Click here to link directly to the audio file. ********** A group of friends of mine met the other day and we had an amazing discussion. I wish our talks were recorded. The insights I get from these friends, as we do life together, are simply amazing. We don't have much figured out, but let me tell you, we are seeing God in ways that has made lasting change a possibility when it comes to keeping victim thinking out of our lives. Our discussion this day centered on a chart that we had come across earlier in the month. Let me describe this chart for you. On the left side is a column of words like fear, destruction, isolation, insecurity, judgement and death. On the right side, lined up in direct opposition to each of the words I just read were the words, rest, restore, relationship, confidence, forgiveness and life. The left side of the chart were words used to describe Satan while the words on the right were words that describe Jesus. This chart was made to help us compare and contrast Satan's tactics from Jesus' in dealing with those of us in this world. One of my friends drew a vertical line separating the left side from the right side of the chart. He said that at times he feels like he is straddling that line trying to balance life. As the negative thoughts come from the Satan's side of the ledger, my friend feels he has to balance it against what he knows to be true about himself. He then went on to have an eye opening experience. He really isn't straddling that divide - he simply chooses to cross over from the Jesus side to the Satan side as he entertains the various thoughts that come as a result of the circumstances in life. That makes so much more sense to me than just straddling that line. We really aren't that good at balancing between good and bad. As I have talked about many times, we were never intended to be the determining factor when it comes to goodness or the badness that comes our way. My friend's realization that we come to this line as we drift from side to side on this chart is something that I think victors need to take into serious consideration. As we continued our conversation, my friend said something that I'm still wrestling with in many ways. He said "We have to be willing to surrender, then we can look at what we believe." It just isn't enough to obtain a bunch of knowledge and to use that knowledge to come up with some belief system that we are willing to give a try. God wants us to surrender to the right side of this equation and then live in a place of belief that Jesus is all He says He is in our lives. For those analytical, proof driven and linear thinking kinds of people, like me, that is a hard pill to swallow. Then a Bible verse popped into my head. Jesus encountered a man who really needed God's power in his life. Apparently this man's son was afflicted by an evil spirit that not only impacted this man's son's life, the spirit was actually working to try and kill the young boy at times. The man comes to Jesus and says, "But if You can do anything, have compassion on us and help us." Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Mark 9:22-24 (NKJV) This father was desperate. Can you imagine watching your child suffer at the hands of evil in this world? He was desperate to see God move and took a big risk. He brought his son to see Jesus. You have to realize that this father didn't have much faith. Look at the first line of today's reading. It says, "But if you can..." This guy was talking to God Himself and dared to use the word "If". That alone should have eliminated this man from receiving anything from Jesus. After all, if he has so little faith, why would God want to do anything for this guy at all. I hope you see those words are nothing more than victim thinking coming out in ways that I know all too well. It is when we connect things li