Hey! Thanks for tuning into this weeks episode 🥰This is kind of a part 2 from last week, so catch up on that one first, but if not, you’ll still be able to follow!! https://open.spotify.com/show/5NKFo9rRGf151PBnZGjzna

I’ve been thinking about how I can use hyper-vigilance in healing, by outsourcing my energy to others, to dictate the direction of my life. And how that is an active and unconcious form of avoiding self-responsibility.

I had the answers all along, but I was terrified to look deeper and admit truth to myself. And that was because I didn’t trust myself to be able to handle anything, so I ignored my inner wisdom and disconnected from myself, which essentially got me into the same situations with different people, born out of the same wound of self-neglect.

My constant seeking outside of myself, gave me the unhelpful tool of blaming others for their actions and roles, yet rarely taking accountability for my apathy and unwillingness to be real about my non-negotiables and desires.

My frustrations grew, as my boundaries weakened, my lack of fulfillment stretched over me and my emotional regulation was non-existent. I was playing the role of self-inflicted puppet on strings.

When I stepped into my true authenticity, it was a direct result of the accountability I became brave enough to take.

In fact, I took my fckn power back, instead of giving it to everyone else to do with as they pleased. And that wasn’t on them, that was on me for giving it over in the first place.

I had no one left to blame, because the work was mine to do.

I get to embody my vulnerability and my truth as my foundation, instead of waiting for anyone else to create my desires for me.

True empowerment is equal to how much I am able to forgive myself, build trust with myself and be honest with myself, and with God at the center.

It’s only from that space, that I am able to create a life force from within that feels purposeful and playful at the same time. One that expands with more peace, ease and flow. And those things ONLY exist because I also allow room for every other unsavory emotion to exist at the same time.

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It’s been a minute but ya girl is back with new podcast episodes!! If you’re someone who wants to take better care of yourself in sustainable ways that don’t require you to change your entire life tomorrow, this one’s for you! ✨

💧 Dropping some personal experience with self-neglect and how it has impacted not just my physical and emotional health, but my hormones and body composition as well! Also touching on why self care is actually selfless and so many more nuggets of discovery with my body changing in the past year and some perspective shifts that may help you if you’re struggling to take time for yourself.

A part 2 episode will be posted tomorrow so be sure to catch up on this one + stay up to date 🤍

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Also…I plan to expand deeper on self care with future episodes! This is an ongoing conversation and is such a layered topic and there’s so much info that I know one podcast episode can’t possibly cover it. I can’t wait to get more info and my experience to you. If you have something specific you’d love for me to expand on, please leave me a comment or DM me on Instagram www.instagram.com/itsalaxandra

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