I can't believe we're here. I've started a ceremonial chocolate brand.

What felt like rock bottom became the portal to my biggest rebirth — and to a creative force I didn't know I had access to.

As I hold my custom shaped ceremonial chocolate spiral bars and one-pound bags of ceremonial cacao roses… It feels surreal. I've made products before, but never something with this much prayer woven into every layer: the visuals, the words, the recipe, the sourcing. If you feel called, I can't wait for you to experience it!

In this episode, I'm sharing the behind-the-scenes journey, the mystical seeds that were planting themselves even when I didn't know what was happening.

It truly feels like my Higher Self traveled back in time, dropped breadcrumbs, and asked me to follow symbols and signs. One of those signs was a spiral in the dirt that became the center of the brand.

Thank you for being here. I'm excited to be back podcasting. Interviews are coming, and while the cadence might be a bit fluid at first, it will be far more consistent than the past couple of years.

Inside this episode:

• The moment I made chocolate in my kitchen "just to feel better" — and how it became the most nourishing creation of my life.

• The years-long thread of ceremonial cacao weaving through my journey — from Bali to New York, from marriage to motherhood, from loss to devotion.

• My intuitively guided path to finding an ethical Peruvian cacao supplier — and why I turned down the easy option that looked perfect on paper but lacked care.

• How I learned that real spirituality looks like care — in sourcing, in communication, in how you hold every being along the way.

• The symbolism of the spiral that appeared in the forest and became the heartbeat of the brand — a living reminder of remembering, forgetting, and returning.

• The way my own name, Ksenia, holds the hidden meaning of Theoxenia — "entertaining gods through food" — and how that revealed my deeper calling to work with chocolate the main compound of which is Theobromine, "food of the Gods"

• How the channeled WANA HEY recipe came together

• What it looks like to walk the path of creative surrender — trusting that every step, delay, and detour was a piece of divine choreography.

• The 1,000-pound leap of faith: investing $40,000 of my own money, saying yes to the unknown, and birthing a brand that feels like a living prayer.

• How I'm redefining "launching" as a soft opening of a portal — an invitation to create, remember, and rise softer together.

Mentioned:

• WANA HEY Ceremonial Cacao
• JASPR Air Scrubber: Use code KSENIA for $200 off on jaspr.co

Related episode:

242. Dress Like a Prayer, Create Like a Spell: A Wild Feminine Awakening in Peru

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Does money love you? Or are you still trying to prove you're worthy of its presence?

In this deep, heart-opening episode, I sit down with spiritual guide and money healing coach Farah Orths, author of "Money Loves Me: A Spiritual Guide to Manifesting Abundance". Farah's story is nothing short of miraculous — she went from "money hates me" to becoming a channel for divine love and financial flow.

This isn't just a conversation about money. It's about healing the inner shame, grief, and conditioning that blocks us from receiving life fully — and recognizing that money is simply one expression of that life.

Whether you're struggling with scarcity, redefining your relationship with wealth, or just curious about how cacao, dance, and heartbreak fit into the abundance equation… this one is for you.

Inside this episode:

• The exact moment Farah dropped the story that "money hates me"

• Why grief is a sacred, and often missing, part of abundance

• What happened when I attended one of Farah's money ceremonies

• Farah's struggle with Pure-O OCD and how it shaped her spiritual path

• The "field of the heart" and why it's the true portal to manifestation

• How your birth story could be shaping your ability to receive

• My personal reflections on creating WANA HEY and how it's helping me come into more relational energy with money

• What it means to become a trustworthy vessel for money to flow

• Healing your lineage through movement, embodiment, and divine reparenting

• Key practices and insights from Money Loves Me that cracked me open

Insights:

🌀 "When you don't fully trust money, it doesn't fully trust you." – Ksenia

🌀 "Receiving money is an outcome of receiving life." – Farah Orths

🌀 "We've forgotten the innate sorcerer within us — the creatrix, the creator, the original architect of our lives. For so long, we've been taught that creation happens in the mind: through thoughts, visualizations, strategies. Even in spiritual spaces, the heart was often left out of the equation. But true creation doesn't begin in the mind. It begins in the heart. When we return to the field of the heart, we remember who we really are — and from that place, the miracles come." – Farah Orths

Resources:

✨ "Money Loves Me: A Spiritual Guide to Manifesting Abundance" by Farah Orths

🌹 WANA HEY Ceremonial Cacao @wanaheyrising

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farahorths.com

@farahorths

In this solo episode, I share the heart behind launching my Substack, Good Girl Prophet. It's a reclamation of voice, trust, and creative sovereignty after two decades of online sharing across blogs, brands, and social media.

I speak honestly about what led me here: from chasing the algorithm to listening deeply, from creating to be liked to creating from truth. This episode is about choosing resonance over performance, depth over dopamine, and remembering that you are the main dish… not just a bite-sized piece of content.

Whether you're plotting a creative escape, ditching the algorithm hamster wheel, or just tired of shrink-wrapping your soul for social media, this one's for you.

Inside this episode:

• Why Substack feels like the right next space for deeper expression

• How years of blogging, TikTok, and Breakfast Criminals shaped my creative path

• A look behind the name Good Girl Prophet — and what it means to unbrand my voice

• Why freedom doesn't come from the platform, but the energy you bring to it

• How social media can become an altar, not an algorithm

• My reflections on content, motherhood, money, style, business, and self-trust

Episode insights:

• "It's not Substack that's freeing me. It's me bringing freedom to Substack."

• "There's no one platform that saves us. What matters is the energy we bring to it."

• "Stop pretending you didn't hear the download. Just make the thing."

• "This is my bet on myself. On nonlinear paths. On truth as a business model."

• "You are not the appetizer. You are the main dish."

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• Substack: @goodgirlprophet

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In this solo episode (the first one under the new podcast name!), I share the behind-the-scenes story of my pilgrimage to Peru—a journey that unraveled grief, creative blocks, divine timing, and an unexpected airport ceremony. What unfolded in the sacred Andes wasn't just a travel experience—it was a full-body remembrance of what it means to co-create with the Wild Feminine, or my inner Goddess.

This is a story of listening, following the spark, choosing magic over logic, and letting the wild feminine lead. It's about cacao and license plates, airport meltdowns and mystical signs in the dirt. And most of all, it's an invitation to remember: you are the magic.

Inside This Episode:

• Why "when a woman stops creating, men pick up weapons" is more than a metaphor

• The power of saying yes before you feel ready

• The moment a sip of cacao from Peru changed the trajectory of my life

• A real-time initiation into trusting divine timing (and missing a flight)

• The creative downloads I received in an underground meditation

• Why your nervous system is the real portal to miracles

• The aliveness in beauty, adornment, and letting yourself be seen

• A call to honor your downloads and create without permission

• How the Earth herself is guiding the branding of the product I've been developing

Quotes:

🌀 "When a woman stops creating, men pick up weapons. The only way to restore balance is to create."

🌀 "It didn't come from outside of me. It was already in me. The remembering was in my bones."

🌀 "Your car is your altar on wheels. Let it delight you."

🌀 "Stop trying to be loved by the divine while ignoring the downloads that are asking to be born through you."

🌀 "You are not meant to wait until it's profitable to be worthy. YOU are the magic."

My invitations for you:

What's one small, illogical thing that delights you? Let it lead you.

What's one thing you can do to soothe your nervous system today? Let that be your temple.

Video Version of this episode:

https://youtu.be/BxWRtNCQDUw

Mentioned:

Organizer of the sacred trip to the Andes, Joaquin Del Mojo @joaquin.del.mojo on Instagram

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Welcome to the newly named Weaving Your Reality with Ksenia.

This podcast is evolving — just like I am, just like you are.

The name has shifted ever so slightly, but the frequency has deepened.

This space is now more clearly what it was always becoming:

A portal for visionary humans ready to reclaim their creative power, speak their raw truth, and build both inner worlds and outer empires rooted in resonance, integrity, and infinite possibility.

We talk about business here — but not the kind built on burnout or boxes.

We talk about creativity, visibility, and digital presence — not as strategies to squeeze into, but as sacred technologies for frequency, storytelling, and energetic leadership.

This is not just a podcast. It's an invocation.

A whispered reminder that you are the creator — and everything you build from your center carries the codes of who you really are.

So let this be an invitation to weave boldly.

To create not from pressure, but from presence.

Not from performance, but from truth.

To design your life, your brand, and your online expression as a sacred offering.

May the frequencies you tap into here remind you of your inner technology.

May you be moved into aliveness, joy of creation and playfulness.

May miracles unfold as a natural side effect of being fully alive.

Thank you for being here.

Thank you for weaving your reality.

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In this solo update, I expose my own self-judgements around how I show up on social media and the attachment to creating something "successful". Together, we flip these illusions upside down and go straight where these fears are actually inviting us – intimacy with the Divine and with life itself.

I also share:

• How this incredible community has held me through one of the biggest transitions I've ever been through – separation, divorce and single mamahood

• How I'm seeing this divorce and becoming a single mom from a zoomed out perspective: the lessons that are here FOR me

• How I'm recalibrating my relationship with social media

• How I am interpreting the lack of growth on my social media pages (despite some big viral moments over the past few years)

• What I'm called to play with on social media this year

• Learning to trust my instincts

• Niche or no niche?

Related episode:

• 222 Embodying Main Character Energy (Dropping The "Nice Person" Role)

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• kseniabrief.com

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It's been almost a year since I've released an episode and since then we've moved across the country, bought and renovated a house (well, it's still in progress!), birthed a baby, and welcomed another furry member to our family. I also released my first spoken word song.

I've been hearing very strong inner guidance whispers to come back to the podcast. On the earthly plane, I've also experienced incredible synchronistic meetings and conversations that have pointed to the same thing… "get back to the mic!" I share some of these stories in this episode.

So I'm following the guidance.

In this comeback episode, let's catch up on life: I share the most memorable bits of my journey from last summer (when we drove across the country to move to the West Coast) to now, as I'm feeling a completion of my postpartum stage and feeling a new way of being, loving and expressing emerging within the expanded constellation of our family.

I share about:

• My initiation into receiving

• Our weird Airbnb experiences

• Our road trip from Austin to Reno

• Choosing to show up and share while the collective is in pain

• Our annual trip to the Tucson Gem Show with an infant

• Trip to Southern California and how our new dog Kobe divinely joined our family

• My Divinely guided and supported first big flight with Zion

• The sign that gave me the courage to release my song, "Who Me?"

Mentioned:

• Who Me? song by Ksenia Brief

• SpiderERC – our family Employee Retention Credit business

• TaskRabbit – the app we used to find helpers for our move

• Under Canvas – upscale, safari-inspired accommodations outdoors

• Los Poblanos Historin Inn & Organic Farm and Hacienda Spa

• Heart Gardening Podcast

• Asher Market

• Transportation service I used for our dog Kobe

• Rover – the app I use to find dog sitters

Content referenced:

• Kauai Babymoon

• Moving from Austin to Reno: Part 1 and Part 2

• Waking up in Zion National Park

• 6 places I loved in Albuquerque

• Renovation moodboard

• Renovation Update

• About Employee Retention Credit

• My garden

Related episodes:

• 239. I'm 24 Weeks Pregnant! Lessons from My Pregnancy Journey

• 197 Reggie Riverbear: Coming Home To Yourself Through Voice, Finding Your Community and Trusting Spirit As A Business Strategy

• 125 Jasmin Jenkins: Lessons From Ayahuasca Plant Medicine and Alchemizing Grief Into Presence

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• kseniabrief.com

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Thank you for sharing this sacred space with me.

In this episode, I share one of the most expansive journeys I've ever been on: my path to being 24 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby boy.

After multiple pregnancy losses (trigger warning: I speak about pregnancy loss in this episode), there have been so many non-obvious, non-linear initiations and activations that have moved through me to prepare me for this moment. In this solo episode, I share some of them. I have a feeling this will be part one of a series!

We cover:

• The layers of initiation we've been moving through on this pregnancy journey

• How the desire to have children first activated in my body

• The role that our wedding choices played in our journey to expanding our family

• Being stewards for a New World Soul

• Some of the lessons that have revealed so far on this pregnancy journey

• Some of the signs that our spirit baby has sent us

• The support I've had on my journey to a healthy pregnancy: acupuncture, yoga, song medicine, biological dentistry, bodywork

• The role that intuition has played on this pregnancy journey

• Answering the call to visit the land I connected with as a child

• How I am living the concept of a "conscious pregnancy"

• Some of the books I've found supportive during my pregnancies

• How I've been choosing what to share on social media and what to keep to myself around pregnancy and loss

• Learning to love my body through all the changes happening during pregnancy

Episode sponsor:

Laird Superfood: Use my special link to save 15% at Laird Superfood at checkout. Go to zen.ai/ksenia15 add nourishing, plant-based foods to fuel you from sunrise to sunset!

Related episodes:

• 237 Honoring The Sacred Creative Pause, Podcast As A Ceremony, Magical Experiences During Recent Travels, Choosing Creation, and Lemurian Crystals

• 232 Miracles Abound: Recap Of My Healing Journey To Turkey

• 211 We've Moved To Austin! Trusting The Unknown

• 197 Reggie Riverbear: Coming Home To Yourself Through Voice, Finding Your Community and Trusting Spirit As A Business Strategy

• 180 Rebecca Naylor: The Universe As A Treasure Map, Learning To Trust The Mystery and Water As A Consciousness Carrier

• 201 Lion Tracker Boyd Varty: Following The Track Of Your Life and Creative Process In The Digital Age

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• kseniabrief.com

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Four years ago musician, writer and podcaster Karina Ivanova was listening to one of my podcast episodes, and planted a seed that she'd like to be a guest one day. But then she heard an inner voice ask: "What would you be excited to tell Ksenia about?"

That's when she realized that the creations she's meant to share with me (and with you) haven't come through yet. So Karina got busy bringing her creative visions to reality, from a music album, to a poetry book, a podcast and a journaling movement in her home country of Kazakhstan.

All while exploring her own spiritual journey through the Akashic Records and other modalities. Today, she shares it all with us, and I couldn't be more excited about this coming full circle!

We discuss:

• Meeting Spirit while staying persent in your body

• How to learn another language fluently – Karina's experience learning english

• Karina's experience growing up with a musician mom

• First encounters with Spirit

• Karina's spiritual journey and how opening her Akashic Records changed everything

• Karina's experience with residency at the Watermill Center

• Making peace with your inner voice

• Pain alchemized into sacred work

• Music as an invitation to feel

• The creative process of writing a music album

• The healing power of journaling and free writing

• How to quantum leap through journaling

• Changing the trajectory of your life by establishing a communication between your past self and future self

• Creating your own mantras

• Appreciating the little things

• Karina's upcoming creative projects

Episode sponsor:

Laird Superfood: Use my special link to save 15% at Laird Superfood at checkout. Go to zen.ai/ksenia15 add nourishing, plant-based foods to fuel you from sunrise to sunset!

Mentioned:

How To Read The Akashic Records by Linda Howe

Related episodes:

My TikTok Experiment: 0 to 350K Followers | 5D Video Storytelling Strategy for 2021

52 Ashley Wood: Stop Worrying About What People Think & Surrender To Your Calling

152 Ceremonial Singer-Songwriter Ayla Schafer: Music as a Spiritual Force

197 Reggie Riverbear: Coming Home To Yourself Through Voice, Finding Your Community and Trusting Spirit As A Business Strategy

About Karina Ivanova:

I'm a 26-year-old musician, writer and podcaster from Kazakhstan. currently, I'm creating "jazziam" (www.instagram.com/jazziamwithkarina/) which is a journaling movement, community and podcast, introducing the healing power of writing (jazu literally means two things in Kazakh: to write and to heal) to people. 2 years ago, I released my first music album "metanoia" in English (https://open.spotify.com/album/7DTRqa5W5eWahtx6qpVO7v?si=SvVevKNtS0KnxZJkmA17vw) and a poetry book called "символ отречения от контроля" (symbol of surrendering control), in Russian. It's a collection of 110 poems-reflections on my spiritual journey activated after a series of events such as residency at the Watermill Center, opening my Akashic Records for the first time and ending my 8.5 year long relationship. I'm interested all things arts and spirituality, conscious living, writing, soulful entrepreneurship and relationships. My sacred work these days is to hold space for people, as individuals and in groups, through writing practices and mantra chanting.

In this solo update I'm sharing the WHY behind the longest break from podcasting I've ever taken, some of the creations that I'm currently bringing into the world, and why allowing the space for Source to move through is an invitation for miracles.

Here are some of the things I share:

- Our experience at the Tucson Gem & Mineral Show (and an invitation for you if you're called to Lemurian Crystals)

- How I plan travel experiences to leave space for Source to guide me

- I'm pregnant! How I'm approaching this pregnancy differently than the previous times

- Fulfilling Eric's childhood dream of going to the NBA finals

- Releasing industry standards and expectations, and approaching every podcast episode as a sacred ceremony

Episode sponsor:

Laird Superfood: Use my special link to save 15% at Laird Superfood at checkout. Go to zen.ai/ksenia15 add nourishing, plant-based foods to fuel you from sunrise to sunset!

Related episodes:

236 Ksenia and Eric Brief with Michelle Sinnette: Why Spirituality, Taxes & Finances Are The Same Thing | Being A Business Artist | Facing Money Fears | ERC As An Opportunity for Source To Deliver Money

235 5-Step Intuitive Social Media Process for Artists, Creators, Healers, Coaches and Entrepreneurs

87 Eric Brief – All About Crystals

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kseniabrief.com

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