The Living Landscape of Queer Identity

This episode is a personal reflection of me thinking out loud and making sense of my own inner and outer experience of queer identity.

I share honestly about what it’s been like to navigate queerness as a femme-presenting woman who carries both masculine and feminine qualities within me. I talk about polarity, desire, embodiment, and how queer identity often asks us to consciously orient ourselves when there isn’t a default script to follow. In many ways, this conversation feels like coming out all over again…not just about who I’m attracted to, but about how my life force energy moves, how I desire, and how I show up in relationship.

I explore labels like butch, femme & masc not as rigid categories, but as containers. Ways people locate themselves within women-loving-women dynamics so there’s clarity, orientation, and resonance rather than confusion. I reflect on how masculine and feminine energies still exist between women, and how those currents can be deeply nuanced, embodied, and relational.

I also speak to my own process of deconditioning: unpacking internalised shame, patriarchal ideas about femininity and caretaking, and the ways I learned to soften or hide the more masculine currents in my desire. I name what it’s like to carry a strong, directive, initiating energy while presenting as feminine and how liberating it’s been to finally tell the truth about that.

This episode touches on:

• ​What queerness feels like from the inside, not just how it looks on the outside
• ​Femme presentation and embodied masculinity
• ​Polarity, attraction, and desire between women
• ​Labels as mirrors rather than boxes
• ​Self-acceptance, liberation, and the ongoing process of coming out
• ​Letting go of scripts that no longer fit

This isn’t a teaching episode or a definitive statement. It’s a self-reflective recording of me tracking my own landscape in real time and trusting that resonance matters more than having it all figured out.

If you’re queer, questioning, or finding yourself coming out again as you grow and change, I hope this conversation offers a sense of recognition, permission, and maybe even a little relief.

Thanks for being here with me in the exploration. 💖🦋

Artemis Vandevi

Mother • Mystic • Mentor • Artist

Yoga Therapist & Recovery-Oriented Facilitator

Toronto, Ontario

AWAKEN ✺ INTEGRATE ✺ EMBODY

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This episode is a channel of musings and meanderings on the quiet cost of keeping the peace.

On the ways we learn to soften our voices, edit our truth, and make ourselves smaller so that someone else can feel comfortable. On how silence can begin to feel safer than honesty…and not because we lack courage, but because our nervous system has learned that being seen carries risk.

I explore how worthiness slowly gets outsourced in these dynamics, how we begin to look to others to reflect back who we are allowed to be, how we should feel about ourselves, and when it is safe to speak. When approval becomes a mirror, and absence or discomfort feels like a verdict on our value.

This isn’t a story of blame or resolution. It’s an honest noticing. A naming of the moment we realise that keeping the peace has come at the cost of self-trust, self-expression, and an authentic sense of worth.

This is an episode for the sensitive ones. For those who learned to read the room before reading themselves. For anyone beginning to question whether silence has been protection …or erasure, and what it might mean to let the voice return gently, without needing permission.

Love, Artemis xo

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Art: Collage

When Self-Doubt and Wisdom Coexist

In this episode, I speak openly about something many of us carry but rarely name; the experience of holding deep insight and self-doubt at the same time.

I reflect on what it means to be a human channel for wisdom, why confidence isn’t a prerequisite for truth, and how transmission can move through us even while old stories about worth, consistency, or “not being enough” are still present.

This is a gentle conversation about speaking before you feel ready, letting the voice move anyway, and allowing wisdom to arrive from inside the question and not after everything is resolved.

If you’ve ever felt called to share your truth while doubting yourself, this episode is for you.

🤍 Artemis xo

The Wild Divine Life Force Project is an exploration of life-force energy as a living intelligence, how it moves through the body, the nervous system, emotion, creativity, addiction, and spiritual awakening. This work supports people who understand themselves, have tried the tools, and still feel stuck in cycles of dysregulation, numbness, burnout, or disconnection from vitality and meaning. Rather than fixing or forcing change, the Life Force Project restores coherence at the level of the body and nervous system, allowing energy to move again so patterns soften at the root and life begins to reorganise naturally.

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Art: Ella Aurolia

This episode is a gentle riff on life itself.

The living practice of awakening and the Artistry of Life 🌿

It’s about how we actually live this journey day to day… how we soften into appreciation for who we already are, and how we bring more peace, love, and light into the ordinary moments that make up our human experience.

I share reflections on the endless cycle of becoming and remembering , and how my heart cracked open through something as simple and pure as puppy love. 🕊️

May this transmission ripple through the light of your Being and remind you of your own wild divinity.

💞 Love Artemis xo

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This is just for you!

In this intimate and illuminating episode, I share my deeply personal journey with cannabis as a sacred ally through perimenopause, neurodivergence, and nervous system healing.

From my experiences with progesterone crashes to my insights into GABA, glutamate, and histamine sensitivity, I explore why cannabis...not just THC, but also CBD, CBG, CBN, and specific terpene profiles, has become my most trusted co-regulator.

Weaving in the science of hormonal shifts with feminine energetics and nervous system wisdom, I also introduce my Cannablissed experiences...visionary, somatic cannabis journeys designed for women awakening to their inner rhythm and truth.

If you’ve ever felt too sensitive, too overwhelmed, or unsure how to navigate midlife with your whole self intact, this episode is for you. You’ll leave with practical insight, poetic perspective, and

permission to trust your own body’s medicine.

Love Artemis xoxo

Artwork: Alex Grey

🎙️The Art of Letting Go to Live the Artistry of Life

In this intimate, unfiltered solo episode, I share the deeper layers of my journey as I transition out of my co-creative role within The Midlife Temple. This isn’t a story about endings—it’s a story about essence.

I speak to the sacred discomfort of change, the quiet grief of letting go, and the choice to live in radical self-honesty—even when it means releasing identities that once felt like home.

This is a reflection on what it means to stop performing who we thought we were supposed to be, and instead, live from the raw truth of who we actually are.

On the power of presence. Of returning to the language of the body.

Of letting art, silence, beauty, and being become the truest form of devotion.

This is for anyone who’s ever felt the pull to choose themselves.

For those who are on the cusp of a new season.

For those who feel the fire of truth rising in their chest.

And for those learning to trust that wholeness doesn’t come from holding it all together—it comes from letting what’s false fall away.

The ADHD Witch Connection: Why

Neurodivergent Women Were Feared, Misunderstood, and Burned at the Stake (from Substack)

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For the women who have always felt different

—for the ones who were too much, too wild, too knowing. This is your story.

“We are the granddaughters of the witches you could not burn” ~ Tish Thawer

They have always feared women who see too much.

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“I am my own muse. I am the subject i know best. The subject I want to know better.” ~ Frida Khalo

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For generations, women like us have been misunderstood. Not because we are broken, but because we have always lived just outside the lines of what the world expects.

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