I was born in Poland, a post-communist country, and had access to things most people can only dream of. My family and I went skiing twice a year, traveled abroad, and lived in huge apartments. I took private English and Italian classes, played tennis, and danced. Even as a child, I loved performing and was often on TV and big stages.
However, when my father went bankrupt, we lost our house, and my parents had to move to the countryside, leaving me and my brother behind. At 17, I was on my own, living independently and having to support myself.
I moved to Milan, Italy. My life was pretty good; I worked in fashion and had a vibrant social life. But one day, I received a diagnosis: they found pathological changes in tissue during my PAP test. At 25, I learned I may have cancer, and everything changed. At work, I was told they would fire me if I had to go back to Poland for treatment.
I moved to Malaysia, where I had my first relationship at 27. For the first time, I was in love. Unfortunately, things didn't last long. I struggled with intimacy issues and fell into depression, even having suicidal thoughts. I attempted to hurt myself but eventually found healing through ThetaHealing and chose to study and become a practitioner.
Later, my Tantric school closed down due to allegations of rape and abuse, and I realized I had been living in a sex cult. Although I had learned Tantra and received healing, I came to understand how toxic and patriarchal the community was. I had to work on healing from the dogma and re-learn what it means to be a woman and what femininity truly is.
The supposed "love of my life" turned out to be a toxic relationship. Initially, I thought I had met my soulmate. We traveled around the world and planned to have kids, but my nervous system was in constant fight-or-flight mode. He started dating a much younger woman and asked me to open the relationship. It was then that I found the strength to leave. I needed a lot of time to heal from the experience. I lost a significant amount of weight and struggled to trust men again. I was also at my lowest point financially, with just $1,000 in my bank account.
After doing deep work on myself, I recovered emotionally and financially. I made more money than ever, reconnected with my dreams, and started investing in my future. I moved to Bali, started doing CrossFit, and rode bikes. I made my first investments and reintegrated the healthy masculine into my life. I felt more vital than ever and finally felt my drive was back.
Following this journey, I launched The School of Intimacy, an online academy with courses on every aspect of love, relationships, and sex life.
Additionally, I launched my first book: "No More Faking It," and spoke at major events worldwide. I remained 100% committed to my vision and felt unstoppable, happier, more balanced, and more supported than ever before. I finally stopped waiting for a relationship to make me happy and found ways to prioritize my happiness. I learned to create my joy and pleasure regardless of my relationship status, feeling secure and grounded. My relationship with myself was more vital than ever.
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