What if Christmas wasn’t something you had to earn with a spotless house, a perfect menu, and a tree drowning in gifts? What if this year, it got to be simpler, gentler, and still deeply, beautifully holy?
Last Christmas, I was not okay.
On the outside, I was hosting, smiling, doing all the “right” Christmas things. But on the inside, my anxiety was at an all-time high. I remember lying in bed before my family arrived, feeling physically sick. My heart was racing, my thoughts were spiraling, and my body’s only response was to completely shut down. I just kept thinking, Please let me pull it together before everyone gets here.
Looking back now, I can see how many layers were stacked on top of each other—my anxiety, my Hashimoto’s, my completely fried nervous system, and a heaviness over my spirit that made joy feel far away. I was going through the motions of Christmas, but internally I felt empty, dark, and honestly a little numb.
This year feels different.
I’m walking into the season with something I didn’t have much of last year: joy. Not a loud, performative joy, but a quiet, steady one. My heart feels open again—hopeful, grateful, and yes, still tender. We’re also walking through our first holiday season without my niece, and that colors everything. So this Christmas, joy and grief are sitting at the same table. And instead of fighting that, I’m learning to honor it.
What’s grounding me this year is simple: recentering Christmas on Jesus, releasing expectations, and choosing a gentler rhythm for my home, my family, and my heart.
Key Themes + Takeaways
Re-centering Christmas around Jesus.
Honoring Mary as a mom.
Shifting from quantity to intention.
Letting simplicity be sacred.
Holding grief and joy together.
Protecting my nervous system and my priorities.
Remembering: you don’t have to earn Christmas.
Our Favorite Quotes
“I want to talk about the real Christmas—the one where joy and grief sometimes sit at the same table.”
“I was going through the motions of Christmas, but internally, I wasn’t in a good place.”
“God loved us so much that He chose to come close—to step into our mess, our brokenness, our grief, our chaos—as a baby.”
“I realized I was chasing a feeling, but at the end of it all, there was just more stuff in the house and less peace in my heart.”
“You don’t have to earn Christmas. Jesus has already come. Joy has already been made available to you.”
Chapter Markers
00:00 – The Christmas We Don’t Post on Pinterest
02:46 – Seeing the Nativity Through the Eyes of a Mom
05:30 – From Overflowing Trees to Intentional Gifts
11:14 – Letting Go of Perfect Holidays and Heavy Expectations
14:02 – Grief, Wicked, and Honoring My Niece
17:11 – What Simplicity Really Looks Like in Our Home
20:39 – You Don’t Have to Earn Christmas
Your Turn
This week’s gentle check-in:
Where are you feeling pressure to “earn” Christmas?
What would it look like to lower the bar and let it be simpler, softer, quieter?
Is there a small way you can honor both your grief and your joy this season—maybe through a tradition, a moment of remembrance, or an act of kindness?
Take a few minutes to journal or pray through this:
“Jesus, show me where I can simplify this season and still experience the fullness of Your presence. Help me hold both grief and joy without guilt.”
You don’t have to perform your way into a meaningful Christmas. You are allowed to receive it.
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