This has been a busy week, and a little harder to just sit and think. I struggled a lot with the mix of this one (I'm still not super satisfied if I'm honest, but it's good enough), and I have mixed feelings about there being a lack of a cohesive whole, but for how busy it's been, I can live with it.

There's less of a clear sort of emotional center to this song, but I had a few things swirling around in my head as I worked on it. The main thing is: I struggle a lot with intrusive thoughts related to some unresolved traumas, and when I'm tired/stressed/overstimulated, those walls of compartmentalization weaken and break down, and those old hurts start to surface and even though it's painful, there's this familiar sort of settling sense that happens. Thankfully EMDR has been helping stabilize the extremes of this, and things feel like they're starting to fade a bit. Ultimately, it's a chaotic mix of things, and I feel like this song somewhat conveys that whole process/feeling.

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