On your journey of truth and surrender, finding a role model - by way of a structure to follow - is pretty much impossible. Those who are journeying their way either keep private about such things or just aren't accessible from the path you are currently on. Change is scary at the best of times without there being a lack of structure, cause and effect examples and cultural acceptance. For example our modern world shows us that we go to school, make good grades, get a well paying job and when we become too tired physically we retire so someone else can take our place. A soul led life is not widely accepted, is not well document and certainly isn't for the masses (yet). Much love and light to you all