When the Bough Breaks

A Special Invitation from When the Bough Breaks 🎂

A little birthday request from me and an opportunity for the estrangement community.

I’ve recently been contacted by British TV producer Rachel Forbes, who is conducting early research for a potential U.S.-based documentary series exploring family estrangement.

Rachel works with Raw TV, the London-based production company behind projects including Three Identical Strangers and The Crash. The proposed series would take a thoughtful, honest and compassionate look at family estrangement—including why families become estranged, the realities of low or no contact, and the complicated question of reconciliation.

As part of this early research, Rachel is hoping to speak confidentially with people who have experienced family estrangement or family breakdown. She is particularly interested in hearing from people on different sides of an estrangement and learning about the experiences that don’t always make it into the public conversation.

This is very early-stage research. The series has not currently been commissioned or scheduled for broadcast. An initial conversation with Rachel is confidential and comes with no obligation to participate further.

So, if you’ve ever listened to When the Bough Breaks and thought, “More people need to understand this,” this is an opportunity to help that conversation reach an even wider audience.

And since my birthday is coming up, I’m making a small request: instead of buying me something, share this with someone who might be interested.  Consider it my very subtle birthday pressure.

Interested in learning more?

Contact Rachel Forbes directly:

[email protected]

You can also learn more about Raw TV and their work at raw.co.uk.

Please share this with anyone in the estrangement community who may want to have their experience heard.

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Angie Hawkins joins Alexis Arralynn to share how growing up with emotionally unavailable, controlling, and critical parents shaped her into a lifelong people pleaser. The conversation follows her path from childhood shame and anorexia to adulthood boundaries, her father's death, and the estrangement from her mother that ultimately helped her protect her mental health.This episode matters because it shows how family dynamics can shape self-worth, boundary-setting, and survival strategies for decades. It also centers the hard truth that emotional safety is as important as physical safety. 

Episode contains sensitive subject matter. Listeners use discretion.

To learn more about Angie, visit www.runninginslippers.com

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In This Episode, We Cover:

• What PTSD nightmares really are (and what they are not)
• Why nightmares are repetitive, immersive, and fully sensory
• How the nervous system uses dreams as survival drills
• The physical and cognitive toll of years of disrupted sleep
• Why nightmares don’t fade—they end when danger ends
• How going no-contact and leaving abusive systems changes the brain
• What happens to dreams once safety becomes real
• Why memory blocks and “closed doors” are signs of intelligence, not failure
• The difference between curiosity and readiness in healing
• Why lucid dreaming is not an entry point for PTSD recovery

Key Takeaways:

• You cannot out-hack a nervous system that believes you’re in danger
• Awareness without safety doesn’t calm trauma responses
• Nightmares aren’t weakness—they’re protection
• Healing isn’t conquering nightmares; it’s making them unnecessary
• Rest isn’t a luxury—it’s a biological signal of safety

Important Reminder:

If you’re still unsafe in your waking life, your dreams are not the place to explore or “fix” trauma. Safety comes first. Always.

Listener Invitation:

If you have experiences with nightmares, changing dreams, or reclaiming rest, you’re welcome to share:

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CPTSD: The Ultimate Time Loop (and the Starship That Keeps Exploding)

Living with complex trauma can feel like being trapped in a time loop. Not a memory—but many of them. All active. All urgent. All happening now.

In this solo episode, Alexis explores CPTSD through an unexpected but painfully accurate lens: a classic Star Trek: The Next Generation episode where the Enterprise keeps exploding—over and over—while the crew senses something is wrong long before they consciously remember why.

CPTSD isn’t about being “stuck in the past.” It’s about the past reloading itself into the present through your nervous system’s red alert system. Tone shifts, pauses, power imbalances—even the anticipation of something good—can trigger alarms that feel overwhelming and confusing.

Alexis breaks down:

• Why your body remembers what your mind can’t
• How “coping” can accidentally reset the loop instead of ending it
• Why awareness often feels worse before it feels better
• The difference between control and choice in trauma healing
• How recognizing memory states—not fighting them—is how the ship finally stops exploding

With honesty, humor, and a deeply personal story, this episode offers language for experiences many trauma survivors live with quietly—and reassurance that you are not broken. You’re responding exactly the way a system trained for survival would.

Autopilot kept you alive. Awareness is where choice returns.

If this episode resonates, you’re not alone—and you’re not imagining it.

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Forgiveness is one of the most misunderstood—and most weaponized—concepts trauma survivors are taught to accept without question.

In this solo episode of When the Bough Breaks, Alexis dismantles forgiveness from every angle:

the dictionary definition, the religious mandate, the mainstream self-help narrative, and what forgiveness actually looks like when you’ve survived abuse, neglect, estrangement, or long-term harm.

If you’ve ever been told you can’t heal until you forgive, this episode offers a necessary reframe.

We talk about:

•Why forgiveness is often used to silence survivors

•How religious and wellness spaces pressure people to forgive without accountability

•Why anger is not the opposite of healing

•What forgiveness does—and does not—mean for trauma survivors

•Why healing does not require reconciliation, excusing harm, or being “the bigger person”

We talk about WHO does and doesn’t deserve your forgiveness.

This episode is for listeners who are tired of being rushed, minimized, or morally judged for protecting themselves.

Forgiveness is optional.

Your safety is not.

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 Some families don’t just keep secrets—they assign children the responsibility of protecting them. In this episode of our series Healing for the Holidays, Alexis explores the often-unnamed role of the dark secret keeper in narcissistic households: the child who is expected to know what happened, never speak about it, never grieve it, and carry it quietly into adulthood. 

   Through personal storytelling and trauma-informed insight, this episode examines how coerced silence, forced proximity, and religious justification compound harm—and what it takes to reclaim your voice when silence was once required for survival. This is a survivor-centered episode about truth, boundaries, and putting down what never belonged to you. 

Content Warning: This episode discusses family violence, murder, child sexual abuse, religious abuse, and coercive silence. No graphic detail is included, but themes may be distressing. Listener Care: If you need to pause this episode, please do. Your nervous system matters more than finishing a podcast. 

Resources:

 • 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.)

 • RAINN Sexual Assault Hotline – 800-656-HOPE 

In loving memory of Jane.

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When Grief Becomes a Weapon

Chances are, you’ve probably lived this every holiday—just never had a name for it. In this cheeky solo episode, Alexis breaks down annual family trauma rituals, how to spot them in real time, and how to cope. Stay tuned. Part of our Healing for the Holidays series

#grief #depression #healing #mentalhealth #mentalwellness #familyestrangement #trauma #ptsd #estrangement #narcissisticabuse #loss #bereavement #copingwithloss #christmas 

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Grief and depression are often treated as the same thing—but they’re not. And confusing the two can leave people feeling broken, misdiagnosed, or deeply misunderstood.

In this special Christmas Eve “Healing for the Holidays” episode of When the Bough Breaks, Alexis explores the nuanced differences between grief and depression, where they overlap, and why so many people struggle to name what they’re actually experiencing. Through lived insight and grounded reflection, this episode dismantles the pressure to “heal on a timeline” and challenges the idea that ongoing grief is a personal failure.

If you’ve ever wondered why time didn’t fix it, why therapy didn’t “solve” it, or why you feel functional but still profoundly heavy—this episode is for you.

This is not a diagnostic episode. It’s a human one.

1. Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.)

Call or Text: 988

Available 24/7, free and confidential.

You can contact 988 if you are:

•Thinking about suicide

•Feeling hopeless or overwhelmed

•Experiencing emotional distress

•Facing a mental health or substance use crisis

•Concerned about someone else

You can call or text—whatever feels safest.

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2. Crisis Text Line (U.S.)

Text: HOME to 741741

Available 24/7, free crisis support via text with a trained counselor.

This option is especially helpful if:

•You prefer texting over talking

•You can’t speak freely where you are

•You need immediate emotional support or grounding

Text HOME to 741741 for support.

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3. SAMHSA National Helpline

Call: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)

Available 24/7, free and confidential.

This is not a crisis line like 988.

It’s for:

•Treatment referrals

•Mental health or substance use resources

•Help for yourself or someone you care about

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4. Dr. Robb Kelly – Substance Use & Mental Health Support

Dr. Robb Kelly, a previous guest on When the Bough Breaks, offers risk-free substance abuse treatment programs, meaning there is no financial or personal risk to you or your family.

A link to his episode and resources is included below for listeners who want additional support.

https://robbkelly.com/

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5. NAMI Helpline

Call: 1-800-950-NAMI (6264)

Available Monday–Friday, 10 a.m. – 10 p.m. ET

NAMI provides:

•Education and referrals

•Peer support

•Guidance on next steps such as therapy, support groups, and navigating care systems

•Support for individuals and families affected by mental health conditions

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What if we told you that a podcast makeover is in the works, and it's more exciting than ever? After countless hours of planning, the When the Bough Breaks podcast is not only getting a facelift but also relocating to the vibrant BellFaire Media in beautiful Bellingham, Washington!

We are thrilled to share this electrifying news with you, as we believe this move marks a new era filled with endless opportunities and enhancements in our storytelling journey.

We’re buzzing with excitement as we prepare to deliver even more engaging and captivating content for our cherished listeners. Whether you're a devoted fan or a newcomer, there's a sense of freshness and curiosity that makes this transition special for everyone.

Join us as we celebrate new beginnings and express our gratitude for your unwavering support. Buckle up for what promises to be a thrilling chapter filled with incredible stories and lively discussions that redefine our podcasting adventure. Check out photos of our new place on youtube! https://youtube.com/@alexisarralynn?feature=shared

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On this episode of When the Bough Breaks Podcast, we get a very special visit from the doc himself, Dr. Robb Kelly (As seen on TV!)  But he didn't get his double PHD until after struggling with his own addiction which led to his estrangement.  
If you or someone you love is struggling with substance abuse ,you don't want to miss this episode. 

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