Wishing and wondering

After my texts went unanswered for a few days, I made some more excuses in my head

Searched myself to find the reason for her silence, tried to remember every word she said

Did I miss my exit once again? Did I miss the warning lights atop the sign saying “Bridge Out”

It’s another one of those times I guess; I want to scream but I’m never quite sure what about

Was a ride that ended with a full tank of gas, just sat getting baked in the sun with nowhere to go

My confusion about her just never seems to be resolved or contain an answer that I would know

Then from the silence came another voice, even though I wasn’t listening for the sound

They say it’s no surprise, when you least expect it, it seems those good things come around

After all that it usually gets dark, a sudden flash in my once quiet heart and it’s thundering

Your umbrella and your smile, wiped my blues away; babe you got me wishing and wondering

Rounded the bases of male proclivity, the never-ending passion for devouring dime-store romance

Took whatever it would give to me, mostly gorging on the fruits and the sugary sweet tasting plants

Fattened by a desire to cover the tracks of the tears that stained and ruined my serious endeavors

Wanting to have a love machine that fixes broken hearts, just by callously flipping a few levers

Reset the emotional pounding that fractures my heart into a million sad excuses and reasons

And replant that smile across my soul that makes me glow and become a man for all seasons

Then from the silence came another voice, even though I wasn’t listening for the sound

They say it’s no surprise, when you least expect it, it seems those good things come around

After all that it usually gets dark, a sudden flash in my once quiet heart and it’s thundering

Your umbrella and your smile, wiped my blues away; babe you got me wishing and wondering

Who is this now, with that unassuming smile, caring eyes, reaching out to pull me in from the storm?

Giving me a towel, sitting me close to the fire, this time not to get burned, but just enough to get warm

Tell me it’s real, pinched my cheeks so hard, bloods streaks down my face, I’m sure this isn’t one of my dreams

Staying close even from a distance, offering resistance, yet secretly wanting it to be just the way it seems

She pulls me closer, smiles at me and whispers that this is not the end of anything, just a brand-new start

Pulls back, kisses me and smiles traces our initials with her finger on my chest in a great big heart

Then from the silence I can hear her voice, even though I wasn’t listening for the sound

They say it’s no surprise, when you least expect it, it seems those good things come around

After all that it usually gets dark, a sudden flash in my once quiet heart and it’s thundering

Her umbrella and her smile, wiped my blues away; she’s got me wishing and wondering

Tim Windisch

02/15/2022