In this podcast, I discuss an occasion when your present self writes your future self a letter of encouragement for a point in time of great need.  

At some crossroad during our walk of life, there has come a time when we wanted to give up on something, save face, and abandon a dream or desire, whatever that 'thing' might have been. When things did not pan out how you thought they should, how did you respond? When years upon years passed by and it seemed like your dream was out of reach, did you let it go or did you continue to relentlessly chase after it?

Whatever the scenario could have been or will be, what guiding words lifted you up and made you persevere in the face of adversity? 

Were those words of comfort and encouragement your own?

'Dear Future Self', written in the present for a future you which, when looked upon, was a pre-determined intervention in the past.  

In this podcast, I talk about the one lustful, erotic thing that draws us closer and closer to something we long for - 'INfatUatiON'.

In this reading, the narrator treats 'INfatUatiON' as though she were a bodied entity and calls her out on the way she makes him feel. With everything on the table, the seducing, promiscuous emotion hears an earful of what she has been haunting him with ever since she first started ghosting him.

With a reading filled with numerous, memorable one liners, 'INfatUatiON' will stick with you after it is long over and leave you thinking about how this one deadly sin has affected you in your life. 

The draw. The lure. The trap. The capture. The longing.

That is only the beginning of 'INfatUatiON'. 

For this podcast, we discuss what the senses experience during that one magical date that you cannot jog from your memory. 

What do you see? What do you feel? What do you taste? What do you smell? More importantly, what do you hear?

On this date, the narrator is going out with a girl he has known for quite some time. All her mannerisms strike his senses and sends them into a panicked fury. It starts to affect his body. It starts to affect his eyes and ears until his curiosity is peaked to seismic levels. He tries to put her on the spot, yet she finds a way to turn the spotlight back to him and his imagination.

How does this perfect date end and where does it lead?

There's only one way to find out.

Use your ears and listen to 'The Sounds I Know'. 

In this podcast, I let loose on the world around me by reading a free verse style ramble filled with valid truths that are oppositely contrary to things we may believe are perfectly normal.

How is your brain wired? Is it burned out? Is it scattered? Is it coherent? Is it sane? What is it truly thinking? How does it speak to you from time to time? What do your eyes feed your brain? When your brain observes what it observes, how does all that information decipher so it makes sense to you, if it ever does?

'Am i An astronaut' is a joyride you will not soon forget. This podcast combines everything the world has to offer and speaks it through one hopefully hopeless soul in the reality of today, a world in which everything is running forwardly backwards, creating traffic jams all across our globe. 

In this podcast, we talk about the things we remember, the things that are burned into our memory, the things that plague our brain when a certain something is hard to forget. In this instance, that thing, that something, that someone, is a girl.

Pulled from a writing from my blogging website, 'Me Remember You' is narrated from the standpoint of a guy thinking about the impressions his dream girl has left on him. Everything that makes this girl intoxicating, all the raw soulful emotions and heartfelt feelings, come rushing at the narrator in a full force heat wave.  

The narrator admits that, "every time he was near her, she caught his eye like a lipstick stained cigarette sitting in a murder suspect's ashtray."

The point is not will we ever forget someone.

The point is - how do we remember them!

This is 'Me Remember You.' 

This podcast revolves around a phone conversation or text message that could possibly keep someone from going over the edge. The blog post, which this reading was taken from, is one of my most viewed posts on my website for the entire year of 2020. 

I am a firm believer that if someone is on your mind, in a positive way, and that person has been on the down and outs unbeknownst to you, then their mental presence could be for a reason and that is your inclination to reach out through phone call or text message. We do not know what other people are encountering in their daily walk of life or what they are going through, and the only support system they could ever receive would be someone taking time out of their scheduled lives to send a little unconditional love their way.  

Mental health and awareness is a real thing, and I'm sure most of us have found ourselves riding the seesaw of life, hoping someone would reach out to us during our time in need as we remain frozen in our current mindset. Your phone call, text message, card, or other form of correspondence could be the one lifeline that helps bring a struggling soul back into the lifeboat with us as we brave the rough seas of life.

* I dedicate this podcast and blog post to anyone who has lost someone due to mental health issues. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers * 

In this podcast, we discuss the term 'just the other day' and see where it can lead us if we allow it. Whether the outcome is positive or negative, when you sit in the present and verbally express that statement, you go to a moment in the past and meld the fabric of your current reality with that memory.

In the second half of this podcast, I refer to a fictional blog post writing of mine titled 'Just the Other Day'. The narrator of the story goes back to a point in time when he was admiring a girl he was on a date with. When throwing himself into that certain juxtaposition, his senses overwhelm him and he loses himself in the moment. Since his perfect experience is going to stick in his brain for the days, weeks, and months to come, he lets his world crumble around him and his date so his future memory of that moment will be branded the way it was intended.

Just the other day, I was *fill in the blanks*.

Just the other day, I felt *fill in the blanks*.

... just the other day, I ...

In this podcast, I discuss the difference a year can make when it comes to your work life. 

I was feeling somewhat nostalgic for my next podcast so I browsed my catalogue of writings on my website and came across one that became even more dear to my heart after re-reading it a year later. 

Before the pandemic emerged out of nowhere, I was self employed, running the family business. After the pandemic appeared and lingered around, the family business slowly dwindled away. A job that had provided so much for me and my family was now obsolete and we were left fending for ourselves during a global pandemic. 

For an entire summer, I was unemployed and worked a couple of odd and end jobs, finally landing a stable job last October. Looking back at my previous self employment, a job that I carried with pride for at least fifteen years, I have realized that I did not have it as bad as I thought I did way back then. I know many of you have felt that way at some point in time of your life. 

An epiphany then tickles my ears when it comes to business - "there's a big difference between the aged and the ageless."

This podcast revolves around a short fiction story posted on my blogging website.

1 Missed Call centers around a person who has been involved in an extended breakup and is surprised when the other person calls them out of the blue. The person they parted ways with was an individual who completed them in every way possible and continues to haunt their thoughts and dreams. Since the narrator was incognito at the time of the call and missed it, they immediately start to fixate on the 'Missed Call' notification on their phone. 

From there the journey begins and carries the reader or listener on a ride that many of us can relate to in some form or fashion. By story's end, something happens to the narrator. The reader or listener will hang onto every word until the very last sentence and must decide the fate of the narrator and what that one notification has conjured up inside their brain and body. 

1 Missed Call.

 What will you do with your notification? 

In this podcast, we rehash one of my more emotional fictional short stories from my blogging website. This writing hits on a deeper emotional level than some of my other essays and has a twist ending that the reader or listener never sees coming. 

When I started writing this piece, I did not know which way I wanted the story to flow. One hour later, I, myself, was carried on a journey that left my mind wandering, my heart heart torn, and my eyes wanting to water. 

If I revealed anything else about this writing and this podcast, it would only ruin it, so, I implore you, if you have ever felt love and it slipped through your fingers, then this is the podcast for you.

With all the noise around you, there is one thing that will catch your ear and never let you go.

That being - *silence*.