Today is the start of a three-day birthday celebration with my sister. As an INTJ in the house with 9 other women (all from different walks of life) FOR THE WEEKEND, I thought it would be enlightening to keep a running record of my experiences and the reflections they inspire. This and the next few episodes will be different from others in this project. I am both expectant and hesitant and curious about what I will learn. This is truly Part 1. Stay tuned...

This reflection ends with a question about the milder version of the self. Throughout, I talk about my self as an Enneagram EIGHT and come to understand when I'm compelled to be mild, medium or hot. This is a good episode if you want to understand the nature of the Enneagram as a personality system, especially if you are a Type EIGHT. I also talk a lot about INFJs, Feelings and Thinking. This is a jargon heavy episode so newbies to personality theory should be prepared to pause frequently and use the Internet to look up words and concepts.

This reflection ends with a discussion about the essence of a person that fundamentally forms their (pronoun intentionally selected) existence. I define this essence as gifted overflow and raise questions about quantity, control, reciprocity and relationships. In this part of the reflection I also talk about my own specific overflow and the ways I incorporate it into my work. To get to this ending point, I meander through a lot of randomness that could serve as good food for thought. Theoretical Frames: The Instinctual Stack (of the Enneagram)

This reflection pretty much has three parts. Part 1 is an update on the lessons I'm learning from the pain point. Part 2 is a discussion about the overflow of your sweet spot (expertise or super powers). Finally, Part 3 is about intrapersonal dynamics of social ills (it's a nature-nurture discussion about collectives without resources). The reflections ends with a cool assignment (and discussion) about nuanced identities.

This reflections opines a theory about xxxJs in the MBTI system. Whether that J removes or rebuilds, it is having an impact on the outer world for the sake of the Matrix (to protect it or to disrupt it). This reflection is the last installment of the social interaction series (Part III) where I use the Covid vaccine to help understand homeostasis and the social order. MBTI focus: Fe and Ti. Other important discussion points: growth orientation vs fixed orientation.

This reflection has two distinct halves. In the first half, I talk about getting the Covid 19 vaccine. Here, I fall into a rabbit hole about power (as in authority), small talk, and the methodical roll out to a mass vaccination process. In the second half I talk about the biological nature of the vaccine (as relating to antibodies, viruses, cells and mRNAs) and the way it functions in the body. This reflection is Part II to an impression I'm having about social interaction and the essential self (which started with the previous episode entitled "Essentialism"). Random points: natural selection/Darwinism; and schools re-opening/teachers as essential workers.

While this reflection is being named essentialism, it actually explores three different philosophies concerning knowing: idealism, realism and pragmatism. I'm leaving essentialism as the title as it relates to the an overarching impression I am experiencing about social interactions and the self. This particular episode is set to be Part I to that impression.

This reflection uses the design of the paper ketchup cup to challenge our sense of personal capacity, awareness and intuition.

In this reflection, I finally reveal my deepest wounds and do so through the context of two frameworks: systems theory and "Mothers Who Can't Love" (a book published by Dr. Susan Forward). As anticipated, this episode is my longest to date (90 minutes in length) and is emotional (in the style of an INTJ of course). Listen with care. Please visit my website for more information on the two frameworks discussed: www.yournidom.wordpress.com.

Note: The real value of this reflection begins somewhere around Minute 43 (there is insignificant chatter--due to discomfort- before then).

This reflection is about a single (specific and distinct) moment of growth. This is set to be Part 1 to a larger conversation about Apollo 13. Specific talking points: The INTJ Academic, intergenerational trauma, the nature and limits of self as the problem, the sexual instinct, and self-actualization.