinclair | 0:24:15 | @maruchan1312
Brie Brunelle | 0:26:16 | @anarcho_vampire
Vivian Aladren | 0:30:08 | @vivialadren
Ellen Murray | 0:32:33 | @ellenfromnowon
Agent JR | 0:37:17 | @agentjr_lp
Kay | 0:40:16 | @kayandskittles
Lyric Hartwell | 0:44:20 | @lyrichartwell
Emily Lynch | 0:46:19 | @adequateemily
Jacqueline Merritt | 0:54:47 | @jacquelinefilm
Alis | 0:58:24
Molly.Noise | 1:02:17 | @impurenoise
Ripley Violet | 1:05:17 | @ripleystorm
Ciaran Oisin | 1:12:18 | @ciaranoisin
Harris Bomberguy | ?:??:?? | @hbomberguy

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Podcast: @transqpodcast
Sarah: @hmsnofun
May: @nyxfears
Elliot: @yourparentscoke

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Support May at Patreon.com/NyxFears

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is by Zoestra, whose music can be found at SoundCloud.com/Zoestra

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at TransLifeline.org.

The Discourse continues in part 2! THIS WEEK: Misogyny in the trans community, the anger of the observer, the outrage of the unhappy, what it means to build a trans community, differences between transgender men and transgender women, complicated questions about ourselves and our media that don't make for pithy youtube videos, The Elliot Test, movies as a magic trick everyone wants to spoil, youtube as a recursive echo chamber, and toxic attitudes towards fandom.

Elliot and May recommend early 2000's horror movies, Sarah recommends overly expensive out-of-print Twin Peaks memorabilia.

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Follow Elliot on Twitter @yourparentscoke
and message him for an invite to his new transmasc-only Discord server.

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Support May at Patreon.com/NyxFears

For podcast updates, follow@TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah @hmsnofun and May @nyxfears

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is by Zoestra, whose music can be found at SoundCloud.com/Zoestra

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at TransLifeline.org.

Let's get salty. THIS WEEK: We discuss the Nyx Fears live show, May's appearance on a certain male-dominated livestream, the commonality of mansplaining, Dark Souls hot takes, why video games are bad, uncovering the awful truth behind @Mothcub's rosy exterior, how tattoos and piercings are trans body modification, the transmasculine experience, how we destroy ourselves with cynicism and self-deprecation, and we get honest about misgendering.

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Follow Elliot on Twitter @yourparentscoke
and message him for an invite to his new transmasc-only Discord server.

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Support May at Patreon.com/NyxFears

For podcast updates, follow@TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah @hmsnofun and May @nyxfears

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is by Zoestra, whose music can be found at SoundCloud.com/Zoestra

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at TransLifeline.org.

Time to expose the TRUTH about the Cal Arts style. THIS WEEK: Sarah has a conversation with nonbinary artist Kallen Chi (they/them), a graduate of Cal Arts and a professional cartoonist and animator. We discuss what got them into animation, the intersections of the transmasculine and transfeminine experience, the difficulties of discussing gender with your family, the importance of finding friends, and the misconceptions of hormone replacement therapy for transmasculine people. ALSO: Kallen brought a list of notable genderqueering media and creators, and among these we tackle Evangelion, Persona 4, Wandering Son, and My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness.

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Find Kallen on twitter @kallenchi
The boards for "Catcall:" https://kchiportfolio.weebly.com/story-portfolio.html
Kallen's portfolio: https://kchiportfolio.weebly.com/

The episode where I answered Kallen's original question is titled This Is Just An Advice Show Now.

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz

For podcast updates, follow@TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah @hmsnofun

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is the Mii Channel Theme JAZZ COVER by insaneintherainmusic.

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at Translifeline.org.

One hell year down, another hell year begins. THIS WEEK: Sarah and May discuss the concurrent release of their latest passion projects, both of which are deeply emotional explorations of trauma and the transgender experience. We discuss some hopes for 2019, May details her brand new body modifications, we address a reader question about coming out as a teen in the American South, and generally pledge to wreck stuff. May recommends Venom and Aquaman, Sarah recommends Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse.

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May's album, She's Bleeding, You Asshole: nyxfears.bandcamp.com/album/shes-bleeding-you-asshole

Sarah's video, A Video About Transitioning: youtu.be/3PClMhVAQWg

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Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/transquestioning

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or give a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Support May at Patreon.com/NyxFears

For podcast updates, follow@TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah @hmsnofun and May @nyxfears

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is the Mii Channel Theme JAZZ COVER by insaneintherainmusic.

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at Translifeline.org.

Hot take, ice cream is better than Red Dead Redemption 2. THIS WEEK: It's May Leitz's first official episode as cohost! We discuss her reasons for jumping ship (in a good way), workshop future show segments, answer reader questions about how to deal with acquaintances/friends/family having an attitude about your transness, and how to feel sure in your identity when you haven't socially transitioned. May recommends Scorsese's After Hours and An American Werewolf in London, while Sarah recommends Mother 3 and thoroughly does not recommend Red Dead Redemption 2.

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Check out May's new album She's Bleeding, You Asshole over at nyxfears.bandcamp.com, out on Christmas day!

Watch for Sarah's new video In Transition at youtube.com/c/letstalkaboutstuff

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If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at Translifeline.org.

Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email us at [email protected], or send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/hmsnofun

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is the Mii Channel Theme JAZZ COVER by insaneintherainmusic.

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

Support Sarah at Patreon.com/LTAS or with a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Support May at Patreon.com/NyxFears

For podcast updates, follow@TransQPodcast
You can find Sarah on TWITTER@hmsnofun and May @nyxfears

Sometimes, the best advice is DON'T. THIS WEEK: I visited the home of May Leitz to talk about our mutual self-harm practice of making videos for the internet. In this candid, flighty, stream-of-consciousness conversation, we discuss how we choose the topics we want to cover, how to deal with weird or negative viewer feedback, what it's like to be a transgender youtuber, as well as all those wild hot tips you need to disregard in order to find your own success.

Despite her wishes, you can find May on Twitter @nyxfears, where you can also track down all her other work. Watch her bandcamp for the release of her amazing new album on Christmas day!

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If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at Translifeline.org.

Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email me at[email protected]
OR: Send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/hmsnofun

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is the Mii Channel Theme JAZZ COVER by insaneintherainmusic.

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

Support me monthly on PATREON at Patreon.com/LTAS or with a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Follow me on TWITTER @TransQPodcast and @hmsnofun
and on MASTODON @hmsnofun

Alternate title: This Is Fine (Take 3). THIS WEEK: It's been a hot minute since the last episode went up, huh? Sorry about that, life's been a hell. But the hell is almost over! We're near enough yet that we don't have to contemplate the worse damnation that will assuredly follow. In this episode, I discuss why I had to record this episode three separate times before being happy with it; some observations about hormone replacement therapy as I approach the six month mark; the weirdness of an unexpected thanksgiving; and, finally, I have a VSA regarding the future of this podcast.

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If you are in crisis or just need a shoulder to cry on, please contact the Trans Lifeline for support at Translifeline.org.

Do you have questions, stories, or other gender-related gripes you want to share?
Email me at[email protected]
OR: Send an anonymous message to curiouscat.me/hmsnofun

INTRO AND OUTRO MUSIC is the Mii Channel Theme JAZZ COVER by insaneintherainmusic.

COVER ART is by the wonderful Emilee Bumgarner.

Support me monthly on PATREON at Patreon.com/LTAS or with a one-time donation at ko-fi.com/sarahz
Follow me on TWITTER @TransQPodcast and @hmsnofun
and on MASTODON @hmsnofun