We are not all just cookie cutter images of each other. God uniquely made us all. So all doing everything the same way doesn’t always work. It doesn’t mean something is wrong with you. It just is your heavenly family allowing this discomfort so you will run to him for new direction. A new way, a way he has just for you, but you must trust him and allow him to show you that path and not to continually battle yourself and belittle yourself. That is not what God wants, he want you to find your unique, given way He has purposed just for you.