I see in my life and thought patterns how easy it is to get Mad at God and turn the other way and out of spite leave him. That’s usually done because we are hurt and just want our Father in Heaven to save us again, or for the first time. A lot of times the walls we put up towards him are too much for us to turn back ever. This is caused by shame and fear and we think God views us in a way that’s not good when we behave “out of line”. This is a lie, the way he sees us is so good, so good that if we saw, our temper tantrums with him would stop. You don’t have to run the other way from God, he’s not mad at you at all. You haven’t done anything wrong. He understands why we behave the way we do sometimes. You don’t have to be ashamed or afraid of what He’ll do. You are loved. Come back to Him, because He for sure Hasn’t left.