Yeeeaaaahhhh.. none of these things would've happened. Whenever I feel like I did everything I could and it didn't go accordingly I play this fantasy of how I would've had a perfect life if it weren't for --- (fill in the excuse) --- . In actuality, I have NO control. NONE of those things were going to happen in my timing anyway because I lacked the PREPARATION! I am so glad God didn't do what I envisioned and instead used it for the betterment of me and those around me. I have learned that 1) I don't need an event to propel me - only God 2) You will have what God wants for you and whatever that means I will submit to & 3) I really don't know anything. This recoding has HUMBLED me. Thank you God I am not as unprepared as I was then! & Thank you for equipping me to be able to hold all of the blessings you've given to me in this 2020 process. 

Every blessing I have asked for I have received! Not the moment to host it.

I hope this 2020 trash & trauma turns into treasure. I love you.

Earlier this day I had read a great book "Male vs Man" by Dondré T. Whitfield which really convicted and planted wisdom in my heart about what he calls the 5 pain languages I touched on in prayer in this episode.. Later on that day what started as an overwhelming heart feeling turned into words about giving. At the end of the recording, I considered that it would be the first World Wide Prayer (WWP) on this podcast. Turns out it was prophesy. I pray that you would have a spiritual understanding as you listen to this episode recorded 3 days before the murder of George Floyd.