You are the One you seek

I did this before about a year ago, then deleted it, and found a little more room to share. Now, during a time of great personal struggle and tumult, I have decided it would be better to end the podcast now, rather than make the diary of a man losing his excitement for life, and the excitement for the things he previously promoted with great joy in his heart. I am consistent only at inconsistency, but the closer I come every day to being consistently honest with myself, my feelings, and my perception, than I can at least feel some solace in knowing I have been authentic throughout. I wish I could leave you all on happier and brighter notes, but this is just an honest snapshot of where I am at. If you are moved to help in anyway, or just want to share your thoughts or reflections on the podcast, you are more than welcome to reach out to me here: [email protected]

I appreciate any of you who have spoken an encouraging word, or shared your honest feedback, critical or positive. I am grateful to have shared any space with you, and I hope that your journey finds you a little brighter than mine does now. Be well all!

I wanted to share, finally, my honest feelings about my history with Cannabis use. I want to offer some information, caution, and also destigmatizing of what this plant offers. From my first time trying it in high school to my dream job working from home for a Cannabis company for 3 years. I also ramble about a few other things loosely tied to Cannabis, as is my heathen custom. Enjoy!

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**My comments about not respecting religions should be clarified. As an ex-Christian for 37 years, and after coming face to face with multiple SA criminals within the walls of the small churches I attended, many of their offenses against children, I developed a very low opinion of religious systems in general. The more I explored as I stepped out of faith in 2018, the more I realized just how truly depraved and amoral many of these belief systems actually are, in terms of the number of flagrant, grievous acts that are perpetrated without justice. I have personally been convinced that religion overall (not in every case) is one of humanity's biggest hurdles towards progress, and mostly is used as a shield for power, influence and corruption. This is obviously not true in all cases, I am talking more about the power structures within these religions that house so much of the corruption and perpetration.

HOWEVER, I do believe in autonomy and personal rights, and I don't believe people should be forced to not follow their chosen religion. I am not advocating for fascist movements of taking away a persons choice to believe and follow whatever they want. However, we have to be more frank and honest with each other when those beliefs directly infringe upon the well being of others. This is obviously a long, nuanced conversation, but I just want you to know, that if you are a person with religious beliefs, I respect you, and respect your journey. I may deeply disagree with your beliefs about certain things, but expecting all of us to agree on the same exact things is kind of what got us into this mess, in my opinion, so I stand here with my hand outstretched to meet you in the middle somewhere. My hope is that LOVE is our guiding force now and from this point forward. We've tried the old ways, and they are failing spectacularly in front of our very eyes. **

In a continued theme, I am exploring ideas around shedding the old, and leaning into the new, while simultaneously understanding how little we presently understand about the reality that surrounds us. I also reflect on 14 years since my brother, my only sibling, passed away after a long battle with paralysis related issues from a terrible car accident in 2005. He sadly predicted many of the horrors and terrors that are unfolding around the world, and especially at home, and I almost feel like he definitely chose to exit before all of that for a reason!

Of course I can't be sure his soul chose that, or that any of us chose any of this. I have faith, but faith has led me down darkened alleys of despair in the past, so I am extremely hesitant to lean into any 'faith' ideas. However, there has actually been evidence to support aspects of this faith, whereas my religious beliefs truly provided none.

In keeping with the idea of not knowing, I wanted to celebrate us all for doing what we are able to do, with such DEEPLY limited knowledge and understanding. We truly only hold a tiny drop of knowing or understanding in our eager little hands, while we toss and swirl about in a seemingly endless ocean of options, knowledge, insight, experiences etc. The prospect of that option can be exciting, or utterly crushing and defeating. Here's hoping the former is true! Be well everyone, and thanks for listening!

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Wanted to focus this episode on an idea that has resonated with me for a few years. This is the idea that we are like a caterpillar making the transition to butterfly, in a chrysalis phase. I didn't come up with the concept, obviously, or maybe I did? Maybe you and I did?! Besides the point....

Everything that was once structure, and known, is now goo, and dissolving under it's own weight, seemingly lost to entropy and oblivion. The beautiful secret is that the melting down process is the most important, and is the only way to get to the next phase. Enter the butterfly- a beautiful, expansive, new creature.

The goo phase doesn't have clarity, clear purpose, and doesn't allow for the old ways to be repeated or copied. There is no time or space for staying in the past. We are here to either embrace the transition and eventual transformation, or we are here to fight against it tooth and nail, and learn the hard lesson of fighting the only constant: change.

Thank you for listening, and if you are interested in supporting me or the channel in any way, or if you just want to chat and exchange ideas, please reach out to me here: [email protected]

Love and light to you all!

It has been just a little over 2 years since I struck out with this little diary style podcast, exploring all kinds of new ideas and explorations after years spent in the stifling beliefs of Christianity.

In this episode, I reflect back on what it has been like to traverse these last 2 years, and the daily challenge to bring more of the heart into a world that seems to be racing to the bottom. If you are in pain, and feeling both hope and despair at the same time, this may resonate deeply with you.

Just know that we are at the darkest before dawn part of the movie. Gandalf (us) is just about to pop over the hill and bring with him much light and truth. We are on the cusp of the next huge leap in human consciousness, and I am both terrified and excited to be here right along side each and every one of you for this ridiculous journey!

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So yeah, I made a hilarious mistake when I initially released this, as I rendered it in the speed I edit the episodes in. LOL!!!! I swear I didn't shapeshift into a chipmunk! Thanks for listening, and being patient with my silly behind.

Thoughts, updates and perspectives! Recorded Dec. 4th 2025.

I'm back. I felt good about leaving things be when I signed off a few months ago, but felt compelled to share some new thoughts, ideas, and also a bit of a plea for help. My body and I have always been in a wrestling match, but lately, the pains and issues have begun to get the better of me. I am doing my best to stay positive, and to manifest the healing I need. Slow going, and am not too proud to ask for help, even if I have been a little weird about advice in the past.

I also teach you the Gamma brainwave state breathing technique that Darryl Anka uses to channel Bashar. I have only been playing with it for a few days, but am already finding it super useful. Hoping it is of assistance to someone out there!

Anyway, thank you tons for listening, and I hope that you sifted the good of what I said, and ignored the dumb or irrelevant. Nobody is an authority on anything as a human, so it's ok to recognize that the only true answers for ourselves exist within. But it sure makes the journey more fun and smooth when lift each other up.

Bashar Gamma breathing: https://youtube.com/shorts/cnfKzkrIvUI?si=yCAdclMieCP5JWkk

Well folks, this is it! I wasn't sure which direction I have been going with this podcast, but for now, I have decided to end it. No bitterness or sadness, just time. I hope that I will be inspired to share something in the future, but if I do, it will probably be another name, and another theme. I will update here if that happens.

Thank you so much to each and every one of you who listened to this podcast! I hope that something positive resonated, and after listening you had some new ideas and thoughts to challenge and question. Either way, it's been an honor, and I am grateful to each and every one of you. Be well, and Namaste!

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IG: @youaretheoneyouseek

Just a wee little update from me, reflecting on this current moment, and my place in it. I don't have a lot of answers, more questions and yearnings. Trying to stay in the moment, and not let outside forces impact you negatively is certainly the great challenge of the human experience. I have far from mastered it, that's for sure! Anyway, as usual, thanks for listening!

*Also, I think I meant to say clockwise, when I said counterclockwise, as far as the chakra reading.