"I have looked to you with all my heart" (Psalm 119:58).
"So, how you doin'?" That's a question you'll hear asked around this place. It's become an invitation to slow down and take stock. It doesn't allow for a generic, 'I'm fine' kind of answer'. Rather, the question is an invitation to reflect on the heart. How are things deep down in your soul?
Now, for those of you who don't know, the here, I'm referring to is Immanuel Church in Hamilton, ON, where these devotions are scripted and recorded.
The simple question, "So, how you doin?" pre-dates COVID-19. You see, Pastor Anthony and I become co-pastors at Immanuel in the fall of 2019. Neither of us had been in such a ministry arrangement before. "So, how you doin'?" became our invitation to each other to explore how well we were living into this ministry model so that we and the church could flourish. The question was never, "we have to talk" as much as, "we haven't had a chance to talk for a while, so let's make time."
During this COVID season it has also become an invitation to explore together what ministry should look like when all normality has fled. But at its core, it remains a question about the heart. Our text puts it differently, "I have looked to you with all my heart" (verse 58). How's that going for us? And, are we helping this church to do that?
These devotions, Wilderness Wanderings, were originally designed as a means for these two co-pastors to use the Word of God to shepherd this church through the COVID shutdown. Well, several months later the shutdown continues and these devotions have grown into more. You can find them on Spotify now. In my episodes, I have invited you to journey with Abraham and to dive deep into Romans 12.
Now, I invite you come with me to the wilderness of Judea in the dying days of Samuel's ministry and find a shepherd who will become king of all Israel. His name, of course, is David. This will not be a chronological study of his life, but a random sampling of his life and poetry. The entry point will be God's description of him before we even know his name. He is described as 'a man after [God's] own heart' (NIV) or 'a man who is dear to [God's] heart' (NIRV).
That's high honour. But what does it mean? Samuel doesn't say. God doesn't say. And David doesn't say. But I think, if we consider David's life and poetry we might come up with some plausible answers. Psalm 119 will be our guide. It's not likely that David composed this psalm, but, I have always considered it to be meditation on Psalm 19, which is attributed to David. Here is the middle part of that psalm:
The law of the Lord is perfect, refreshing the soul. The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple. The precepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart. The commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes. The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever. The decrees of the Lord are firm, and all of them are righteous.
And then these more famous words, immortalized in a short song:
They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold; they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the honeycomb.
Some of you will know that Psalm 119 is very long, 176 stanzas long, each including a reference to God's word. What is not as well known, is that the word 'heart', also shows up regularly in this Psalm. A well-known example is, "I have hidden your word in my heart" (11). The late J.I. Packer, suggested this means that God's word is the core, the most important part, of our beings.
Our lives have changed. The world has changed. It can all be very unsettling. We may find it difficult to answer the question, "So, how you doin'?" Thus, I invite you to join me for several episodes of Wilderness Wanderings as we ask and answer that question, understanding that as Christians we do want to be people dear to God's heart. We want to be able to say with the Psalm writer "I have looked to you will all my heart" (Psalm 119:58); we want the word of God to be the core of our being.
Until next time, I invite you to consider what God meant when he said of David, "he is a person after my own heart."