This one also had a weird flow to it. Think of what it might feel like to meet someone you really look up to. I've never been big on feeling like I had any particular 'heroes' or 'idols', but I do admire and acknowledge the work that the General Authorities of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints do. I know we're overdue for a recovery and psychology episode, and it's coming.

I haven't had a lot of feedback / questions / comments lately, so I'm just pushing out extra content in the meantime. I really get very excited to dive into whatever you guys are curious about, so please feel free to reach out to me even anonymously. (Wisdom App is easiest for anonymous route.)

P.S. I forgot to add this 'impressions' hybrid was inspired by the way I felt a funny feeling and followed it and wound up with the Gongs for a second time at the RootsTech event last week.

This one was such a mess in my eyes I felt tempted to boot it to the bonus section. I also felt tempted to just stop recording and give it a different go another time. But I promised you all uncut, unedited, unscripted, genuine content... and for better or for worse, that's what this one became. I started this podcast so I could try to help inspire others, but the full circle in that is also needing to practice sharing my story(s) so that I can learn how to better inspire others.

Hey guys, welcome to Season 2! I really did. manage to stick to shorter and sweeter, but I definitely did end up on quite a tangent. I really hope you guys agree with me that it seemed to be a pretty necessary and honest one. Give this a listen, don't forget to reach out to me with comments and feedback, and ask yourself if you believe me when it comes to me and paperclips. (;

Tender mercies aren't always easy to come by, or are they? Though they may be small, they can be mighty. Here's your first list of examples of me getting a kick out of even of the silliest examples and jokes when it comes to looking back on the play by play of this wild life I'm living.

As always, take care and thanks for listening. SERIOUSLY. Feel free to check out the Wisdom App or Facebook page if you're not sure of how to get in touch.

For those of you who didn't hear the draft one practice session, I'm guessing quite a bit changed between the two. I'll have to give that previous 'Talk Prep' bonus episode a listen. Here's the version that I ended up sharing at my stake conference! It's me doing my best to do some justice for some of my crazy temple stories. I have many and perhaps you'll hear some more of them in episode 5 or 6. (;

As always, thanks for listening! And please keep reaching out to me with more feedback! Text is fine if you have my number. If not there's the pubic access Facebook group or the wisdom app available. You can even ask me questions anonymously on there. (:

We're back and better than ever. Thank you for all the support along the way! I hope as I spin us in a new direction you guys like the new vibe even more. I christened us with a new theme song because we're turning a whole new leaf.

I want to hyperfocus us on a specific story or set of stories with every episode, telling them within a span of 10 or 20 minutes depending on how many pieces of the domino effect. You'll also probably hear a lot more about the iceberg effect this season.

I'm sure we've all had moments that felt like a breath of fresh air. Moments where felt something otherworldly even if it was small. Moments where there was some kind of purpose or at least something less stagnant. Something special. Something memorable. In the recovery community we often call them moments of grace or refer to them as moments of clarity. In the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (LDS) you'll often hear us kick around terms like 'tender mercies' and seeing through 'the eye of faith'. In Riid Doctrine (meaning Riid's credo), you'll probably listen to me get into what I call "Mind's Eye."... (Starting in Episode 4 (;)

Buckle up for another rollercoaster ride, and don't forget there's more than one way you can ask me questions or give me feedback anonymously if there's something my podcasts stir up in you.

In classic slogan logic I bid you adieu by saying it's time to let go and let God. This season will be jam packed with me trying to describe the indescribable. The moments of standing on the summits of mountains I didn't even realize I was climbing. The example of times that the only set of footprints left in the sand certainly weren't my own.

So this one is a little dark, pretty heavy, and at times flat out triggering to some I'm sure. I -DID NOT- include any explicit details of ANY of the abuse/neglect I endured various places. This gave you a basic overview of my life from age -1/0 to age 8. These are your formative years, crucial to many patterns that will playout through your adolescence, into adulthood and perhaps even through your entire life if you're unable to get the help you need to correct and deficits of this nature.

As a survivor of mental, emotional, spiritual, physical, sexual and eventually domestic abuse, I developed a lot of red flag tendencies as early as age four. I've worked tirelessly to keep striving towards the kind of person I want to be rather than the person I was quite unintentionally raised to be. All of the adults who surrounded me in my childhood were only humans too, humans who had endured their own struggles and traumas. I don't want to demonize or dehumanize them, and I don't want to agonize myself with explaining of the details at this juncture either. I did my best to give a grounded and fair perspective on several of the things that happened when I was younger and in no way shape or form went beyond scratching the surface of everything that occurred.

You're still invited and encouraged to reach out with questions, feedbacks or even stories of your own even on a session full of sensitive subject as this one. It makes it a lot harder for you to trample a nerve when I didn't dig in to expose the rawest nerves if that makes any sense. The more gruesome details were not included or even fully implied, although they were eluded to. Please don't pry, but also PLEASE do not be shy. I started this podcast hoping to help other people. Maybe you know someone who's been through certain things and you're seeking a better understanding of how to be supportive and THAT we will hopefully cover within the next two episodes.

Per usual, this went some places- but would you expect anything less of me? 613 days sober is a pretty good start, but I'm hoping this is still just the warm up stretch. I basically found my sobering up by almost by accident nearing two years ago. I had already been off of other substances for a few years, but we'l save the details of that for another time. When I moved out to Utah, I hadn't quite expected to feel so disconnected from the local recovery community, but I'm doing my best to bridge the gap one baby step at a time.

In this blab session you'll hear me touch on the three lies about the church that irk me the most. You'll also hear me vent just a smidge about how unwelcoming/off-putting being LDS can be in some circles. You'll also hear me to start to explain the traditions, get distracted trying to explain the steps and completely forget to circle back to explaining the traditions. In essence, traditions mostly help regulate how we interact with our fellow members and carry ourselves regarding our individual groups.

So for right now, given the fact that I have elected to severely limit my attendance at meetings, let's start by simply asking: Would You Believe Me if I Told You I'm Still Sober? And maybe at some point later we can chat about whether or not you'd believe me if I told you about my active addiction(s). Yes, plural. As always, thanks for listening and please reach out for anything and everything!

Welcome back to the wild Wild West, this one probably deserved more of a warning label, but it's still under so much revision it's like aiming to find a needle in a haystack in the middle of rainstorm. Good luck. I promise I kept it as light as possible in spite of the heavy topics I'm trying to tango with.

If you can't feel the disconnects in the delivery rhythm in this practice session compared to the last time I did a prep round like this, I can assure you they're there. It may not be a huge deal to be asked to speak at a stake conference period, but this opportunity is important to me. There's some nerves involved, but there's also just me being me and telling a tale in a round about way instead of being linear and concise. Thanks for putting up with me, guys. As always- feedbacks, comments, questions and concerns are welcome. Reach out. Also keep in mind, it's very possible I'm going to start another rewrite from the ground up tonight.

At the end of the day I know things will work out exactly how they were meant to, I'll say whatever needed to be said, but the process of searching for what that is is a learning process. I'm still on a huge learning curve since everything is still so new. Attending my third stake conference ever. Preparing a talk for my second time ever. So I' still working to cut myself some slack where it's due, but I'm also trying to not slack off. I was chosen for a reason, I don't want to make it to that podium and stand there all for nothing.

This is another round where I decided to keep it short, I eluded to the last bit of your missing timeline from the early episodes, and I threw a bunch of random other stuff at you per usual. I've had an interesting kickoff for 2023, but I'm still chalked full of an oddly faithful diligence. I call it odd, because my faith definitely shook in recent days. I still have plenty of hope, and per usual I was excited for the chance to tell you guys about some things. Thank you to everyone who's been listening, and a special thanks to anyone who doesn't feel comfortable reaching out to me with their feedback/stories. YOU are just as important in my following. If you want to do that Q&A thing, download the wisdom app. If not, there's PLENTY, (maybe even too many) ways to reach out. Much love. Happy New Year!

This probably not so pretty little number is a sleepy Riid ramble, which are always their own special deal. I can't thank the people who've been listening to all my nonsense enough. I hope that you take the time to do even one kind thing for yourself today. I also hope you start challenging others to do the same. I'm the brazen type, I'll say it point blank... But I don't expect us all to be like that! Find a way that works for you and get to it. IT MATTERS.

Okay, enough with the cheesy. Lately I've been spreading myself a smidge too thin, just a smidge. Just a smidge that seems to usually cost me physical rest, but gains me everything else under the sun in exchange. I'll have plenty of downtime in the next couple weeks to try to make more progress on a few things, including this podcast. Don't forget to reach out with questions, and THANK YOU for all of the feedback thus far. Faith, trust and spirit dust. Peace signs up.