This video is a powerful segment from my recent sit down with Diary of a CEO. It’s one of the most raw and honest conversations I’ve had publicly about one of the darkest realities of the life I once lived. Why don’t I talk about murder? What did I see? What did it do to me—and to the people I loved?

You’re about to find out.

This one peels back the curtain on the emotional cost, the trauma, and the moral weight that comes with being in that world. From how my best friend died, to witnessing the horrors I still carry with me today, this is the part of the mob life no one wants to talk about—but needs to hear.

Also—big news: the brand-new studio is officially finished. Stay tuned. We’ve got powerful new content coming your way.

Until then, enjoy this one. And remember: not everything in that life is worth repeating.

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