DONE..cya tomorrow

Today’s Sky-Level Question:

What if the setbacks in your life aren’t roadblocks, but God pumping the brakes so you don’t drive off a cliff?

This one is raw. I woke up ready to sprint, ready to launch, ready to finally hit “go” on everything I’ve been building for the past year and a half. And then, within 24 hours:

• My Substack got accidentally deleted.
• My wife and I forgot it was our anniversary.
• My cabin filled up with six kids and a mountain of chaos (again).

And in that chaos, I broke. I said out loud: “I can’t do this anymore.”

But here’s the truth: I don’t think God is stopping me. I think He’s slowing me down. He’s pumping the brakes because He loves me enough to make sure I don’t build CRUMB on sand.

In the middle of the mess, God showed me something clear: my priorities have been out of order. For too long, I’ve been putting mission and work above house, above order, above the little things.

So here’s the Forever Priority Code I’m committing to live by — no exceptions:

1. Seek God
2. Love wife
3. Lead kids
4. Reset house
5. Steward body
6. Advance mission (one domino)
7. Check money
8. Steward calendar & communication
9. Sharpen with brothers
10. Give + serve
11. Learn truth
12. Scan heart
13. Enjoy joy
14. Review + reset

Emergency, mercy, or Spirit-redirect — those are the only reasons this order flexes. Otherwise, it’s fixed.

• Without this order, my ADHD gets worse.
• Without this order, my wife and kids pay the price for my ambition.
• Without this order, I scramble, burn out, and end up confessing, “I can’t do this anymore.”

With this order? Peace. Stability. Presence. And the foundation CRUMB actually needs.

So yes, I’m frustrated. Yes, it feels humiliating to pause again. But better to pump the brakes now than crash later.

This week, I’m practicing the Code. Locking it in. Resetting my house before my work. Putting my wife before my mission. Living the buckets before I try to multiply the mission.

And when CRUMB does launch — God willing — it will be from a place of order, not chaos.

🎧 Listen in as I talk through all of this in real-time: the setback, the breaking point, and the unexpected grace in God pumping the brakes.

📄 If you want to see the Forever Code laid out (and download it for yourself), you'll be able to grab the free starter pack I put together once I get the Substack rocking. September 1st is the new goal.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 52

Title: What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger

Description:

It’s August 25th at 7:13 a.m., and I’m standing on the side deck of the Global Mercy, overlooking Freetown, Sierra Leone. Yesterday felt monumental—I launched my Substack with my first article, celebrated with Krystal, spent the day with my kids at the pool, and even relaxed with a show at night. But this morning, something felt off. When I opened my laptop, I discovered that my entire Substack—my “official launch”—was deleted. Turns out I accidentally erased it while cleaning up an old account on my phone.

So here I am again, back at square one, sharing a Crumb Confessional because that’s what this is about—real life, raw obedience, setbacks, and starting over. I sang Kelly Clarkson’s “Stronger” to Krystal in the shower, laughed it off, and remembered: this is life. Setbacks, restarts, and spiritual warfare that tries to keep me down. But I’m committed to coming back stronger, to keep telling people about Jesus, and to let this be part of the story.

I talk about:

• Launching my Substack article and celebrating with Krystal.
• Spending the day at Country Lodge with my family.
• Accidentally deleting my entire Substack account.
• Processing frustration, laughter, and perspective.
• Singing “What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger” to Krystal.
• Recognizing spiritual warfare in setbacks.
• Committing to rebuild and move forward stronger.

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Morning on the deck of the Global Mercy, overlooking Freetown.

04:15 – The excitement of launching my Substack and sharing it with Krystal.

09:10 – Realization that the whole Substack was deleted by mistake.

14:00 – Singing Kelly Clarkson in the shower as comic relief.

18:45 – Seeing the setback as part of spiritual warfare, but choosing resilience.

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Setbacks happen—sometimes by our own mistakes—but they don’t define the story. What matters is how we respond, and whether we let it make us stronger in Christ.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #52 — Try to keep me down, devil, you’re not going to succeed.

Sorry, was busy. ;)

-Zman

https://linktr.ee/crumbhq

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 14b

Title: This is day one

Description:

It’s Monday, July 14th, and today marks the official launch of the full CRUMB ecosystem. I got the Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, Threads, and X accounts live. The bios are up. The banners are done. The podcast episodes are uploaded. The merch store is ready. Everything is finally public. And yet—this is just day one. I reflect on the weight of how long it took to get here, the invisible labor no one sees, and the emotional tension of launching big and getting almost no feedback. This is my honest confession of the spiritual, emotional, and mental grind it takes to obey, show up, and trust God anyway.

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• Launching CRUMB on every major platform
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• Finalizing the branding, bios, and merch store
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• Reliving the tension of putting it all out there
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• Fighting discouragement when no one sees it
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• Confessing the desire for validation
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• Celebrating that I finally got to this starting line
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• Praying for supernatural consistency over the next 171 days
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Today we launched on Instagram, TikTok, YouTube…”

01:20 – “The bio says: truth, daily death, eternity”

02:35 – “I finally have all three podcasts live at the same time”

04:00 – “I’ve gotten maybe 2 minutes of real attention total”

06:10 – “This is what it’s like to really start something”

07:55 – “I confess the desire to be seen and validated”

10:30 – “I’ve always waited till the last minute… but this is the launch”

13:15 – “It sucks to put your dreams out there. It really does.”

15:45 – “Lord, I turn all these feelings over to you…”

17:10 – “Give me supernatural consistency for the next 171 days”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Obedience doesn’t begin when it looks good—it begins when no one sees it, and you do it anyway.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #61 — This is day one. It’s real now. Let’s march.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 14a

Title: Kiss my ass, devil

Description:

It’s Monday, July 14th, and I just lost the coolest recording ever—so here we go again. I’m launching on Instagram, YouTube, and yes… TikTok. I wasn’t going to, but it’s too easy to get traction, and I need American eyes on this. The first post? “Kiss my ass, devil.” That’s how I feel after 15 years of being taken out in subtle and not-so-subtle ways. This isn’t polished branding—it’s raw freedom. I talk merch, content plans, and that sacred discombobulated energy that says: we made it. We're doing this.

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• Losing my first recording and redoing it with fire
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• Deciding to launch CRUMB content on TikTok
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• Needing U.S. exposure vs. Sierra Leone TikTok algorithm
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• Why “Kiss my ass, devil” is the first post and product line
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• Launching the “numb or crumb” merch store
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• That giddy, goofy breakthrough feeling when the war shifts
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “I just recorded the coolest thing ever… and it didn’t get recorded”

01:10 – “Instagram, YouTube… and TikTok. Yes, I’m doing it.”

02:15 – “Kiss my ass, devil… we made it.”

03:40 – “Maybe not the best way to launch a Christian men’s brand…”

04:25 – “numborcrumb.com — you can stay numb or you can crumb”

05:05 – “Sticker for your bum, hat for your head… it’s happening”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Sometimes breakthrough sounds ridiculous—but when you’ve been in bondage, freedom starts loud.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #60 — Kiss my ass, devil. We made it.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 13h

Title: Blastin’ aliens and riding sharks

Description:

It’s still Sunday, July 13th, and I cap off the day with full-on dad mode. The kids and I are deep in imagination—fighting aliens, riding pirate ships, blasting venom from fang guns, and soaring to the stars. I guide the game, cheer them on, and slip in some gentle direction as we prep to wind down. We laugh, shout, and dream together. In the background, I get ready for a special evening with Grandpa at the ballgame. But this moment? This is the real stuff.

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• Fighting imaginary aliens with my kids
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• Creating characters with blasters, webs, and electro-powers
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• Flying to Mars, then switching to a pirate ship on the ocean
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• Helping the kids transition from play to rest
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• Prepping for a baseball game with Grandpa
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• The sweetness of ordinary fatherhood
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “How big is the alien? What kind of blasters are you using?”

02:15 – “Protect your sister… work together as a team”

04:10 – “You want to go to the moon? Mars? The stars?”

05:25 – “I get to sit in Diamond seats with Grandpa”

06:40 – “Now you're on a pirate ship… and here come the sharks!”

08:05 – “All right, are we grinding down?”

09:10 – “Don’t throw your shoes—put them by the door”

09:45 – “I’m going inside, okay?”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Obedience can look like spiritual fire—or just staying present in the wild, sacred chaos of fatherhood.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #59 — Blastin’ aliens, wrangling sharks… and then it's time to shower and lead.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 13g

Title: Could one human shift an atmosphere?

Description:

Sunday, July 13th continues with a deep question: If the Kingdom of God is truly here now—and if a person is fully indwelled by the Holy Spirit—could they scientifically shift atmospheres? I reflect out loud on the possibility that one human, transfigured by God’s presence, could radiate light and power at a level that affects physical space. I’m not claiming answers yet. I’m building a thesis. A hypothesis. A bridge between faith and quantum mechanics, between spiritual reality and scientific plausibility.

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• The idea that the Kingdom is here now
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• Transfiguration as a real-time phenomenon
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• The presence of the Holy Spirit within one person
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• Shifting atmospheres as a literal possibility
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• Wondering how God designed creation to make this plausible
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• Starting to form a thesis on faith + physics
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “If the Kingdom is here right now…”

00:45 – “Could one human being be such a bright beacon?”

01:15 – “I’m trying to explore the science of how this could actually work”

02:10 – “What if someone was fully filled with the Holy Spirit… and it changed things?”

02:50 – “I’m trying to come up with a thesis or a hypothesis”

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If the Spirit is real—and the Kingdom is here—then maybe science was built to reflect that, not resist it.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #58 — Could one transfigured life actually shift the atmosphere? I’m starting the hypothesis.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 13f

Title: It’s a lock today

Description:

Still Sunday, July 13th, and everything just clicked. It feels like Genesis 1: “Let there be light”—because God flipped the switch in my soul. Suddenly, it’s all there: the PDFs, the tools, the Daily Crumb podcast, the merch, the Telegram group, the strategy, the energy, the peace. I’m buzzing like a little schoolgirl, overflowing with excitement, awe, and worship. I take a moment to repent, to praise, and to mark this day as the final seal: CRUMB is ready. For the first time ever, it’s done done—not perfect, but prepared. On His terms. On mine. And now… it’s time to walk it out.

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• Feeling like God flipped the light switch on everything
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• Realizing all CRUMB pieces are finally in place
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• Repenting of past fears and delays
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• Risking public failure to walk in public faith
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• Celebrating the readiness and joy in my soul
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• Marking this as the day before the day before the day
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Let there be light… that’s what I feel like God did”

01:05 – “We’ve got the tools, the merch, the podcast, the group…”

02:00 – “It’s a lock. CRUMB is done done. On my terms.”

03:15 – “I’m buzzing like a little busy bee… buzz buzz in the soul”

04:20 – “I hope I can come back to this and say—this was the day”

05:05 – “The day before the day. The year before the year.”

06:00 – “It’s impossible to capture what God’s doing in a soul… but I’m trying.”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

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• Genesis 1:3 – “And God said, Let there be light…”
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• Ephesians 3:20 – Exceedingly, abundantly more…
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🧠 Core Takeaway:

There comes a moment when the obedience trail clicks—and the light turns on. It’s go time.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #57 — This was the day before the day before the day. It’s a lock.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 13e

Title: I’m playing for eternity

Description:

Wrapping up Sunday, July 13th, I reflect on what this day has revealed. I started with zero tools ready to launch—and now, after a Spirit-led burst of clarity, I’ve got 20–30 tools I truly believe in. They’re ready to help people, priced simply: pay what you want or $10.19. But this isn’t about money. This is about faith. About obedience. About building something at the end of a long trail of pruning, confession, surrender, and trust. I share why Crumb was never supposed to start with product—it started with presence. And now, maybe, it’s time.

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• Starting the day with nothing ready to sell
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• How 20+ CRUMB tools and merch ideas came out of one prompt
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• Obeying God’s call to not launch until the soil of my soul was ready
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• Why I’m launching even when it looks foolish
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• My prayer to make $10 million in 10 years—to do max good in Jesus’ name
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• The wild tension of eternity-focused strategy in a short-term world
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• Explaining Crumb to skeptics, family, and strangers
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• The unseen war I’m walking into with my whole life
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💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – “Now that that one’s done…”

01:05 – “This morning, I had exactly zero tools…”

03:00 – “I feel great about them. And it came at the very end of obedience.”

05:45 – “Yes, I’m launching without anything to sell. Because God said wait.”

08:10 – “Faith of a mustard seed… the mountain moves.”

11:00 – “I’m not playing for this world. I’m playing for eternity.”

14:30 – “I’m coming out here to make $10 million… and give away most of it.”

18:40 – “Don’t get it twisted—this was not me. This was God.”

21:20 – “I’m in a war no one else can see.”

24:00 – “If you don’t get it, I understand. Just know: this is real.”

26:40 – “Toodles, McNoodles. I’m gonna upload this and go to church.”

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

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• Matthew 6:33 – Seek first the Kingdom…
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• Matthew 25:21 – Well done, good and faithful servant
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• Matthew 7:14 – Narrow is the way that leads to life
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• Luke 16:10 – Faithful with little, ruler over much
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• 1 Corinthians 3:6–7 – God gives the growth
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🧠 Core Takeaway:

Faith doesn’t always make sense at the start. But obedience clears the way for everything else.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #56 — I’m not playing for this world. I’m playing for eternity.