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I'm on an email list for a guy who calls himself Rama. And yesterday, I got an email from him. And it was interesting because he was talking about the brain being a magnet. And he was talking about joy and how joy attracts more joy with the magnetism of it all. And he's sort of saying that being joyful, creates this magnetic wave of joy, which changes the atomic structure of the world. And I don't know if that's true or not. But it's interesting, because consciousness works in some way. If I'm at a, at a higher level of consciousness, that's going to change the reality I experience, and that will slightly change the reality other people experience as well. If everyone was all of a sudden, at a higher level of consciousness, we would experience a different reality. And so it seems like there are different realities present, it's just a matter of our level of consciousness. And that's what we tap into. And I think with bipolar, we go into these high levels of consciousness and experience these other realities that are there, but they're just not the dominant reality. And that's why I feel like it's a calibration for us to see other maps and ways of, of getting there. And then he even talks about focusing on our hair in order to increase this magnetism. And he says, focusing on the top of your head increases your brain's magnetic power. And it makes all of your thoughts more potent. And I like what he's saying. At the same time, I feel like, if the mind is clear, if the brain is clear, then one doesn't have to think thoughts. There's perception. And then that sort of gives understanding, which can be a joyful process in itself. So we don't actually have to consciously think joyful thoughts. It would be more about clearing the mind of all thought. But at the same time, thinking joyful thoughts is still a lot better. Then thinking, sad thoughts, for sure. And he says, you have to imprint and encode your version of reality into existence. And that's an alignment with the blueprint that I think that we're given in our brain, when we go into manic consciousness, we get the blueprint of the reality of the higher levels of consciousness. And then it's up to us to, to harvest that and to move towards it. And we don't have to do that. But it's an option. And it's could be a fun game, it could be a fun way to use our suppose ID freewill. Because in those highest levels of consciousness, we realize it's all one and we don't really have freewill. And sometimes that can get us into trouble. So we come back here where we have apparent freewill. And then we can still harvest and practice and embody that which we know will unfold those higher levels of consciousness not just within ourselves, but within other people as well. And I think that's the whole gesture thing. Because I had this insight today that one of the ways to have joy be one's predominant state is to help create that in other people. So I think the brain needs to be wired for these higher levels of consciousness. It already is wired for that it's just a matter of actually negating the wiring that is not inspiring. And I feel like medication is is chemical castration of this transformation process that keeps those lower circuits glued together. And that could be helpful. Just like Dr. Daniel Fisher said, these medications will buy you some time. But it's not going to stop the process indefinitely. And so I think it's important to get in alignment with the process. And when I say that I feel like part of the process is interacting in these ways with other people, not just with oneself, like I'm doing right now, even though I'm not fully in those higher states, I'm sort of in this state of reason and logic and, and creating my own epi logic of things. I'm sort of having a dialogue with myself about the context, the map that I experienced before, and I'm in the state of harvesting, or maybe harnessing in that and creating the neural networks through dialogue about what it is that I experienced. And more accurately, it's what was experienced when I wasn't an eye when there was no ego. And I also realized, it's not about focusing on mental health, we get stuck in focusing on the psychology and we don't really see that the whole psychology is the problem. And that a lot of thoughts in psychology that we're having trouble with disappear at the higher levels of consciousness. So it would be more about how to be in the state of love and joy. I was thinking about natural alternatives and things like that, and how, over the years, I've done a lot of research on natural alternatives for health and things. And I was thinking about how perhaps I need all of that, because I don't have a natural alternative lifestyle. modern lifestyle isn't really a natural one. And I'm wondering if there's a way to have a lifestyle that is more in alignment, so then, maybe one doesn't need fake sunlight, and one doesn't need so many of these natural alternatives that one can just get naturally. And I was once given a tip to lay with my feet up by someone when I had all those physical health problems. And I'm thinking now that that tip was probably to get the blood going back to the brain. So I might try and do that more to now I feel like it's more about the brain than anything else. The last few days, I haven't had any anxiety really, I have a little bit today, because probably going to give my resignation today for my job. So I took two EMP instead of just one. And I feel like the statement, I don't know, is one of the most powerful statements because it opens up space in the brain. Even with everything I talk about myself, I really have no idea what I'm talking about. And I forget everything, near nearly everything. And I also was thinking about how Joy oxygenates the brain. So I feel like the higher levels of consciousness are what actually oxygenate the brain, or vice versa. And it's it's something together, that happens. It's almost like as consciousness goes up, more brains can potentially get oxygenated in that way. And then they go up to joy, but then a lot of them fall back down to the lower levels of consciousness. And I feel like one of the reasons why that happens is so then we're calibrated. In some of the lower levels of consciousness, we really see what we're doing to each other with our thoughts, feelings and actions. And it's really scary. And I don't think it's meant to be something to get stuck in. It's meant for us to see what we're doing and the dangers of thought and thinking compared to being in those higher states of love. And people that have gone through that process. They have the map within them and might be able to help people get up to that level of consciousness. Consciousness observes itself, and how it responds to itself. And I feel it's intelligent to act to preserve the physical body but it's not intelligent to act to preserve the psychology and that's what we're doing when we're met. Locating people back to their ego structure, or not helping people transcend that structure. And we're all living in abstraction. And we derive pleasure from our abstractions because there's no joy in our actions. And our interactions with each other are more like inter abstractions. And states of consciousness are what we all share we have, we all have access to any state of consciousness. And that level of consciousness is what determines what is unfolding in that moment. So in that way, we're each the same. I read this article online, somebody's writing about Carrie Fisher's dog, and how she used it as a coping tool. And how she was brave, because she carried the dog and then had to explain the dog, which means you had to explain her mental health condition. I'm thinking she's brave and dead at 60. And it just angers me, because then I was looking again at that article online about how people die 14 to 32 years early if they have a mental health condition. And it says they often die of heart attacks, strokes and things like that. And they are saying, well, it's probably to the different conditions of their life. Because they often have lower socio economic status and things. Well, Carrie Fisher probably had all the best of life. And she died at 60. And they say in that study, like, Oh, we really don't know what causes it. Could it not be a side effect of medication? They don't ever say that it could be like that. Why do people get diabetes? Why do people diabetes usually happens to people pretty quickly? Once they're on medication? It's not something that happens 30 years later, it's like, well, how did that happen? So I don't know just kind of piss me off. If she dies at 60, What luck to the rest of us have? I feel my question, what would ematic do, will help to grow the brain in the ways of the blueprint, because it sort of gets my mind going in the direction of the blueprint I was given. And the blueprint felt like heaven on earth. And I feel it will help to grow the brain cells back in that direction. And, and the next part of the process is being out in the relational mind with other people. Because me talking with myself is more developing my embodied mind. And Dr. Daniel Siegel talks about the embodied mind and the relational mind. And I think it'll help with a relational mind thing, because I'm relating with myself. And then when I relate with other people will be more strengthened in my neurology, I feel like higher consciousness is a higher energy state. So it's almost like that energy has more electrons wherever it is, and however it is. And that's also what contributes to more oxygenation of the brain to go into those higher states of consciousness. And it's about seeing clearly. And map consciousness, we can see really clearly so we can make new maps, because we're not polluted by our old compass of thoughts. And so part of getting to higher levels of consciousness is just negating that which we think and believe to be true. And maybe just replacing it with I have no idea. Back to the UC Berkeley TED talk on neuroplasticity, he was talking about how deaf people can actually hear what they see in that the auditory cortex lights up when they're looking at somebody talking. So that part actually overlaps with the whole process of their communication as well. And I feel like when we become deaf to our prefrontal cortex noise, the visual cortex for us likely becomes the same as speech because normally we have the speech noise in our prefrontal cortex. So in terms of this sensory substitution, or this neuroplasticity that might happen in map consciousness, is that speech actually goes to the visual because the old droning on voice is quiet. So then what we See actually creates what we say and what we think. So I think there's a change in the brain processing in that way, when we speak what we see. And so psychosis, in a way could be sensory substitution, where the words are changing from the prefrontal cortex, abstracting to the visual cortex. And we say what we see. And that could be one of the reasons why some of the things that we say, don't make any sense, because we're actually seeing more of reality than the regular person can, we can see clearly, we're reading between the lines, we're learning how to read what we see in reality instead of our own abstractions getting in the way. And so this process takes some time to actually mature and develop. So after a while, we no longer think that when a crow flies overhead, that means that that God is angry or something like that, we can start to actually read reality and have this shift in perception, the way we perceive happen, I think medication helps prevent that switch from happening. So we then again, are perceiving based on our own ego abstractions, instead of perceiving from this other way of seeing. So I think psychosis is actually a switch in the way we see. And even Dr. Abraham Hoffer said that mental illness is a perceptual problem. And he says that in his movie, masks of madness, and even saying that I don't actually think it's a perceptual problem, I think it's a perceptual solution. But it's very troublesome to be able to perceive that clearly. And read between the lines of reality in a reality that is traumatic and scary and based on competition and isolation and separateness and, and all these things that aren't actually innately part of how we are as human beings. And this switch in perception gets us perceiving more so with how we are innately as human beings to walk around in reality that isn't designed that way, is painful. Because we don't just see words, we actually see the feelings we see with our whole being, not just seeing with our eyes, we're seeing everything. I like watching talks right now on the brain and neuroplasticity, because because the spectrum that I've experienced is what they're talking about, even though they're talking about it in relation to something else. The brain is the brain consciousness is consciousness. I think what's actually happening is that consciousness gets stuck in thought. And it actually identifies with thought, as opposed to the level of consciousness that is, I don't know if it's creating the thought, but or if the thought is creating the level of consciousness, so by negating thinking, level of consciousness goes up. And it's negating one's own personal thoughts and opinions and, and, and the value that one attributes to that. I feel like thought is the electricity, the negative charge going to the prefrontal cortex, when it's supposed to be sort of flowing through us as consciousness comes through us, it gets funneled into thoughts in the prefrontal cortex so that all that energy gets wasted in the prefrontal cortex as opposed to just having a flow. And then we're actually perceiving in the moment what's happening. Instead of perceiving our own abstractions about the past, I had an insight about the diabetes example that is often given about how people have to take their medications forever, just like diabetes. Well, actually, a lot of people manage their diabetes with just diet and lifestyle changes, and they don't take any medications. They have to have a very particular diet, very particular exercise and lifestyle, and they can manage it. Most people don't want to put the effort into that. So they have to take medication, which is fine. That's People's Choice. And I feel it's the same with me with bipolar. I can manage without medication. I haven't yet done that. But I feel I can. I might have to have a different lifestyle and diet and nutrition and things and it might take a lot more effort but If that's something I want to do, I should be able to do it. What I'm saying is if a person wants to get to the point of not having to take any medication, it takes work and it takes really learning about oneself. Another reason why I don't really want to work in the mental health field is because I feel like a lot of the research I've done over the last couple of years regarding mental health is silly in a way because that's acknowledging psychology and thoughts, which I feel are meant to be negated as Krishna Murty would say. So me being concerned about my mental state. And my is actually just reaffirming the me, which is the mental state, which is the the trouble in the first place, is being over, concerned with oneself. And it's interesting how in mania, one is completely fearless and not concerned with oneself at all, really. And then, as the process ends, and it's generally fearful. One is, again, afraid for oneself, one's fearful. And not that that's bad, it's necessary in the process of coming back. Because the me the ego itself is fear. So it makes sense that we would feel that fear pretty intensely. And that's interpreted as somebody's personal mental illness, when really they were detached from the personal and more existing in the universal. And then when one comes back down to the level of thought the level of society, then one needs that ego process again. And it's, it's scary. But that whole process doesn't mean it's a process to be feared, or prevented from happening again, I feel like if it's understood, it's easier to go through. And that's why I'm talking to myself to create my own understanding, to either prevent it from happening, perhaps, or, if it does happen to be less fearful of it. So mania is just consciousness, freed from thought, from personal ego thinking, there's a different level of thinking, which is from perception, which is a creative process. So it's almost like going from the ego, which is destructive to this creative process. And then we come back to this ego process, which is destructive. And one feels very loving and joyful, and the other feels fearful, and is giving the contrast to us, like how do we want to live in fear, or in this other state. And we can create this other state, by gesturing it into our brain into our nerve cells. In order for that, to maybe be more able to handle that level of consciousness filtering through our system. And also, it's almost like strength training to be able to maintain that level of consciousness to actually have it changed in us epigenetically. And we can actually exercise that we can do gestures, we can work out our nervous system and our our epigenetics and our, our chemistry in order to be able to uphold that level of consciousness. Because right now, we don't have that internal biology in order to withhold it. And then we're medicated into trying to never experience that again. And I don't think it's actually good to try to experience that state, I think it's good to exercise the body in such a way that one can hold that consciousness in the body without actually feeling manic, just it might even just feel normal. And that's the thing, once we get adapted, it feels normal. That state felt like this other worldly, spiritual, amazing, crazy, magical thing, because we haven't existed that way since childhood. And then we can act in different ways. So when that when we're actually in that level of consciousness, we've, we've earned it. We've practiced it in our body because we're so used to practicing our own ego and our own fear that that's why we stay in those states. I actually feel it's important to practice this because there could be a huge wave of this energy Coming this consciousness and a lot more of us could go into the states at the same time. And all of a sudden, the world could be on like this insanely crazy place. And if we practice these higher states and these levels in our neurology, then when that high energy comes, we'll be able to maintain it and stay there. And everyone else that falls into everything else will probably, it will probably be hell on earth for a lot of people. So this wave could actually be a clue of things to come. And then everyone else is trying to stop the people who are going through this from happening when they should be actually learning how to start to practice these states in their own neurology. So when that energy comes, they're going to be able to handle it, because the very people who are pathologizing us, could be the next to be pathologized

I watched a talk. And I think it was at this exponential medicine conference or something. And the guy, I don't know his name, he was talking about psilocybin mushrooms, and how they're doing studies that it really helps people if they're terminally ill at the end of their life to deal with the anxiety, of dying. And he was hoping other people are hoping that it might be rescheduled for use in that context for people who are really anxious about dying, and he said, there's an infinite wisdom within us, within consciousness that's unlocked by psilocybin. And I think it can be unlocked by many things, not just psilocybin. And I think that's one of the things that gets unlocked. When a person goes into map consciousness or manic consciousness is, it's like going into this state of infinite wisdom. And he also said, these are meaning making compounds. And I thought that was interesting, because I remember talking about the meaning making and how that's important. I think mob consciousness and mania is a state of making other meanings and assigning other values to reality than the ones that are programmed ego would have a sign. So again, I'm just taking what he said, and transferring that over to the experience of map consciousness, which, in my case has happened organically, I didn't have any kind of substance induced mania or psychosis. The point is that our own body can make these biomolecules endogenously, and will do so if there's some kind of need for that. So for some reason, my consciousness thought, it's time to go into map consciousness, it's time to go into mania, for whatever reason, and like Sean Blackwell said, it's a healing process, even psychosis as a healing process. It could even be helping to heal that one doesn't want to participate in this insane society. And when I was listening to this talk, I was thinking about how psychosis could even be partly for us to experience death, so we're not afraid of death. I've experienced psychosis and felt like I've died numerous times. I would say three times pretty strongly and then other times for sure, too. And the guy also said, they take the medicine once, and and it's a transformative experience. It recalibrates how they die. For one, it's a transformative experience. So it was map consciousness. And that can happen when the inner medicine of the body kicks in. The inner wisdom, it's the inner shaman that kicks in and turns on these processes to turns on these inner molecules in order to heal the psyche or whatever it needs to heal. It's, it's an inner death while living and, and we're judging that death as well. And we're not handling that death process. Well, either it's a death of the ego, or at least, elements of it. Even Eckhart totally says, to die before you die and realize there's no death. Well, this is part of what map consciousness is dying before you die. And the other interesting statement is it recalibrates how they die. Well, I think map consciousness recalibrates how we live, at least it's supposed to. And I've even used that word recalibrate. Yet, after our recalibration when we're at our weakest point, because it's sort of drained us of everything we know to be true. We're given the story that were mentally ill and effective. When if we knew anything about neuroplasticity, we would know that's not true. It's a matter of distracting all those circuits that are not serving us or humanity anymore. And then growing again, as something new, just like a forest fire burns the whole forest down well then a new growth forest, and it's even stronger because it's some of the seeds that survived the fire. So whatever His left after the fire of mania and psychosis is what we're supposed to grow from. And it's usually channeled into this process they call recovery, which is you're mentally ill and you're defective. And you're going to be stigmatized, because we've given you this, and you're gonna have to walk around saying, I'm mentally ill and defective, but don't stigmatize me. Because that's what we say that you should say and how you should interpret this. It's a rebirth. It's, it's a rediscovery and recreation process, and psychosis. And mania is like this fire that burns everything that we don't need anymore. And then it's up to us to, to move into that which is indestructible, because it can only destroy those parts of us which are not real. And part of the recalibration is to open our hearts. And he mentioned in the video, something called the noetic quality, which is encountering ultimate reality. There's definitely a noetic quality in mania and psychosis. And when we experience that ultimate reality, sometimes we are sounding like we're confused and things because it's a state full of awe and wonder. And sometimes we can only use metaphors to try and put it into words. He talked about set and setting for the people he administered the psilocybin to and how important it is. For people in mob consciousness, they're set and setting often is their same old, mundane life, or the structure of society, which is not structured for somebody to be in mob consciousness for long periods of time without getting freaked out. And then not only that, people are taken to scary settings, such as psych hospitals. And then, since they're so vulnerable, and sensitive and consciousness, they can react to that. And then they look like they're mentally ill or something when really, they're afraid, because they should be. And I was thinking about how people might be allowed to have these states of consciousness to go into altered states of consciousness at the end of their life. They're not now but maybe if they change the laws, people will be able to take that from a doctor at the end of life in order to feel comfortable with dying. Yet, it's not okay to have map consciousness any other way at any other point in time, is not allowed. Part of the trouble with psychosis is it's just not allowed. Any gave some examples of what people were saying, after they experienced having the psilocybin mushroom experience. And people are saying, we're all one and all these beautiful things that I'm thinking, wouldn't that be good to know at the beginning of life would not be a good experience to give people when they're just hitting puberty? Wouldn't that create a different world yet, oh, since these people are dying, we're going to let them have this altered state of consciousness in a safe and controlled environment, which in a lot of shamanic cultures, is part of rites of passage, where people are given some kind of teacher plant or something in order for people to have that experience, to inform the rest of their life not to inform the end of their life. And he was saying, consciousness is made out of love, and all this lovely stuff, and I'm thinking to myself, these are the things people need to know before they enter into adulthood, not just before they go to the other side. And I think that's part of what map consciousness is trying to do, is creating the same experience of psilocybin mushroom endogenously we can do that spontaneously. We can't by our own will, but by the will of something else, which is one of the reasons why it feels so mystical and and otherworldly is because we don't necessarily, always consciously intend for that to happen. So even though we have this illusion of control, under this illusion of freewill, we only do to a very limited extent. And you talked about seeing ultimate reality and how Love is the answer. And it's just silly to me because if that's really what that does, People should be given that. In high school, not when they're dying. It's just It seems so obvious that the only way it would be allowed this way is because people are going to die. And it's like mercy on these people who have maybe sold their life into some other crap that they didn't even want to do. Because they didn't know that love was the answer from the beginning, because it's programmed out of us. So it's a good start, that people might be allowed to die in peace. After not living in peace, mania is the mind exercising the brain, consciousness can exercise the brain, the level of consciousness, exercises the brain. And it seems a consciousness wants us to get used to these extreme changes in consciousness, and people who are able to do that will actually have an advantage. something beyond us is changing our consciousness. Part of this is the perspective taking. That's part of how the mind uses the brain to create itself. We have to be able to see from all the infinite perspectives of the total mind. That's our job as human beings, we're probably the only creature that can do that. The mind consciousness is changing our brains. And we think that the planet will be destroyed. But I think what will actually be destroyed first is our own brain. Because there's a certain percentage of people right now, with their brains not working properly. The brain is not really being views properly is being wasted. I think wise brains will last Dr. Albert vitiligo said, nature selects for wisdom. And if map consciousness is a state of wisdom of learning, I feel that nature is going to select for brains that have the whole spectrum of wisdom, the whole spectrum of consciousness, and other brains will be deteriorating, where they can't even really function anymore. And the wisdom is all those natural, innate human dimensions, those inner human dimensions are what feed the brain really cooperation. laughter, oxytocin. Our brains are starved of the nutrients of relationship and unconditional love, which are oxytocin type experiences. I just looked up oxytocin, it looks like it might be increased by vitamin C. I just looked up oxytocin. And it looks like it might be increased by vitamin C. I was thinking about that other TED talk I watched, which was flex your cortex, and how one of her secrets was thinking big. And it occurred to me that most people don't even know how to think big. Because we're so busy thinking about the past. Or we're so busy thinking about our knowledge, or what we've memorized or stuff like that. So we don't actually know how to think big. And I was thinking that my self dialog processes sort of, like thinking big. They're not really big thoughts, but they're just a lot of thoughts. And there are a lot of new thoughts and different thoughts and some overlap. And and in that way, I think it's creating new brain cells in my brain and, and probably more blood flow to my brain as well. But it just sort of occurred to me that I don't even know if people know how to use their brains in this way, or in a similar way. People might be able to watch a TED talk or something and nod their head and smile. But can they actually interpret it? Can they actually extrapolate it? Can they actually find the meaning and and what's implicit In what's being said and relate that to other areas, or can they just absorb it and try to memorize it and then regurgitate it later. And I feel like what she's talking about thinking big, doesn't mean regurgitating what other people said, because those are old memories, or even memorizing something in general. causes, I think, scar tissue in the brain, because we're not really meant to memorize things. Because if our brains are perceiving and, and seeing and thinking in the moment, then our brains are doing its job. Because it's responding to the moment. And if we adequately respond to the moment, we don't really have to think about something else. And if we need some kind of other information, we'll be able to find it, or it will just appear in our consciousness, without having to actually think about it or remember it, it'll just, it'll just be there. Just sort of like, aha, our brains are supposed to work more like a ha, you recap all day long. Not I am this and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. So so you have part of this, me talking to myself, is the thinking big, and maybe other people might see that this is about thinking for oneself. And growing one's own brain. Instead of being thinked. By old thinking, I feel like saying, I think if it comes from memory, if it comes from the past, if it comes from a personal psychological thought, should be more like I thought, I thought I thought, and that's more equating what's really going on in somebody's head, which is like old scar tissue, as opposed to actual using one's brain to see. So I really hope that people might be able to start seeing the thinking, not saying what I saw yesterday, or 10 years ago, and replaying that in once consciousness, which keeps one in the level of consciousness of those thoughts. And as a prison. When you hyper learn in this way, you don't need memory. If you need memory, it will be there. But you don't have to actually be using any of your energy to find it. If your mind screen isn't full of your own past thoughts and thinking about yourself, that's where those memories that you need, or information or, or ideas will will appear, appear not as a linear associative process, but just likely holographically. And it is likely holographic because, as they say, every bit of information in the entire universe is available at every point in the universe. So if our brain or mind screen isn't clogged up with anything holographically in that moment, as the moment requires, the light of your awareness will access that because you can be aware of it. Because you're clear. When you're always remembering things, it's in the way of that clarity. And the hyper learning state without memory is intrinsically motivating, without having to think about what is motivating, because that's a memory. So even once motivation has to be negated. And I feel that with mob consciousness, it takes a while to grow into our expanded awareness and to be able to be aware, without falling into the trap of getting used by some of the things that we become aware of takes time To adapt. Like I mentioned before, it's like being blind, and then all of a sudden having surgery, to restore eyesight. We think we see the world but we don't we just see our own past. And it's interesting because we see our own personal past and in my consciousness, a lot of times we get access to the past of the collective of humanity. And it's almost like the past of the collective of humanity, led up to the point where we're born. And then we see in that same way, and we continue those perceptions. So, us being born as a perceptual apparatus in the universe, was preceded by all the collective perceptions up until that point. So it makes sense that in my consciousness, we have to go through that entire spectrum of all of the perceptions of humanity in order to rid ourselves of those perceptions because we can't really rid ourselves of something that we're not aware of. So we become aware of all of that, so we can say goodbye to it, and not have it as part of our perceptual apparatus. I feel like map consciousness is neuroplasticity, it is learning is the brain learning about the mind. And then a person comes back from that state, and everything is done to try to stop it. Whereas everywhere else in science and brain science they're trying to study neuroplasticity, when it comes to people who go through these neuro plastic, extreme experiences these extreme experiences of neuroplasticity. They're given meds to stop it from happening again. And it's never equated to neuroplasticity, or let's research neural plasticity and for people recovering from spinal injury or from for people recovering from some kind of happening at birth or, or, or stroke. But, oh, people diagnosed with mental illness or that has nothing to do with neuroplasticity. We don't want to think about that. Because that's the brain turning on hyper neuroplasticity for itself by itself without the need of science or anything. So we don't want we don't want that because you can't patent the brain turning on its own neuroplasticity. So second brain growth and pruning. And the brain is trying to outgrow the society's trying to operate at higher levels of consciousness in order to create a different society. The brain is trying to wake itself up and is trying to learn how to celebrate and be joyous for no reason because reasons are given to us by society. reasons are programmed and so his motivation. Motivation is like focus. They tell us what to be motivated by and for and to focus on. And if we're not motivated by those things, then with something must be wrong with us. Just means we weren't able to accept that programming.

It's interesting how it's taken a lot of words, a lot of self dialogue in order to replace the programming I've been given about mental illness. Even though I never really believed the diagnosis when I got it. I remember thinking that's not it. Even though I knew that was an ad, I didn't really know what it was. And I still don't. But I'm starting to feel like we're not mentally ill, we're neuro plastic. We're not our egos. We're not our personalities. I feel like I'm not mentally ill, my brain is trying to grow into higher levels of consciousness. But it's not really mirrored and reflected in society. So it's difficult to stay there if one doesn't really understand what's going on. And especially if one doesn't understand what's going on, and goes back down to lower levels of consciousness back to ego consciousness. And then if one inherits the understanding that it's just a pathological mental illness, that one's definitely not going to grow into higher levels of consciousness, one's definitely not going to act in ways that will actually help grow the brain in these other ways. And I think that's one of the reasons why in mania, we connect with things like altruism, and, and so many of these things related to the oneness of humanity, because it's this higher level of consciousness, then we come back down, and we're told, we have this individual mental illness when our brains were growing into the consciousness of oneness, which isn't the dominant level of consciousness, but one can still move towards that. One can still work to neuro plastically rewire one's brain, according to that by harvest, practicing embodying one's mania. And I don't even think one actually has to really harvest practice an embody it. one just has to open one's brain back up to learning moment to moment. Whether it's learning about prior manic states, or whether it's just going out and embodying it, embodying something other than one's habitual conditioned personality. By allowing the surprise of consciousness to interject the stream of habitual self ego me reflexive thoughts, the brain is trying to actualize its potential, to embody the mind to embody the consciousness, that is the highest level of consciousness, we're here to embody, which is unconditional love. It's almost like our brains have gotten to a point where they're just getting so narrow, that it collapses upon itself. And then the neuro plastic process turns back on as an emergency mechanism of consciousness to save to salvage some brains. We can only save our own brain. It's transconscious brain growth, when the brain gets access to higher levels of consciousness, it grows, it grows neurons to actually be able to mirror that level of consciousness. So people who have gone to those higher states have the blueprint, it's just a matter of acting based on that blueprint. It grows because it can see different perspectives. So seeing is what grows the brain actually seeing, we're always seeing the past, the brains not growing, and consciousness is non local, it can leave the body, I had an experience once where I was a bird flying south. And in that process, we learn different meanings, we learn other meanings of what it is to be alive. And then when we come back to ego consciousness, we re inherit those meanings. And not only that, when heard the meaning that we're defective when we're mentally ill, and this isn't about convincing anyone that they're not mentally ill or that they are mentally ill. It's about finding out for yourself what you want to think about yourself. And being confused is an important part of the process. Because it means we have to rearrange our mental models, just like Jason Silva says, with the experience of or an experience of such perceptual vastness that we literally have to rearrange our mental models in order to integrate it. prefrontal cortex is what generates abstract thoughts. And when we decouple from our ego, and then we come back to it, we can have some scary thoughts that we don't think we are thinking. But it's generated by the prefrontal cortex. And when we're trying to end our life, we're actually trying to end the prefrontal cortex, we're trying to end those thoughts, and our personality, we're not actually trying to end our life, some of us do end up ending our life. But we really just want those thoughts to stop. Again, it's another mechanism by which the prefrontal cortex has been destroyed by people ending their own lives. Being told were defective, is very destructive, because we're just getting back to learning. And if we're told we're defective, we're not going to continue learning, we're going to stop the learning process. Not only that, we tend to isolate because we're think we're defective. And then that isolation also causes further atrophying of the brain. It atrophies the relational aspect of the brain and the mind. So part of harvesting mania is thinking about things in many, many ways, and not grasping onto anything in particular, through my whole process of self dialog, haven't held too tightly on to anything that I've said. And in not hanging on to anything tightly. I've had more insights into how I might want to talk about it with myself, to the point now where I'm seeing that it could just be the brain attempting to grow. And it's growing pains. And the brain is trying to grow into consciousness. And I like that reframe. I'm curious to know what's to come in terms of reframing. But I feel I've definitely gotten to the point of talking myself out of feeling like it's a mental illness. And like I said, I've never really felt that it was but I've, I've still participated in things related to mental illness. And a lot of it is very valuable, especially the psychosocial stuff, because it keeps people from isolating. And a lot of the people I know, who I'm friends with, through this process, are amazing people. And so for me, it has nothing to do with mental illness, it's just about connecting with friends. In my consciousness, we suspend our opinions and our judgments, or they're suspended for us. And they're pushed out by the speed of processing, in which we can see clearly in the moment and understand. And then that produces a lot more words, because of that information coming through all the senses. Clear seeing and clear perception is what grows the brain. Makes sense. Because if we're thinking something old, it's not going to be something new. That's going to grow the brain, expand the brain make new connections, it's an old connection. And if the brain is clear, it can see and it can learn. And I feel like you might find if you can see and learn in that way. There's not really that much else you need. You don't need motivation, you don't need all of these other abstract concepts, because your brain is clear and it's doing exactly what it is meant to do. And so that's all the meaning it needs. Doesn't have to search for meaning. Because the very meaning is the brain, which is learning and if it can't learn it's going to be looking for meaning because it's all clogged up with abstractions and and crap. I was thinking about a lot of these nutritional bio types of bipolar how they require more B vitamins and and B vitamins are mostly made in our gut by gut back Turia. So this could have something to do with, again, how the microorganisms and how we kill them is actually destroying our brains. And I think that is the case, in some research in autism and, and it is partly the case with mental health, and they even say 80% of serotonin is made in the gut. So with our overuse of antibiotics, we think we're killing these pathogens, but really, we're destroying our own brains. And the bacteria actually helped to create our brains. The bacteria partly are our brains. And we're against them too. And bipolar is like bipolar, hyper sensitivity, and bipolar, hyper perception. When we're hypersensitive and hyper perceiving, we're hyper learning. Because we see more, so we were processing more, we feel more, we're processing more. Society is designed in such a way that we don't even feel how we're killing ourselves in a slow and painful way. our emotions too, are because we're not learning. We're busy thinking about the past and emoting about the past. And that's wasting our molecules and our nutrition. And then we need more nutrition in order to actually exist in the material world. And, and we're emoting about the past because we're not fully engaged in the present. So all of this waste of energy is because we're not in the present moment. Because we can't deal with what's happening in the present moment. Because we don't know how, because we don't know how to learn, because we're busy thinking about the past. And we've turned the material world into habit. And by doing that, we're habitually going about our day, and we're not even present. And then we're busy worrying and moaning about things in our brain. So we're living in our own emotions in our brain. If we're fully engaged in the present learning, we wouldn't be emoting. And we wouldn't be wasting our nutrients and, and destroying our brains. magcon consciousness showed me what I need to do to build the Dream Center and I think I talked about the Dream Center before, but I just want to tell myself about it again. When I think about it, the Dream Center would be about allowing people to go through their transconscious experience in order to shift from perceiving through the past the scar tissue of neurons in the brain. And that is decoupled from and then all of a sudden one is existing as their neuro plastic brain. They're infinitely pliable brain as Krishna Murty would say. They're not acting as a programmed reaction to the past. I finished watching Sean Blackwell's videos and he talked about how the spectrum of psychosis is the same as the spectrum of consciousness. So in a way, the remedy for psychosis is an increase in level of consciousness. I don't think the question is how to solve mental illness. It's how to be fully alive and gesture oneself into joy. Will you join me

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