Happy Birthday To Me!

This is the official first actual episode of the podcast. In this episode, I get into the reason I came up with the title of the podcast.

When I decided to do this podcast, I had been feeling as if I had so much to say bottled up inside of me. I started to feel as if I was unfulfilled because I held back on so many things that I could have said to people, but didn’t. I stayed quiet a lot because I didn’t want to hurt anybody’s feelings, even though people would be careless in how they spoke to me.

I have lived so many years of my life small. So many! I have shrunk myself to not overshadow others, stayed quiet to avoid arguments, and kept my opinions to myself to avoid conflict. I don’t know where that started in my life….wait, yes I do; it started from life’s experiences.

I can’t wait to get into the meat and bones of this podcast. So many of my solo episodes will be about things I have gone through and things I have tolerated. Not because I’m bitter; it’s because I’m examining my own self with a fine tooth comb and putting a mirror in front of my own face. I’m shouting to the hills, if you will. I’m admitting to myself where I went wrong, and I will have guests on as well.

This is not about bitterness and holding on to the negative, by the way. This is a clean up as I go, type of thing. I’m facing what was, as I navigate and grow what is becoming. I want to be absolutely unrecognizable in a very satisfactory way next year.

The work starts right now.