this is the first episode we recorded after blowing up! in it we unpack how that went from our side and lay out some of our thoughts around the space we are co-creating together with u all :) we also get into what it feels like to create for ourselves now that some people are watching and reflect on humor, why we laugh at heavy things, where that comes from and the transformative power we see in it. anddd we also read some of ur comments. the cute AND the unhinged ones ^^

fran's note: we had technical issues with the audio on this episode! we hope u enjoy it regardless :3

- hosted by

dira https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakala

fran https://www.instagram.com/ilzilu

- edit

froilán urzagasti https://www.instagram.com/jaguai95/

- equipment & production

imaginary box https://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx

📻 about woke-ish talk- hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were younger: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (divine timing✨, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production, now in our own terms, with this radio show in which talk about hot and silly stuff, with heart and in style* - follow along!

📺 about imaginary box- as of now, imaginary box is a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers, supporting our efforts to build creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and history#berlin⁠ ⁠#queer⁠ ⁠#trans⁠ ⁠#politics⁠ ⁠#media

this episode was recorded before blowing up, so some of our recent reflexions about our approach and platform weren’t there yet. that being said, come laugh with us as we try to talk about not-so-heavy-topics (spoiler alert: we failed!) - we recalled our sweet and sour first time memories in Berlin: ordering our first döner (auf deutsch!), Fran’s first ever ‘cacao ceremony’ and Dira’s kink discovery after their okcupid first date! andddd yes, we unwillingly ended up talking about unpleasant but hilarious experiences with some political depth of course! it definitely helped us to feel lighter despite the heaviness of living in berlin, so enjoy (:

- hosted by dira @dirandrakala & fran @ilzilu

- equipment & production @imgnrybx

| 📻 about woke-ish talk

- hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were younger: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (divine timing✨, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production, now in our own terms, with this radio show in which talk about hot and silly stuff, with heart and in style* - follow along!

| 📺 about imaginary box

- as of now, imaginary box is a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers, supporting our efforts to build creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and history#berin⁠ ⁠#queer⁠ ⁠#trans⁠ ⁠#politics⁠ ⁠#gender⁠

hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were (even more) young: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (God's timing is purrrfect, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production with this radio show in which we talk about woke-ish stuff. follow along!💽 about this episodeon today’s episode, we are spilling the T in Transitioning: we talk about how we relate or not to the terms, and the fact that transitioning has its fluid shapes and meanings to each person. Dira found transitioning is like being in a state of lost and found. Fran never felt they transition at all. we also acknowledge that sitting next to trans joy, there’s trans grief because in order for us to be here, we needed to loose parts of ourselves, as well as relationships and loves. we are glad you are here with us, thank you for listening to and witnessing our stories💽 some fancy texts about ourselvesDirandra Sandyakala (all pronouns/dia) is an Indonesian educator and performance artist based in Berlin. Their multidisciplinary practice touches on themes of self-reclamation, fluid identity, body memory, grief and transformation. Dira's work incorporates playfulness, allowing the body to explore and heal on different mediums and embodied storytelling and rawness as essential tools for artistic expression.https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakalafran ilzilú ñurinda (Managua, 1996) is a central american media producer living in Berlin who sometimes doubles as a farm girl on a family-owned plantain field back in Nicaragua. they're currently working on their first written publication and running imaginary box, a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers to support efforts in building creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and historyhttps://www.instagram.com/ilziluhttps://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx

hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were (even more) young: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (God's timing is purrrfect, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production with this radio show in which we talk about woke-ish stuff. follow along!

💽 about this episode

Dira's film A's for Andra is premiering at Queer Exposed Berlin Film Festival, and we take that as an excuse to get into self-referential art, taking up space and telling our own stories… we also get into cringe. the shame of watching urself back, listening to ur own voice & posting the damn video. ALSO, Dira’s film A's for Andra screens on May 31st at 8:30pm at Babylon Kreuzberg, Berlin, go watch it

💽 some fancy texts about ourselves

Dirandra Sandyakala (all pronouns/dia) is an Indonesian educator and performance artist based in Berlin. Their multidisciplinary practice touches on themes of self-reclamation, fluid identity, body memory, grief and transformation. Dira's work incorporates playfulness, allowing the body to explore and heal on different mediums and embodied storytelling and rawness as essential tools for artistic expression.

https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakala

fran ilzilú ñurinda (Managua, 1996) is a central american media producer living in Berlin who sometimes doubles as a farm girl on a family-owned plantain field back in Nicaragua. they're currently working on their first written publication and running imaginary box, a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers to support efforts in building creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and history

https://www.instagram.com/ilzilu

https://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx

hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were (even more) young: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (God's timing is purrrfect, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production with this radio show in which we talk about woke-ish stuff. follow along!💽 about this episodein this episode we talk about what it feels like when the world outside and the personal stuff inside crash into each other all at once. Dira is going through a divorce (yes, a divorce, let's call it what it is), a move, spring allergies, and an emotional rollercoaster of goodbyes. Fran was in production mode and now trying to make space for sadness, fears and uncertainty. so we talk about that. about holding joy and grief at the same time, about burnout and guilt and what rest actually meanshosted by Dira & Franproduced by imaginary box💽 about usDirandra Sandyakala (all pronouns/dia) is an Indonesian educator and performance artist based in Berlin. Their multidisciplinary practice touches on themes of self-reclamation, fluid identity, body memory, grief and transformation. Dira's work incorporates playfulness, allowing the body to explore and heal on different mediums and embodied storytelling and rawness as essential tools for artistic expression.https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakalafran ilzilú ñurinda (Managua, 1996) is a central american media producer living in Berlin who sometimes doubles as a farm girl on a family-owned plantain field back in Nicaragua. they're currently working on their first written publication and running imaginary box, a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers to support efforts in building creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and historyhttps://www.instagram.com/ilziluhttps://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx

about Dira's film: the news it's actually not out yet (oops!). we'll share more info soon (:

hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were (even more) young: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (God's timing is purrrfect, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production with this radio show in which we talk about woke-ish stuff. follow along!

💽 about this episode

in this episode we sit with the idea of self-love. what it actually means, how has it been sold as, and what it feels like to practice it in the wellness era. we talk about how we were taught to love (or not love) ourselves growing up, in Nicaragua, in Indonesia, in religion, in the media. we get into the inner child, the wounded kid, loving loudly without apologising for it, neurodivergence and support networks when individualistic self-love falls short. Pelu makes another appearance as it's becoming usual, and that's it

hosted by Dira & Fran

produced by imaginary box

special thanks to Pelu

💽 about us

Dirandra Sandyakala (all pronouns/dia) is an Indonesian educator and performance artist based in Berlin. Their multidisciplinary practice touches on themes of self-reclamation, fluid identity, body memory, grief and transformation. Dira's work incorporates playfulness, allowing the body to explore and heal on different mediums and embodied storytelling and rawness as essential tools for artistic expression.

https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakala

fran ilzilú ñurinda (Managua, 1996) is a central american media producer living in Berlin who sometimes doubles as a farm girl on a family-owned plantain field back in Nicaragua. they're currently working on their first written publication and running imaginary box, a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers to support efforts in building creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and history

https://www.instagram.com/ilzilu

https://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx

hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers back when we were (even more) young: Dira as MTV host and radio announcer in Indonesia, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossing paths in Berlin (God's timing is purrrfect, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production with this radio show in which we talk about woke-ish stuff. follow along!💽 about this episodein this episode we do something we sit with the words. the ones we use to describe ourselves, the ones that get used on us, and the ones that keep shifting as we speak. we go through a handful of terms: woke, BIPOC, racialised, FLINTA, transgenderism, and try to figure out what they actually mean, where they came from, and how we personally relate to them (or don't). turns out language is exhausting and also the only thing we have. we also hear from our friend Kazim, who drops in with something we really needed to hear about identity labels and diaspora. Pelu makes a special appearance, as is becoming usual. anddd we don't really arrive at conclusions, as that was never the plan :)hosted by Dira & Franproduced by imaginary boxspecial thanks to Kazim, Mata & Pelu💽 about usDirandra Sandyakala (all pronouns/dia) is an Indonesian educator and performance artist based in Berlin. Their multidisciplinary practice touches on themes of self-reclamation, fluid identity, body memory, grief and transformation. Dira's work incorporates playfulness, allowing the body to explore and heal on different mediums and embodied storytelling and rawness as essential tools for artistic expression.https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakalafran ilzilú ñurinda (Managua, 1996) is a central american media producer living in Berlin who sometimes doubles as a farm girl on a family-owned plantain field back in Nicaragua. they're currently working on their first written publication and running imaginary box, a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers to support efforts in building creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and historyhttps://www.instagram.com/ilziluhttps://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx

hiii we're Dira & Fran 🫰🏽 we both have a distant past as media producers when we were very young: Dira as MTV host in Indonesia and radio announcer, and Fran as a youth cultural journalist in Nicaragua. life took us in many directions before crossings paths in Berlin (God's timing is purrrfect, as we say) and we've now decided to go back to cultural production with this radio show in which we talk about woke-ish stuff. follow along!

in this pilot episode we talked a bit freely and ended up going to the beginnings: how we met, why we clicked, and what it means to make media completely on our own terms. we also play a little game that takes us somewhere unexpected: dreams we've let go of, and the ones we're somehow already living ^^ it's messy but honest work. we hope u love it as much as we do! please please please let us know what u think

💽 about Dira & Fran

Dirandra Sandyakala (all pronouns/dia) is an Indonesian educator and performance artist based in Berlin. Their multidisciplinary practice touches on themes of self-reclamation, fluid identity, body memory, grief and transformation. Dira’s work incorporates playfulness, allowing the body to explore and heal on different mediums and embodied storytelling and rawness as essential tools for artistic expression.

https://www.instagram.com/dirandrakala/

fran ilzilú ñurinda (Managua, 1996) is a gender-nonconforming media producer living in Berlin who sometimes doubles as a farm girl on a family-owned plantain field back in Nicaragua. they're currently working on their first written publication and run imaginary box, a production platform that facilitates the exchange of information, media-making resources, equipment and technical skills among trans and/or racialised cultural producers to support efforts in building creative and economic autonomy so that we can reclaim self-determined representation in media and history

https://www.instagram.com/ilzilu/

https://www.instagram.com/imgnrybx/